Okay, I'm sorry.

I've deleted all the posts about you.
I don't wanna explain anymore now,
Cos it's just gonna make it worse and make it seems like you're a bad person.
So all i'm gonna say is..

Sorry,
I will learn from my wrongs and i hope we can go back like how we are last time.
I hope our friendship is still there.
I really don't wanna lose you.. =(

Excited and Upset ><

Hey everyone.
Ths Photography Competition is tomorrow,
I'm sure everyone's really excited like me =D
But also,
I'm kinda upset because of 2 issues.
Well the first one is becos,
I LOOK DAMN FAT IN THE BLOODY PHOTOGRAPHY T-SHIRT.
The cutting SUCKS.
I look damn fat in this kind of cutting wan,
Their cutting should be like the Chinese Society T-Shirt's one.
And also,
The quality of the T-Shirt SUCKSSS TO THE MAXXXX.
It's a see through white =.="
So basicly,
If you wear a colour bra,
People can see it.
So to gurls,
Don't wear red/pink/purple/blue/black/orange/yellow/green bra tomorrow LOL.
=X

Anyways,
LOL.
The 2nd issue is,
The New Ajk List STILLL Haven't Been Announced Yet.

All i can say is...
THE TEACHER SUCKS.
THIS SCHOOL SUCKS.
AND THE HEAD PREFECT SUCKS.
Since morning Mr. Mark have been telling us,
"I'll look for Encik Siva later and it will be announced today." (gay colour xD)

So when it's recess time,
I went to look for him again,
And he REPEATED THE SAME LINE.
So i was like,
"Even if you ask for the list later, you also no chance to announce it to us edi lah?"
Then he said,
"Nono i will tell you all later."

Yeah later,
LATER MY COCKK.
I KNEWWW HE WOULDN'T BE SO HARDWORKING AND GO FIND ENCIK SIVA ONE.
IRRESPONSIBLE JERKSS.
INCLUDING THE BLOODY SIVA.
YOU NEVER COME FOR 2 DAYS EDI NVM LAH,
TODAY YOU CAME AND YOU SAID THE FUCKING LIST IS NOT WITH YOU ?
FUCKK YOUU.
THEN WHERE THE FUCK IS THE LIST ?
YOU ATE IT IS IT ?
IRRESPONSIBLE FUCK.

Ugh =.="
Anyways i told mommy about how fucking irresponsible are they and my mommy said...
"This school really sucks, especially the irresponsible teachers"
LOL,
Finally i heard something right xD

Oh yeah,
Not to mention that that Fadly/Fadli guy was being an ass today.
Well Leon & Fung Soon memang dislike him edi wan,
Cos he wipe shoe = =
And today,
He came to Leon and Fung Soon but i forgot what he was saying.
Cos i didn't give a shit about what cock he wanna say.
But i think he was ORDERING Leon and Fung Soon how to stand and arrange the line or blah blah.
Leon wasn't happy with him ordering around so he kinda ignored him and refused to listen to him.
So he changed target to Fung Soon and he started holding his hand and all,
Fung Soon refused to also and he pushed Fung Soon >=(
I was shocked and got pissed but i forgot if i scolded him or not.
Then Haifa (some malay gurl) shouted at him and dunno what happened lah,
But i think the main reason is becos she feel like puking so when people around her started to get annoying she'll feel even worst ?
LOL.
Anyways,
Trisha scolded him during recess and blah blah.
Everyone was saying,
"Don't go there, Trisha scolding some fat fucker"
LOL.
Lots of people hate him i guess ?
LOL,
How unlucky =O

And after school,
That Fadly/Fadli came to apologize to me =.="
So i said,
"You should apologize to Fung Soon & Leon instead, cos you were rude to them."
And he started saying that dunno what what what tension and dunno what what got family prob that's why mood not good at school.
And say that he wants to see Fung Soon & Leon during rehat today but they refused to see him =.="
So anyways he told me his story and i feel kinda sorry for him. (being soft AGAIN)

Until just now,
When i chat with Fung Soon.
I told him what that Fadly/Fadli guy told me,
And he's still not happy with him,
LOL.
So i kinda feel bad for that Fadly/Fadli guy AGAIN.
But i changed my mