DIE.

Hey everyone.
Mind me for the things that i'm gonna say later on.

FUCK YOU BLOODY DOOOOFUSS !!!
DON'T TAKE THE THINGS I DO FOR GRANTED !!
AND PLEASE,
STOP THINKING THAT I AM SUPPOSE TO DO ALL THE STUFFS.
BECAUSE I AM SO FUCKING NOT.
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO'S LIVING IN OUR HOUSE,
YOU'RE NOT EVEN THANKFUL AND JUST LOVE TO BE ANNOYING.
PLEASE LAH,
YOU'RE ALREADY 28,
BE MATURED PLEASE.
AT LEAST,
RENT A HOUSE TO LIVE,
DON'T RELY ON OTHERS ANYMOREE.
FUCKING USELESS FREAK.
PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE JUST FUCKING DESTINED TO BE A FAILURE FOR YOUR WHOLE FUCKING LIFE.

Pfffttt.
I'm still PISSED.
This is the first time in my life,
After all the swearings and vulgars and i'm still pissed.

ANYWAYS,
I was referring to my COUSIN.
Who lives with us for SO LONG and still haven't decide to shift yet.
Remember i was actually living at my old big house before i shifted ?
Yeah,
He was staying there too.
And he's from Ipoh.
He came here to work.
So maybe he decided to LIVE HERE.
Bloody useless ass hole.

ANYWAYS,
THIS IS GONNA BE A LOONG STORY.
FROM FEW YEARS AGO UNTIL WHAT HAPPENED JUST NOW.

Anyways,
So he lived in our house.
And then i think he kinda works in the bank.
And he sucks lah.
Attitude problem and all.
Kind of almost the whole family dislikes him.
Even my dad.
I always wanted to talk bout the bad stuffs that he did but Mommy always stop me.
So i respect her lah,
If not,
I think i already made daddy hate him long ago.
Ugh,
He should be fucking thankful.

Anyways,
After we shift to this new house.
He still FOLLOWS.
Like HELLOOO ?
SERIOUSLY,
HOW LONG DO YOU WANNA FOLLOW US ??
Anyways,
After we shift.
For quite some time,
Almost more than a month i think.
He always go work at 12 lidat.
I mean,
Who starts working at 12 in the afternoon?!??!?!
AND,
HE COMES BACK AT 3.
So i felt weird lah.
I asked my daddy,
Even my daddy suspect.
He said maybe that ass hole doesn't have a work now.
I was so fuckin shocked.
He doesn't go to work anymore.. =.="
For god's sake,
He's already 28 lah,
Please fucking grow up.

Anyways,
I think he works now lah.
Okayy so remember i bought a PSP ???
Me & my 2 brothers all paid 200 bucks to share it.
ANYWAYS,
He always play the PSP instead of us.
And he never even pay for it.
So we were pissed lah.
And 1 day,
My brother was sleeping in his room and during midnight.
That useless freak was still playing the PSP and on the volume FRICKIN loud.
My brother woke up and got pissed.
My brother opened the door and shouted,
"GO OUT !!!"
The useless freak got shocked and was looking at my brother,
Then he go to my room and continued playing =.="

ANYWAYS,
He continued annoys us for so many months.
And 1 day he was playing MY PSP in my brother's room.
And i was playing the computer and youtube-ing.
Suddenly,
He said,
"Please lower down the volume, I can't listen to the PSP's music lah" <=== P/s : It's a gayy colourr
As if i will.
I totally ignored him.

And the 2nd day,
He said the same thing again.
This time i got pissed.
I offed everything.
Get off from the chair and fuckin pushed it,
He looked at me with his fugly face again.
Ugh,
I wanna puke.

ANYWAYS,
MAIN POIINTTT.
JUST NOWWW,
I finished eating and i was washing my plates (as usual).
And he came over to put down his plate and bowl and then said,
"Together lah."
I answered,
"You come back later see your plates got wash or not."
So i totally walk off after i washed my plates.
But my MOM,
Insisted me to FRICKIN WASH IT.
I was PISSED because this isn't the first time.
2 days ago he did the same also.
Just put down his plate there.
Fucking lazy ass hole.
You stay here free still wan so damn lazy.
Nvr collect rent from you already very good.
Always got freee food to eat somemore.
Oh yeah,
He's a monster also.
His record was FIVE PACKETS OF MAGGI MEEEEE IN A BOWL.
Not seperate throughtout the day you know.
It's ALL IN ONE.

Ugh,
I'm damn pissed lah.
ASs holes like him don't deserve this.
I tell you,
Next time i wanna make more money than him and be a more successful person than him.
Don't wanna end up like him,
A trash in the house.
I hope he doesn't follow us when we shift to Sri Petaling.
Ugggggghhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm still fucking pissed.
HE NEVER HELP OUT WITH CHORES ALSOOO !!!
Okayy,
That's too much,
Sorry =.="
Anyways,
GodCurse that fella !!!

P/s : I have 2 cousins living in my house. I'm referring to the elder one, The younger brother's really nice and friendly ;) But the elder one is definitely NOT.

Sorry...

Hey everyone.
I just want to apologise to my darling May Yen... =(

Dear May Yen,
Sorry for treating you like that today... I didn't mean it... I know i'm an asshole for doing that. It's not that i don't cherish our friendship.. Really... I love you alot lahhh. You're my best friendd.. =( You're the one who always layan me in school, not like some people, only layan me when they're mood is good... I don't wanna lose you... Cos i really cherish our friendship... I promise i won't do it anymore... Cos i really don't mean it lah... I'll do anything to make it up... Sorry kayy ? Please accept my apology =( I'll sing a song for youu =D I'm sure you haven't heardme sing b4.. Always brag in front of you but you've nvr heard b4... So i'll dedicate a song for you =D Only for you.. No one is that honoured to receive a song from mme b4.. xD!! Anyways, I just hope we'll be best fren's like normal again okay ? Pleasee... =(

Carnival. Old Friends. Disappointed.

Hey everyone.
Yeah it's Sri Saujana's Carnival yesterday.
Not gonna update much bout it cos it was kinda boring... (no offense cos everyone said that..)
Anyways,
There wasn't much ppl from Primary..
Kinda little i guess..
Well i only remembered i saw Xiang Mei,
LOL.
Oh yeah and i also saw Chong Min Hui's mom.
She's like,
"Wahhhh 'Cai Yao Jin' (my chinese name). Wahh, why you suddenly become so leng chai wannn ? When i see you last year also not so leng chai wan wohh"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD
I didn't mean to be perasan but on that second,
I really wanted to reply her..
"I knowww"
xD!!!
Ok,
Enough of bragging.
Oh and i saw this old friend.
I was looking at her and she was looking at me.
I smiled at her and she smiled back then i continued walking.
Suddenly,
She asked,
"Do i know you ??"
I turned back and answered her (While Jia Meng they all decided to leave me alone)

Spell : Yah, from Yoke Nam rite ??

Old Friend : Yah, what's your name again ? I kinda forgot.

Spell : "Cai Yao Jin" (In chinese), you remember ?

Old Friend : Errr... Yah... (sounds awkward LOL) I saw you and i just felt that you look sooo familiar.

Spell : Haha, you too. I saw you then i already know who're you.

Old Friend : Haha, wow, you've changed alot.

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And alot more lah..
And during primary school days,
We SERIOUSLY wasn't close friends.
We seldom talk also.
But then yesterday.
We talked as if like we're closeee friends.
LOL.
And i was actually happy to meet some old friends..
I didn't know i would..
Cos as everyone knows,
I don't wanna meet old primary school friends cos my primary school days was kinda bad.
I don't really have friends.. (Until standard 6 when i met a retarded guy named Ben followed by a guy who always speak vulgar even though in such a small age named Jia Meng)
Anyways,
The reason i don't wanna go back to primary or etc is because,
I guess i already had enough of the days of being alone.
I seriously don't like the feel of being lonely.
I wonder how i can stand it last time...
Haha..
I remember i used to eat alone in recess during primary school days.
I actually think it was normal.
But now,
I think i'm really lonely.
Kinda pitty the oldd mee.
With no friends and all..
But now,
I have lotsa frens..
And also,
They won't mind whatever's awful about me and helped me out =D
They're the ones that i can't manage to lose them.
Every one of them has to be in my life =D

Anyways,
I guess..
After this Carnival thingy and met with some friends.
I guess i WILL go back to my primary more often and also to some other school's Carnival...
Haha,
I've finally got through this.
Kinda happy =D!!

Anyways,
I'm helping out for the Sesi Penggambaran tomorrow and also Tuesday...
So...
No classes for me xD
Muahahahaha.
Hope teacher doesn't scold...
Ciaozz =]

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So many topics about me,
I've heard about it...
My happinesss wasn't real,
No one was there for me even when i was emotional...

Why is it when i'm weak,
I'll think of you more?...

If you've heard about it...
Will you think of me ?...
Just like an old normal friend ?
Or you pitty me because you love me?...

There's lots of things i wanted to tell you..
Thinking about it without an end.
How should i respond ?
I miss it, but i can't do anything.

If you've really heard about it...
Will you really believe me ?
Will you believe the rumours,
Or you'll still believe that i'm always that person who didn't change...

After so many things,
I've finally understand.
The person who understands me,
It's you.

When i thought you're thinking of me...
My heart still warms...

So many rumours out there.
If you've really heard about it,
Would you believe it ?
Or you'll choose to believe me ?
I really wonder.
Would the rumours actually affect the impression of me in you ?
Or would I still remain as the person who once loved you in your heart...

Thanks... =]

Thanks Darling...
I know you still keep everything i gave you...

And i don't mind how you treat me last time..

Cos i lovee youu =D

It might be ugly, but what matters is the heart =D

Will always remember this... =]

Silly Love..

Hey everyone.
Let's share bout the love experiences we had =D
Sorry if you don't want to read,
You can skip it LoL.

So anyways.
My first love was in form 1.
With a gurl that i knew from the internet.
Through my cousin =D!!
Anyways it's not such a great story to be happy with.
It's actually...
Sad. =(
Sorry to Joleen if i offended you with this post >"<
I don't hate you or anything,
Haha =D
We're cool =]

Anyways..
We knew each other from friendster...
Yeah LOL.
Haha,
We talked in the phone everyday.
Then 1 day we finally decided to meet each other.
So we went Sunway Lagoon.
It was my first time meeting a net friend so of course i was nervous =P
So Me & Yew Wing went.
And one of her friend and her went also.
So there's 4 of us...
LoL.
We had lotsa fun and we also took pictures.
Haha...
I remember i was form 1 that year.
And we both already knew that we liked each other..
But we nvr confess our feelings,
LoL.
So 1 day i decided to confesss my feelings to her.
And we became couples =D
And yeah few weeks passed.
And one day,
I received a message from her through friendster,
Calling me to write her a testimonial.
Haha. (that time it's still called testimonial... now it's comment haha)
So anyways,
I don't write testimonials cos i'm always too lazy to write.
So suddenly,
Her friend,
Cheryl called.
She told me to write a testimonial for her and it's a must,
Cos sumthin blah blah and she wanted to break up with me.
So i asked her what happened.
And she said it's suppose to be a test but her friend,
Cheryl spoiled it all =.="
So anyways our relationship started becoming bad ever since that.
And there's always lots of guys hunting for her,
So i always suspect if i deserve her..
Anyways,
After our relationship started for 1 and a half month,
She sent a msg to me.
Wanting to break up with me.
I forgot the reason too..
Haha,
Anyways,
I was really sad lah.
I still love her alot,
So i want her back lah.
And i realized that she actually liked my "best friend",
BEN.
So i asked Ben and apparently,
He said he doesn't like her cos he likes his ex =.="
So yeah,
I believed him.
And 1 day,
Me, Ben, My cousin & "her" and her friend Cheryl went to 1U for movies.
My cousin and Cheryl were couples,
So yeah haha.
And i think by that time,
Ben was already dating her.
But i didn't know,
She didn't tell me neither.
Soo...
We went for the movies.
And i sat beside her.
Halfway through the show,
All 4 of them started acting strangely.
Then Cheryl suddenly sent me a msg.
"****** asked if you want to go to the front row to sit since there's no one"
I was happy cos i thought she wants to be with me.
So i replied her,
"now ah?"

Then Cheryl asked me what happened and i realized she sent the wrong msg =.="
She wanted to send it to Ben.
And the reason she wanted to go to the front row was becos she wants to be with Ben i guess.
So anyways,
I saw Ben received a message and then he told me.
"Spellman, can i change place with you ?"

I was shocked.
Even though i didn't want to.
I said...
"Ok"
I got emo lah.
And suddenly,
I saw them holding hands,
Which broke my heart even more.
I think i was about to cry.
So suddenly,
All of them (2 couples) went out of the cinema when the show haven't even end.
So i was all alone in the seats.
And i still remember the movie,
Alot Like Love.
And the part was really sad where the gurl thought the guy was getting married.
And i cried...
LoL..
I was lonely and it was really sad.
Seeing the person you like with some other guy.
And i was actually having so much hopes.
So eventually i was damn disappointed..
Anyways..
I went out and meet with them.
And my eyes were red so they asked if i cried.
I acted as if nothin happened and said no...
So i guess we went back after that...

So then,
Few days later.
They went out again.
They got ask me also lah but i don't want cos if i went,
It might be even worst,
Maybe i'll even cry in the middle of the shopping complex.
And this time,
One of her good friend,
Janice went.
And by that time she's kinda close with me lah.
So i was kinda being irritating and kept calling her and asked what's happening =.="
Then they were watching the movie so i didn't bother lah.
So after the movie,
I called my cousin and asked did they do anything.
And he told me,
They hugged at the end of the movie.
I was sad but can't do anythin also lah...
So i called Janice at night.
We talked...
Haha.
I asked what happened.
She doesn't wanna tell me.
She said i would be sad.
I insisted her to tell me..
And she finally agreed.
She told me not to be sad.
She said..
At the end of the movie..
They didn't hug.
They kissed...

I went silent.
And cried...
And Janice was cheering me up which is really sweeet of her...

And for the few weeks and months.
I can't get through it.
I was reading the testis that was sent by Ben to her and also my cousin to her.
They were talking about they're new relationship and being mushie and all.
I cried..
And i think i read it almost everyday.
So yeah,
I cried everyday i guess..
It's like deepening your wound...
Haha.
I know it's kinda silly,
How i had so much hope for it but actually it's not even happening.
Anyways,
This is just a memory.
I don't blame anyone...
We've got our own lives too now =D
Plus,
They've brokenn upp xDD!!!
Hahahaha no lah,
I guess this is just a process that you'll go through in life.
So,
It's still a great memory =]
And thanks for actually loving me for that 1 and a half month.
I really appreciate it...
You made me feel different and special cos by that time,
I wasn't popular in school..
So yeah..
Thanks for everything... =]

Birthday Night =D

Sooo,

At night.

I went to Sunway Hotel's Sun & Surf Cafe to have dinner.
It's buffet =D

It's RM75 each person,

But my mom's friend had the 50% card so we decided to go there =D

If not we would've went Jogoya = =

Soo anyways,

When we reached there..

The place was kinda cool.

Not as nice as Jogoya though.

There were lotsa seats and not really alot of ppl,

So yeah.

The second i stepped in.
I noticed that seducing thinggggg....

FONDUE !!!!!!!!!

OmG !!!

And it's served with Marshmallows !!!

The taste is marvelous.

I only ate 2 though.

Cos i'm on diet =/

I still missss it T.T

Anyways,

The food was owhkayy.
It's kind of western style.

Lots of appetizer which means cold dish.
And then the main dish is like almost all meats.

So my style =D

There were duck, chicken, lamb, beef, yada yada.

And there were also oysters which is a no-no for me.

And there was this soup that's really nice tooo =D

And onee thing.
Usually,

You can get lots of cold drinks in buffet wan rite ?
But this one,

NO.

LOL.

At first i was shocked.
Cos there's only a cup of water for everyone.
Then only i know that there'll be ppl refill it when it's empty =.="

And there's also tea and coffee and cappucino etc.

Order oneee =D

Anyways,

Here's the picturesss =D

ROCKS !! XD

Hahaha, fireworks just for my birthday =D

So sweet of them lah.
Those ppl say that i really looked like a celebrity and so they decided to put some fireworks since it's my birthday =D

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NOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL !!!!

It's some company's Annual Dinner lah.

Hahahah.
They're having it on the Surf Beach.

Damn cool weyh.

It's just like partying like that.

I even went in.

Wondering how i got in ? xD

You see,

You don't need invitations to go in to partys.

You just put all your celebrity aura on and just walked through the gate gracefully as if you're invited and one of the V.I.P's.

Hahahaha xD

That's what i did xD

Sooo yeahh =D

Soo,

Went back after that and cut my cake =D

Happy 16th Birthday,

Mr Choy Yew Choon =D

You've grown and now you're a great teenager.
Not that guy who always got leftout during primary school days.

Haha,

And you're gonna show those ppl who doesn't give a damn about you that they will regret with what they did =D

Thanks everyone =]

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Hey everyone.
Sorry but i don't think i'll update the Birthday Dinner post.
There's cool pictures and cool story,
But i'm lazy lah =_=
So don't blame me okayy ?
Haha =D

Anyways,
I'm goin for Saujana's Carnival tomorroww.
This morning i was really excited.
But now,
I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOIN NEMOREE.
What if ppl from my primary saw me and said,
"Eeyer, bloody gay ass, fugly freak."

That means i've failed of trying to look better and i'll just get myself into insultings and laughings.
Sighz =(
Sorry to think negatively..
I'll try to think possitively lah..
Hopefully nothin bad happens.
GodBless me !! =]

Oh,
I don't know who to find tomorrow.
I'll just follow Jia Meng i guesss.

Confidence..

I realised..
I'm that confident..
I may look like it,
And i always say things that lift my confidence.
Like calling myself hot, popular, slim etc.
Cos to me,
That's just a way of raising my confident..
I don't have confidence,
Really.
There's so many guys out there who're better than me.
In like everything.
Looks, knowledge, talent..
I'm not that great,
I'm an All-Half guy.
I don't do extremely good in stuff.
I just do oh-kayy in all kinds of stuffs.
So I don't have ONE particular talent..
Sighz =(
I just feel that,
I'm not a really special person..
And sometimes,
When people praised me,
I actually thought it was fake and didn't believe it.
Sighz...
I just hope i'll become a greater person,
So that i have the right to have confidence..
And won't looked down by you bitches out there,
Only obsessed in hot guys,
Bloody flirt.
Even though i'm not VERY hot but i'm still catogorised in it owhkayy.
Ugh,
I dun wanna perasan anymore.
I got pissed again =.="
I'll stop here before i start swearing and hitting the keyboard..
Bye =(

Pfft.

I can't believe MR BEN really didn't sms me.
Oh my god,
You're like,
Almost the only person who didn't wish me.
What are youu.
Only think about your gf.
This is the only year you didnt send me a msg and i will remember this T.T !!!!

Anyways,
Lots of things happened today.
Such a baadd day...
Soo Yee cried.
Sakai wasn't happy.
Kei Yan was in a bad mood.
I'm certainly emo-ing.

Well,
Soo Yee asked me what happened.
I don't know how to answer.
Cos there's lots of reasons.
One of the things is about someone someone.
I'm not happy with he/her actions so yeah i don't even frickin care now.
I don't wanna know what's happening with he/her anymore.

And..
I know this is stupid..
But i thought of my maid.
She came in mind during BM class today.
I didn't burst out in tears,
Thanks to Soo Yee =]
Well,
My maid...
I remember the days when after things happened and she's goin back.
She's not in the mood for the whole week.
She doesn't wanna go back..
That look on her face,
The sorrow and sadness,
I felt it all...
And until the day that she told us she doesn't wanna go back...
I actually got so happy and waited for her father to call..
I got so nervous...
Cos i don't want her to go...
And finally...
Her father didn't call...
Which means she has to go back...
Sighz...
I hope she's having a good life now.
Cos she deserve much more than this.
She's a nice gurl,
Haha =]
She can stay in indonesia and maybe find another mate and stay there ?
Since it's her hometown...
I just hope everything's owhkayy for her... =)

Anyways..
It's a really bad day today lah.
Leon & Sakai fought.
Since Sakai wasn't in the mood for the whole day...
I was trying to stop Leon,
I kept holding his hand and pushing him back and end up they both kept whacking me =.="
Just hope everything's okay for them? =(

Everything suck.
I'm goin MyFitness later.
Hopefully can release all my anger and sadness.
Byeee =(

I'm starting to wonder if you even care about me, always act like you didn't see mee, and you acted as if you didn't care, ugh.

Sweet Sixteen =]

Hello everyone.
It's my birthday today =D

Well first of all,
I wanna thank everyone of you who wished me,
Even though no pressies but it's already really sweet that you all wished me.
Better than some of me so-called "best friends".
Didn't even wish me Happy Birthday.
Don't give me the reason that you didn't know it was my birthday.
Cos that's even worst.
Means you don't even care about me.
Pfft.
Whatever lah.

Well anyways,
I only received 3 presents.
From Sze Hui & Kei Yan, Chiou Hua & Chee Kuan =]
At first Jia Meng was like,
"huh ? wth that Chee Kuan bought ? OmG"
But after he read the little card she wrote to me.
He said,
"Aww.. She's so sweeet =D So are you gonna accept her back ?"
Haha,
So overall it's a really sweet pressie lah =D
Love ya darling... =]
And the pressie KY & SH bought for me..
As Daphne said,
"The coolest present ever."
LOL,
Thanks alot my darling Fish & Frog =D

And also thanks to those ppl who actually bother to spare some time and send me smses to wish me.
At least better than those who nvr even wish,
And nvr even look at you for the whole day.
I'm happy that so many of you remembered =D
And a form 3 gurl remembered too!!
Though we're not that close,
LoL.
She've mistaken it for tomorrow though,
LOL.
Anyways,
I'll be having my dinner at Sunway Hotel's Buffet.
Real excited =D
Oh yeah,
Did i mention ?
I got SORE THROAT & FLU since yesterday.
Sick birthday =_=

Anyways,
It was kinda fun at school today.
Lots of ppl wished me early in the morning,
Chiou Hwa, Ying Jie, Ying Xing, Glory, Husna, Yong Wei, Ching Yee.
It's kind of awkward real good cos everyone remembered and that means they cared about me,
I replied with thank you-s =D
Presents doesn't mean anythin.
The most important thing is the heart =D
You already made me really happie by wishing me Happy Birthday cos it makes me feel that i'm not alone and lonely.
There's still many friends along my side =D

So after that it was perhimpunan.
I saw May Yen.
I thought she totally forgot about it (I think she did).
And she didn't really bother to talk to me so i went to duty.
Then Kei Yan & Sze Hui gave me the present.
"Happy Box"
"From a friend who wants to make you HAPPY"
And it's a condom inside.
LOL.
Sounds damn pervert xD
So after that i went back to class.
And Leon wished me =D
He was bring really nice the whole day.
Then Jia Meng wished me,
Then Wei Hsiang came and wish me =D
And Kah Yan came also,
I think she's the only person who wished me in person.
Wai Ting & Shu Jen only wished me in sms.
But it's owhkayy alsoo lah =]
Anyways,
I stayed back after school for the Photography Meeting to help out on the Sesi Penggambaran next week.
Blah blah blah.
And i'm here =]

To YOUU.
Mr ***, We've been friends since standard 6 and you never even wished me. Now you have your gurl edi then forget bout friends lah ? Butt holee. You better get an explanation soon, And SEE YOU this Saturday. You might be spending time hanging with your chick again though =.="

Thanks May Yen & Carolyn for sending me the sms.
And Carolyn owe me a hug,
I was so disappointed when you didn't hug me today =(

I'm meeting the ex-Counseling teacher this friday, Sook Mun.
Me & Waiting's gang & Jia Meng they all are gonna celebrate at Calorie's.
Looking forward to it... =]

Pain.

My mom accidently cut her finger just now.
She's not feeling well.
She's dizzy =(

She drank the cup of water i gave her.
And now,
She's lying down on the sofa,
Not feeling well...

It seems she cut her hand when she's cutting the fish.
I don't really know what happened.
I called her to consult the doctor.
But she refused and told us to leave her alone...
I hope nothing's wrong.
I don't want this to happen.... =(

Weeee!!! =D

Elloooo everyone.
It was fun today,
Haha.

Anyways.
The main reason is the Haunted Mansion. (I prefer Haunter Library xD)
But i'll update bout what happen during morning.
Erhm nothin reli happened during morning until recess.
I went to duty at Pintu Besar AGAIN.
I wasn't happy cos whenever i come to this place it reminds me of scoldings that i got from someone =.="
Anyways,
The bell rang,
So i was happy and wanted to walk to Tangga Depan.
Then suddenly,
I saw Amelia & Chee Kwan from quite far.
And Amelia was like calling me to stop and stay there.
She approached me and tell me i should stay a little bit longer only go back class.
So i got kind of pissed and said,
"Then yesterday that Kuan Sing call me bell ring straight away halau ? What you want me to do now ? Everyone is telling me different things and who's one should i follow ?!?!"

And she's like,
"Oh no no, usually bell rang edi then you have to wait awhile. To make sure no one ponteng."

RIGHT after she said that...
2 Form 4 guys came in.
Yes it's that 2 new students who just came into our school.
But their from our school also last time.
That Fei Lin & that white guyyy.
Then Amelia stopped them and told me to write their name.

What appeared in my mind was,
"Holy fuck, I'm gonna get whacked =.="

Then Fei Lin was like,
"Like that also need write name ah ? I went back home to SHIT lah. This bloody school's toilet don't even have a door."

And i was like,
Omg that's not even an acceptable reason =.="
So they went back class after that and me and Amelia was still waiting at Pintu Besar.

Suddenly,
THEY CAME DOWN AGAIN.
Fei Lin was like,
"You write my name edi is it ? I go back home to SHIT also cannot ah ?!?!"

Damn hong pou,
I said,
"But the reason you gave is too unacceptable lah, why don't u explain this to the teacher?"
So they went back class without finding the teacher. (Obviously)
And when i was at Tangga Depan,
He called me from above and asked me if i wrote his name or not =.="
I was like "OH NO."
So I told him i didn't pass up his name =.="

But he's gonna know someday,
So just get ready to get punched ? = =

After recess,
We had Modern Maths then Bio.
Puan Zuraini was being a fucking bitch as usual.
Last time she always threaten us and say she'll DIMERIT us if we make noise/nvr do homework etc.
But now since DIMERIT has "disappeared".
She said she'll call us out in Perhimpunan instead =.="
And during all the class when we have to copy stuff from the whiteboard,
I'll sit beside Ying Jie because i can't see from my place,
Then she'll go like,
"Choy Yew Choon duduk tempat masing-masing, kalau tak saya tulis nama di Buku Disiplin. Pengawas pun begini."

I got damn pissed and answered,
"Kamu cuba duduk di tempat saya lah, kamu boleh nampak tak ?"

Then she just kept quiet and continue teaching.
Bloody bitch.
And i just realized that SHE'S MARRIED.
I wonder who's so BLIND and desperate,
That person must be desperate for fucking but no one wants to let him fuck so he just find Puan Zuraini instead since no one even wants to fuck her =.="

Anyways,
Ariff never come.
Everyone was happy and was like getting ready to go Haunted Library.
I was soooooooooo excited !!
LOL.

Anyways,
After school,
Me, Jia Meng, Wei Hsiang & Jian Hong went to te library.
Lots of primary school kids was there and i think almost all of them are the teacher's son/daughters.
They're like,
Cutting lines and stepping on my shoe,
Buggerrr.
I was like shouting,
"JANGAN CUT LINE !!! OI, YOU NAK MASUK KAH ?!?! PERGI BELAKANG !!!"
LOL,
I know it's mean to shout at kids but they're just so rude.
If they were'nt teacher's son,
I would've bullied them.
Pfftt.

Anyways,
While lining up,
Pei Ling & Sum Yee's gang are just behind us.
So i told them to wait for my scream,
If i scream means it's scary lah xD
Then we went in.
And i was sooo excited !!
Puan Assemah was siting at the counter,
LOL.
There was ppl guiding us through.
All the scary things start when we enter the curtain.
So yeah,
Jia Meng was like walking fast so we kinda seperate into 2 groups.
Jia Meng & Jian Hong,
Wei Hsiang & me.
I started screaming the second i passed the curtain.
And i was like holding and squeezing Wei Hsiang's hand and i kept on pulling him back when he wanted to go front.
And after that i started STRANGLING Wei Hsiang's neck while screaming and i he's so suffering,
LOL.
I was screaming all the way while Jian Hong & Jia Meng's like finding out who the ghosts are.
Hahahaha,
I was just screaming for fun lah,
At first it was kind of scary so i was screaming but after that it wasn't that scary anymore but i screamed also cos it's alot more fun xD
I can't really seee the ghosts though,
I only saw Chew Mun combing her hair LOL.
She was like combing my hair also =_=
And then b4 Chew Mun,
I was walking and suddenly i banged someone.
I thought it was Wei Hsiang BUT his kinda tall and like BLACK.
So i screamed and pushed him away and runnn.
Those ppl are like pulling your legs while you're walking, LOL.
I don't think i got pulled becos i was like, jumping all the way xD
After we came out,
Puan Assemah said,
"Takut ke ? Tak takut pun jeritttt"

LOL.
So yeah nothin happened after that,
Waited for my mom at the bus stop.
Then suddenly,
Soo Yok Man came and said Pei Ling & Siew Li cried when they're inside =.="
Before that I don't think it's actually possible to cry there =_+

Anyways,
I totally forgot bout my birthday.
Someone come up with a plan please !!
Argh!!

Mixed Mood.

Helloooo everyone.
I was kinda pissed today.
I don't like being accused or misunderstood.
Well sorry for being DUMB.
You don't need to talk to me in that way.
And the way you talked and told Amelia.
It's as if you really think i wanna slack from duty.
I didn't wanna say it but I AM GONNA SAY IT HERE.
ONCE AND FOR ALL.

Puan Norliza see me that day.
She said she saw my name in the Buku Laporan every week.
I was shocked,
So i was like,
Owhkayy...
She searched and searched for 2 minutes.
NO SIGN OF MY NAME.
I only kena few times and all those times also i have a frickin reason.
(1) Spellman tidak bertugas kerana jumpa cikgu
(2) Spellman lewat ke tugas kerana Cik Sim tidak membenarkan rehat.
(3) Spellman lewat ke tugas kerana Cik Sim menjalankan "experiment" di Chem Lab.

Ahem,
Is this my fault ????
She told me to tell my Ketua Patrol if i'm late or can't duty.
Well THINK.
If i didn't tell my Ketua Patrol.
How did they know i was late becos i have to see teacher and etc ?
And she even told me when i was late for duty.
I should just go duty straight away instead of goin to eat first.
Well I DIDN'T!!
Ugh.
And sorry to say this.
Even though i'm gonna get scold or hated for this,
I'm still gonna say it.
Ketua & Penolong Ketua Patrols write things about us,
Like if we didn't do our job well or whatever.
Well if we really DIDN'T do our job well.
You should've tell us.
Welll yes you did it right by writing it in the Report Book and gave it to teacher.
But THINK.
You want us to duty properly.
But you didn't even tell us what we did wrong.
So we did wrong also we dunno lah ?
Sorry Amelia,
I'm not blaming you.
Everyone said,
"Kesian lah you, be in Amelia's patrol. Unlike my Patrol, ****** don't scold wan"

Well i don't mind if Amelia wrote about me becos if i did something wrong,
I will accept it.
But at least come and tell me so i wont do it again.
I don't hate Amelia.
I'm just friggin disappointed in myself.

Not ONCE in my life,
Since form 1 till now.
I never got such a bad performance until i have to see the teacher to tell her what's goin on with me.
Anyways,
I only kena write few times and i have to see her.
Even though it's nothin serious.
But everyone is treating me like a BAD prefect now.

And HIM.
Thanks ALOT for talking to me that way today.
Well i don't hate you,
I just got kind of pissed becos i felt really dumb for not knowing the easiest thing in my job.

Oh yeah,
Thanks alot bloody fucker.
Just when i'm going through things.
You just have to talk bad about me.
Well i don't effin' care.
You know i hate you,
Well i know you hate me tooo.
But i didn't disturb you.
And you just go talking bad about me in your class.
Get lost lah.
Don't think i dunno anything.
Cos you're just beside my class.
You don't have to say you didn't or anything.
Cos i have full evidence.
And i won't talk bad bout you.
Cos i'm not that kind of person.
Even though you talk bad boutt me i wont care also.
Becos i'm gonna be a singer next time.
This is like a training.
We can't stop or change what ppl think about us.
As an Artist.
We should just accept it and not care about what ppl think about us.
And for your information,
Please talk bad bout me more often.
Cos Artist always kena gossiped also.
So the more you talked bad about me,
The more i feel popular =]

So this time,
You can't deny that you didn't talk bad bout me anymore.
Once again proved that i'm right =D
I won't gossip bout you.
Gossipping bout you will just ruin my image.
You gossip more lah,
Since your image is already ruined.
Ppl like you who take gossipping as a pass-time are jerks.

There's no need for me to say anymore.
Cos everyone already know you're a jerk,
Haha.

So you wanna write back about me in your blog again ?
Come on.
Hahaha, means you admit lah ?
Well thanks for admitting,
I'm sure you got pissed after this you read this post and faster go and post another post about me rite ?
Hahahahahah !!!
Which means you admit everything that i say above lah.
There's no need to hide.
YES,
IT'S YOU!! =D

Lately.

Sorry everyone.
Really sorry.
Sorry for ignoring you all and also show that mean face of mine.
Lots of things happened this week.
I got emo and also pissed.
I was really emo today.
I'm really sorry =(
Well actually i was lookin for someone to talk to.
But well i failed as usual.
I don't think i can take all these dramas happening anymore.
Even though i don't wanna have a normal life.
But this is abit tooo tough..

Oh well,
Since god arranged this for me.
Might as well accept it.
I'll stay strong =]
Hahaha lousy posttt.

The Expected Truth.

Thanks for telling me that.
Cos we hadn't been chaating bout issues like these for a long long time.. =]
But i guess..
When you told me something's up,
I already expected it.
The moment you told me,
My mind was empty.
And i was already expecting it...
I should've be happy for you.
But my mood is kind of complicated..
I just feel that,
The distance is gonna go further and further.
We don't talk much in school since this year.
Even though we're in the same class.
But i guess we still talk alot sometimes.
Like when we're smsing ?
Haha =]
We're best friends since standard 6.
And we'll always remain that way.. =D
Hmmm.
So..
I just hope you'll do whatever that makes you happy.
But don't get yourself in trouble and full of regrets kay ? =)
I'll be there no matter what you do, friend..

Birthday Plan ?

Hey everyone,
Lots of things happened today,
I don't wanna talk about it.
I nearly cried when Miss Renuka asked me about it.
My tears were already filling my eyes just that it hasn't came out yet.
I just smiled to everyone and just acted as if i'm owhkayy.
Well the tears went back in at last =D
Hahahaha.
Anyways,
Let's talk about my birthday celebration ?


Hmmmm,
I dunno lah.
I didn't celebrate my birthday every year.
Cos there's a biiigg reason to it.
Well all my frens are from like,
Different gangs and groups.


For example,
There's WaiTing gang. Sze Hui gang. MayYen gang. Chee Kuan gang. JiaMeng gang (+Ben +Trisha? Since she's so close with him nowadays but i doubt she'll be free go). VeeLeng gang. & MyClassmates gang.


If i called all of the people above to go,
I don't know where to go + It'll not be fun anymore.
Cos it's gonna be like seperate gangs.
I want everyone to have fun together.
But if i called everyone,
It'll be like,
1 group here another group there.
Like damn seperate lidat & not mixing together.
Somemore some of them are like, enemies =_=
It'll be damn awkward when they see each other and maybe they'll feel unhappy and so-on.
And I'll need to be like mixing with this gang while not forgetting the other gangs so I'll be like damn busy =.="
And i don't wanna leftout any of them cos they're all my friends =]
So i also dunno how ? =.="
Aaahhh !!!!
Can someone give me some ideas plss ?
Or should i just stay at home like every year =.="
But i really wanna make it special cos it's my Sweet 16 this year =D

Fishiiieeesssss !!! =D

Ugh,
I'm damn pissed.
I just deleted my whole post just now.
Whatever. FUCK.

--------------------------------------------------
Anyways,
Woke up at 7 sumthin,
Brushed my teeth and ate.
Then watched Youtube. (i do that every weekends)
I was thinking of goin to Kenko Fish Spa since yesterday.
So i convinced my father =D
My father finally agreed to go,
And also agreed to pay for me xD!!!

Anyways,
We had lunch at a restaurant there.
The environment damn fricking nice weyh.
The foood also quite nice.
I think it's called "Dai Guan Shan" in chinese.
Dunno what what mountain lah,
LOL.
Anyways,
Tell me it's damn nice plss =D




Pretty lights !!!


Nice rite ?
Wahahahah xD
Anyways,
Daddy & I love the food there,
It's china style i guess but got some SUSHI look-alike and also KIMCHI look-alike LOL.
Mommy didn't like the food,
She ordered the not so nice wan i guess.
And some of the rice there is like,
Rice + Cawan Mushi.
So for those ppl who doesn't like Cawan Mushi i think they don't like also.
But surprisingly i think it's nice.
Cos i don't eat Cawan Mushi wan,
I hate that disgusting eggg =.="

Me and Daddy was like,
"Next time we order..."
"Next time we only order.."
"Next time..."

And Mommy quickly said,
"Still got next time arh ?!?!?! Haiyohhh"

LOL,
Oh yeah we also ordered this red bean ice thingy,
It came at last.
And it's DAMN FRICKING NICE.
I miss it so much lah T.T
But i regret.
Cos i forgot that i'm on diet.
I got tooo excited and just forgot who i am.
I ate like there's no more tomorrow,
I even forgot to take a picture of it T.T

Anyways,
Find for the Fish Spa after lunch.
Was having trouble finding it cos i dunno where Red Box+ is =_=
Anyways,
I paid and i went to wash leggiesss then went to the gurl who work there.
She gave me the place where is just beside the stairs.
At first i didn't know that place SUCK.
I only feel like i don't like this place.
So when i sat down.
I thought that it was normal.
The fishies started biting me LOL.
Damn ticklish until i really wanna scream and hold someone tightly =_=
So of course i wanted to take pictures of them rite ? xD
BUT.
THE PLACE I SIT ?
They have this thing over there.
And the bubbles kept coming out from the water.
So basicly,
I CAN'T see what are the fishiess doing.
And also,
Almost ALL the fishess are biting the uncle's leg who's right beside me.
His leg full of fishiess while mine is so little.
And suddenly the lady come and tell me,
"Times up."

I was like WTF ?
So fast lah half an hour =.="
And the lady got problem wan i think,
See what happened.

*Lady "pook" my back*

Lady : Time's up.

Spell : Owh, owhkayy... Cloth ?

Lady : Time's upp.

Spell : * got irritated* CLOTH !!!

Then she quickly gave me the cloth =.="
Blurr case lah her,
Like scared i don't go like that.
So told me time's up loudly in front of SO many people.
Everyone's like looking at me.
Thanks ALOT.
Like scared i don't leave only =.="
So after that went back home and here i am ? =D

Sooo there's school again tomorrow.
Nooo =(
Hope nothing BAD happens anymore.
See youuu all tomorrow... =]

A day full of resistings and seductions =_=||

Hello everyone.
Sorry bout all the emo and frustrated post in my blog.
I know it shouldn't be like that so i'll try to change kayy ? =]
Anyways, i'll update bout yesterday first.

11/04/2008 Friday

It doesn't seem to be a great day for every1,

Well, things happen.

When i went school yesterday,

I wasn't in the mood to study cos i'm goin Carrefour to Sing K after school with Li Kuen & Vee Leng.

So anyways,

I did something which i'm very proud of and really happy =D

Well you see,
During recess,

I went to my Tempat Jagaan as usual,

Which is Pintu Besar.
Yong Sheng, who's suppose to jaga with me wasn't there,
So i duty myself first lor.
Suddenly,

The fat ass form 3 guy that i hated came to me.

He didn't said anything,

And then he just sat down on the "bench". (i dunno what's it called)

Obviously i wasn't happy having him around,

And he's actually sitting down during duty.

So i TOOK a picture of him sitting down,

OBVIOUSSLYY,

He didn't know xD

Then he went duty after that.

So i was eager to find Kuan Sing & Amelia to show them the picture,

Evidencee xDD!!!

So i went to find Amelia,

We talked.

Spell : Amelia !!! I caught someone "tau lan". I got evidence somemore, i took the picture with my phone !!

Amelia : Oh my god, you ah !! Camera phone somemore !!

Spell : Come i show you, let's go to somewhere quiet.

Amelia : Nono, You show to Kuan Sing cos he's writing the report.

*Runs to Kuan Sing with Amelia*

Amelia : He say that form 3 fella "tau lan".

Spell : I took his picture somemore !!

Kuan Sing : Show me.

*showed to Kuan Sing*

Kuan Sing : Hahaha, okayy.. *with an evil voice*

Muahahahahaha,

This is payback time man,
He accused Boon Pin of not duty-ing the other day while it is he who didn't duty.
Ass hole,

Go suck your own cock you bloody dooofus.

BIMBOOOOOOO!!

Ok,

Back to the story.
After all the things i did,

I went back to class.

So anyways,

When i reached Block C 2nd floor (where my class is located)

I saw a bunch of guys & Carmen there.

I know something's goin on,

But i dun wanna be sampat even though i wanna know =/

So then,

Carmen asked me,

"Jian Hong leh?"

I was so blur, i replied with a "Coming up?".

So i went back class,

I know something's wrong,

But don't wanna ask around lah,
Later kena whack =O
So then,
Jian Hong kinda came up and i have no idea what happened,

After some time he walked back to our class,

Looking realllyyyyy emo.

Obviously i won't go around asking what happened right ?

Cos he's already sad enough lah,

I don't wanna mention it in front of him,

It's just like deepen his wound only.

Everyone was talking about it,
Serious shit.

Except for me,

I didn't ask anything & anyone.

Even though i hate him,
But still he don't deserve this.
Well i'll say what happened later but i only know the short version.

Anyways,

Nothing special happened.
After school me and Li Kuen went to the back of the school to wait for the bus to go Carrefour.

On the way there i saw Trisha lookin emo,

Wanted to accompany her since she's so lonely but i was in a hurry,

So didn't have the time.

Sorry =(

Anyways,

On the way goin there,

We passed by the flats lah,
Then i saw Sangkara smoking o.O

EYH Am i allowed to say it here ??

If i can't then faster tell me okayy ?

I'll erase it as soon as possible.

Sorry if this is gonna cause anything =(

Anyways,

We went to wait for the bus but it didn't come,

So we ride taxi instead.

Blah blah blah,

Reached Carrefour,

Met with Vee Leng and we went to change.

The toilet stinks,

Full of smells of smoke and cigarettes throughout the floor.

So we went sing k,

Blah blah,
Li Kuen rocked as usual.

Was getting Vee Leng's attention.

I didn't get any attention.

So i'm feeling abit depressed lah.
Vee Leng only praised her,

Not even a word about me,

Pfft.

So after i went home,

I threw my uniform on the laundry basket.

Suddenly when we're having dinner, my mom questioned me.

Mom : You asnwer me honestly, where you went today ? Why your uniform full with the smell of cigarettes ?

Spell : Wth ? Got meh ? I dunno.

Mom : You really went to carrefour or you went somewhere else ?

Spell : Wtf, you don't believe me ? Okay, you go school check my attendance.

Mom : So what if you got gp school ? Did you mix with those ppl that smoke ?

Spell : OmG, i never lah, Wtf.

Mom : You lie or whatever, it's just for your own good only, is yourself who doesn't appreciate your own,

Spell : WTF ?!?!?! I NVR LAH, I hate smoking so much why will i smoke ?

Mom : How i know later you got INFLUENCED by your FRIENDS.

After that i was like,

I hate ppl smoking owhkayy,

Why am i gonna smoke ?

I bet if i smoke,

I'll EWWW myself =.="

And the "friends" she's referring to.

THEY DON'T EVEN EXIST.

How are they gonna influence me ? =.="

Simply accuse me.

But i think she believe edi lah after that.

Well she better be.

Went back home with a bad mood and slept.
Oh yeah b4 i slept,

I asked Jia Meng about what happened to Jian Hong.
It seems that he said sumthin bad about Carmen which hurt her feelings and he didn't realise also.
I was like, lidat also need to find him meh ?
And Jia Meng said she's just trying to make it into a big matter =.="

Another bitch...

Sorry to call you this but it's true,

You don't call a bunch of ppl here just becos that person said sumthin mean about you.

If we have to do that everytime someone backstabbed us,

Then life will be like damn busy lah rite ?

Ugh.

12/04/2008 Saturday

It's weird today,

LoL.

I resisted so much and the seduction's like getting worst.

My seduction is referring to foods =_=

I eat damn little today,

Serious weyh!!

I went Mid Valley with my parents.
We went to the highest floor's foodcourt to have lunch.

I only ate the Japanese Curry Chicken and a bowl of rice.

THAT'S ALL.

Somemore the chicken i only ate like, half of it.
So i'm proud of myself =]

Anyways,

I saw ppl eating waffles which made me wanted also,

But i resisted and i succeed !!

I never bought it =D

Anyways after that,

My dad offered to eat Asam Laksa at Jusco,

I told him i was on diet and stop seducing me with foooods!!

So we went back since there's nothing to do.
And thenn,

We reached Mc Donald.

For me,

Mc Donald's food's not so good.

So i don't wanna eat it.
But whenever Mc Donald comes in mind,

This is what appeared

Mc Donald = Ice Cream = Mc Flurry Oreo = FATTTTTSSSS

I hurried to the car park to escape from it =_=

I imagined if i ate the ice-cream,

It's like THAT amount of oil in my body T.T

I was so relieved.
Went back home "safely" without seductions =D

Just when i thought everything is over..

I found a box in the kitchen,
I wanted to cry.

Once Again...

I ran upstairs immediately without looking what flavours inside which will make things WORST.

I'm not goin down, no no =(

So i guess i did a great job resisting so much rite ?

And not eating extra lot xD

Cos usualy at Kim Gary i eat 3 SETS wan lah =.="

So praise me kayy ?? =D

Wahahhaa,

Buh-bye~

Will update again 2morrow i guess.

=]

Soooo wrongg.

I'm not gonna be emo or sad or pissed just because of what he wrote.
I just read his blog,
And my head was -empty-.
I wasn't picking a fight you know ?
I was just trying to make things clear,
I know i have lots of problems also,
That's why i'm trying to change,
No1 is perfect,
Everyone has sumthin wrongg.
And i don't understand why am i a freak o.O
Anyways,
I don't mind what he said,
Cos some of it is true.
So i'll just accept it politely and try to change.
If i have any more mistakes,
PLEASE tell me.

Tagged =]

Factsssss =D

Fact No. 1
I'm not the most popular guy in school, but i can be the nicest guy you'll ever know =D I'll be there to listen whenever you're ready to talk. Also, don't try to hide somthing from me cos i'll become emo, it's like you don't trust me =(

Fact No. 2
Treat me nicely =D I hate people to call me to "Go Away" when i asked them something, that's just annoying-ly rude. And don't explode and put all the blames on me just because you're not in a good mood. And also don't accuse me. If you believe that person who told you bad things that i did, then you're not a good fren, cos you believed that particular person but not me.

Fact No. 3
I'm self obsessed ;D But not those exagerating ones lah, i just love my faace and don't wanna change it =] I love taking pictures of myself, but i don't like ppl saying that i look ugly and weird. I like the way i look, accept yourself for how you are =]

Fact No. 4
I LOOVEE singing =D I love singing and it's already on a point that it can't return anymore. I perform and also join competitions, i enjoy it =D So i guess I'm considered as kinda experienced ? I don't rock in singing but i'm sure i will someday later, i'm still on progress too =) And i love going to Sing K, so if you wanna call me out, don't call me go watch movie cos i dont like it, call me out to sing =] and shopping also lah =D

Fact No. 5
I love dancing but i kinda suck at it. And i dont do Hip Hop, i do Latin =D Maybe you all think it's weird but to me it's not =] I'm very proud of it, sooo yeahh =]

That's about it i guess... =D

I tag,
Trisha, Sze Hui, Carolyn

To Mr Weng Lord.

Dear Weng Lord :
I just wanna tell you that, you're not always right. Well you might think you're kind of the coolest person in the world while everyone else is a freak. Well why don't you try thinking why is everyone so different from you ? And I know you don't like the way i hate Miss Ong and all, but it's just the same like i hate the way you talked about Miss Sim. All i heard the reasons from you hating her is almost all because of cos she called you fatty. I know you'll say i hate her without reasons or stupid reasons too, but you don't know what she did to me, so you'll still love her. Cos she treats you good, dat's why you like her and think that every1 who hates her is wrong. But no, you never see how she treated me only. Anyways, you said she hated me because i was UNdisciplined ? Well okayy, it's the first time i heard someone said i'm not disciplined and rude, well if i'm undisciplined and rude, i don't know what are you edi. And i don't need you leaving your lousy comments here in my blog. Just to tell you, it's really rude to leave negative & bad comments at someone else's blog, it's just like scolding that person in his own house. So b4 u say other ppl rude, plss think of yurself first. I don't want you coming to my blog and call me fag and all again, and dun even wanna admit, whatever lah. And you also don't have the right to call other ppl fugly and fat cos YOU'RE NOT THAT GOOD LOOKING AND SLIM EITHER. From the day i know you, you started spreading rumours bout me. Saying how i flirt during form 2 and made Ying Xing hate me. And now, saying i eat alot during recess and kept spreading it around. Well i don't mind that but the thing is YOU, YOU pretend like you eat damn little. Like that time when you say the noodle is so much and after you eat it you'll be full. But usually after you ate your Nasi Lemak + Chicken, you'll eat sotong, and after that FRUITS. You don't need to explain to me, I don't wanna listen. And don't leave yur comments at my tag also, cos i'm sick of it. Last but not least, if lowering down someone else's reputation or insulting them makes you feel better or feel more confident, then you're a really horrible person =] I want you to take back saying i'm a horrible person last time. You don't need to explain anything, I don't really wanna hear you apologise also, even though i know you won't, but i just want you to change your attitude. Oh and remember during form 2, you said i couldn't last a minute in morning session ? Well i guess we could askk all the people around us, i bet they say they prefer me more than you. Nono i dunwanna hear yur explanations and lowering my reputation, cos i'm bored of it, that's what you always do, do sumthin more creative lah, other than going to other ppl's blog and leave negative comments. So if you wanna fight back or say sumthin bad bout me, you're allowed to say it anywhere anytime, but NOT in my blog. Shoo.

From,
Spell =]

The Empty Room, The Disappeared Presence.

Everytime when i entered her room.
I feel weird.
No one is there.
It's an empty room.
Her presence is gone.
Everything disappeared...
No one is there ironing the clothes.
It's empty.
It's like a room without it's spirit & soul..
All that's left are just memories..

Every morning when i go downstairs getting ready for school.
I feel weird.
No one is there.
She disappeared.
Her presence is gone.
Everytime i go downstairs,
It's empty.
Her presence disappeared.
No one is in the kitchen washing plates and wiping tables anymore.
It's empty.
It's like a kitchen without it's spirit & soul...
All that's left are just memories..

Everytime i'm depressed & emo.
I feel weird.
No one is there to always check on me.
She disappeared.
Her presence is seriously gone.
I tried looking for that familiar presence.
But i failed.
I finally realised,
She's not here anymore.
That smile,
That voice,
That shadow,
It's all gone.
Everything is gone.
It's all empty.
She's not here anymore,
She left...
All that's left,
Are just memories of her...

Another half-half day.

Sorry guys,
I'm not in the mood to write about sports day.
Well apparently,
There's a bad news for me..

Well after Sports Day,
I went Mid Valley with my parents.
It was all okayy and my mood was okayy also.
Well until we went to Mid Valley Carrefour to buy some groceries.

My dad received a phone call...

Dad : Hello ? Ah yes, erhm, let's have a drink during some time and you can bring along all of your maid's portfolio also.

Which means,
My dad wants to hire another maid..
My mood went all down right after that.
Then i asked my mom and dad...

Me : Mummy, we duwan DeDe edi ah ?

Mom : Yah lah, she also go back edi, how to work for us ?

Me : But i thought that time you say, call her to call back after a month if she wants to work ?

Mom : Aiyo, that 1 is just to pujuk her lah, you ask your daddy lah, he say one.

Dad : Still want to call her back ah ? Later suddenly suddenly go crazy again.

Me : ....... *sadness was showed*

Dad : Aiya, even if she work 10 years or 20 years, one day she will go back also wan lah.

Me : *speechless*

I can't believe this.
DeDe's NOT coming back.
Somemore it's not that she doesn't want to come back,
WE'RE the ones who doesn't want her anymore... =(
She doesn't deserve this lah...
I really don't know what to tell her when she calls us..
She's gonna be disapointed,
REAL disappointed..

And for now,
I just hope she doesn't call back,
Or when she call us,
She'll said that she decided not to work for us.
That way it'll be better lah,
So she doesn't seem rejected by us and she's ok with staying at her hometown.
I really hope she doesn't wanna come back,
Well cos maybe,
That way,
She'll be happier..
I just hope she's happy,
I hope she's having great time having reunion with her families and all and doesn't wnna come back anymore..

DeDe,
I hope you're having a great time now,
So you won't wanna come back,
So you won't be disappointed and sad.
I hope..
You're life will be great after this.
This is just bad memories,
It's a part of every1's life.
I hope you can go on with your life and continue making great memories...
Thank you for all your help...
I'll really miss you... =]..

Friidayyy.

04/04/2008,
My darling maid left us,
Hope i'll see her again soon... =]

Anyways,
I wasn't in much of a good mood today,
So i went Carrefour EBox with Vee Leng.
She nvr sing this time,
Almost i sing all,
LOL.
But she got sing 1 song lah,
I must admit it's pretty good though xD

This is about it i guess.
Oh yeah,
I signed up for My Fitness today =D

So i might be goin there tomorrow..

Yeah =D
Wish me luck in dieting agaiiin xD!!!

Farewell.

=(
I thought it was a good day.
But i gues..
It's just one of those days that's not good nor bad.

My maid talked to me & my parents today.
She said that she don't wanna go back anymore,
She wanna stay and continue working for us.
I'm very happy,
But all her work permit and her passport is all canceled..
And the Plane Ticket also bought..
So no choice..

But my parents tried to help lah,
They called The Agency to ask,
The Agency said we need to wait for my maid's father call to make sure if he's okay for my maid to stay.
So we've waited,
And waited.
They said he'll call by 4 but it's already 9:30 now and he still hasn't called yet.

My maid is sad =(
You know this few days,
She look really exhausted,
And also like a body without the spirit.
We can see that she hasn't got enough sleep.
And she always starve herself..
Haiz....
Anyways,
She's goin back tomorrow.
But my parents had a new idea.
They said just take this as a holiday for her.
1 month later,
If she wants to come back then we'll take her back.
So need to wait for her to call us lor...

I really hope she can come back.
I realize I CAN'T go on without her.
I actually miss her..
=(
I know she's just a maid.
And everyone's saying how bad is she.
But i know in the heart she's not.
She has her own reasons to,
She regret that she said she wanna go back,
She says she still wanna work for us,
Haiz...

I hate those ppl who keep insulting her and talking bad bout her,
She needs to rest,
And stop taking all the pressure by everyone.
This few days,
It really hurts me to see her,
Whatever she do also she's not in the mood,
Really like a body without a soul.
And reallyyy lack of sleep.

It's okay,
I understand =]
And my house door will always welcome you whenever you wanna come back.
I'll be waiting for you.. =)
I put her to sleep just now,
I offed the light and told her to sleep,
And do the remaining work tomorrow.
It's okay =D

DeDe,
Promise me owhkayy ?
That you'll come back..
I know you wanna come back also,
I hope my parents will do this,
I hope they'll do what they can to take you back.
So my door is gonna be open always,
Waiting for you to return.. =)
Please come back,
You ARE already a part of my life.. =]

Love,
Spell... <3

新不了情

新不了情

http://youtube.com/watch?v=J-vaI4lBE44

心若倦了

泪也乾了

这份深情 难舍难了

曾经拥有

天荒地老

已不见你

暮暮与朝朝

这一份情

永远难了

愿来生

还能 再度拥抱

爱一个人

如何厮守 到老

怎样面对一切

我不知道

*chorus

回忆过去

痛苦的相思忘不了

为何你还来 拨动我心跳

爱 你怎么能了

今夜的你应该明膫

缘难了 情难了

Hey everyone,
This is a song that always make me cry.
I know it's a super old song and most of you don't like it.
But it's really meaningful and nice.

Anyways,

Here's another guy version,

It's damn frickin nice also,

You can witness the sorrow and sadness of the song with the guy's style of singing it.

Hope you all really bother to view it.. =]

http://youtube.com/watch?v=85YopcjdC_U

Spellman. Ass Hole ??

Hey everyone.
I've never felt so bad in my life before.
This post.
I'm gonna dedicate it to my best fren,
Foong Sze Hui.
I wanna apologize to you.

Dear Sze Hui,
Sorry =( Well actually I wasn't stopping you nor unhappy that you're with him. I was just fooling with you ='( I'm not that kind of ppl who would stop my own best fren's relationship. I don't mind owhkayy ? I was just fooling aroung, I know it's stupid.. Sorry.. Anyways, I didn't mean to say so many things, and i don't mind everytime you left me alone and always together with him, except for the time you left me alone at library and when i hold your hand called you not to go, but you ran towards him with high speed =.=" But it's really okayy lah, I don't mind. I just feel really sorry, and i really think that i need to apologize. I dunno how to face you now, cos i memang dun hav the right to even say anything. I did something mean, really mean. Now i know why everyone hates me. And from now, I won't say a thing even if someone hates me, cos i know it's my fault. Anyways, I really want to apologize, I really dunno how to face you now. I "don't have face" to see or talk to you now. Cos i'm a really bad fren.. Sorry =( I don't mind if you don't forgive me and hate me, but i just wanna do what i'm suppose to, which is to apologize.. Sorry =(

Love,
Spell...

Emotional & Frustrating April Fool.

Today..
Is a bad day.
Even though my April Fools for the past year isn't as fun as godknowshow.
But still,
I've nvr encountered and felt so bad during April Fool.
So yeah,
This is the worst April Fool ever.
It's not even funny.
Ugh.


Let's start with the emo part first.
My mood wasn't good when i went school.
Anyways,
Everything's kinda normal.
I even ate Joey's Chocolate CupCake which is very nice =]
Very sweet of you darling,
Thanks =D


But after recess.
Things started happening.
Before everything happening.
I already can feel Sze Hui's angry pressence towards me.
So i dun wanna disturb her lah.
Anyways,
After i came back to class.
The teacher haven't came yet.
So Jia Meng told me,
"Choon !! Sze Hui find you."

I was shocked because i didn't know she would wanna find me.
Anyways,
The teacher came in.
But i didn't care.
I went out and go to the next class to look for her.
I can't find her in her class and also 4H.
So i went back to class lah.
Then i saw her passing by my class.
So i went to her class.
Then i saw her talking with Sock Kwan, Jia Meng & Jian Hong.
So i joined also.
Butt she didn't bother me.
Usually when she's finding for me she'll go like, "Spell!!!!"
But this time,
No.
So i felt weird and i called her..
"Ah Fong"
She looked back with a idunnowadhappened look.
I asked..
"You find me ah ?"
Then some Malay guy said sumthin but i didn't heard,
Then she said,
"He helped me to answer."
I didn't know what happened but i know i was fooled.
I feel damn embarassed and i was really emo.
I felt like a FOOL.
So i ran out of the class immediately with a sad mood.
THIS ISN'T THE END.
I went back class emo-ly,
And i was seriously not in the mood.
Then i decided to cheer myself up and play with others.
But i did something to my friend that only ass holes would do,
I feel like an idiot.
Then she's frickin pissed at me.
I tried to cheer her up and apologize but she didn't bother.
So nvm lah...
Anyways,
Wai Ting and her gang came in.
They talked to Jia Meng & Wei Hsiang they all.
I sat kinda far,
So i didn't bother to go talk to them.
They didn't bother to give a shit about me also,
So whatever lah.
I'm just hated by everyone.
Sheesh.

The frustrating part ?
My brother and my cousin and my mom came to fetch me.
As everyone knows.
I hate my cousin.
(ps: not Yew Wing)
So yeah,
He always gossip bout other ppl and always say stuffs to impress others.
I don't like his personality and attitude.
Anyways,
I confessed to my father yesterday at TGIF about how i hated him and want him to leave our house.
Then my father told me not to think like that.
He says,
If he's being an ass hole and saying stuffs that aren't true.
I could say back stuffs that're not true to him also =.="
So anyways,
I try lah.
But i just can't control myself.
When we're having lunch today.
He talked about my maid again.
Saying how crazy she is and all.
I'm very sensitive when the topics involved with my maid, so i got really pissed.
And i mean REALLY.
Cos as you all know,
My maid said her father entered her body to tell us something.
So anyways,
My cousin said..
"People who always did bad and horrible stuffs will always act strangely and got involved with ghost stuffs easily."
I was frickin pissed.
You CAN'T,
Say sumthin which you don't even know it's true without evidence.
What i mean is,
You can't say my maid did BAD and HORRIBLE stuffs without evidence.
He never even see anything.
So he doesn't have the right to this.
Okay so if she is considered as doing BAD and HORRIBLE stuffs.
Then means you're the person who did MANY bad & horrible stuffs.
If you wanna say her,
Please think of yourself first.
Calling people to fuck off and ass hole.
You're the real ass hole dimwitt who should really fuck off.
Get the hell out of my fucking house.
NOW.
Maybe my brothers can still hang around with you and act like they like you.
But sorry,
I CAN'T do it.
Get lost, bastard.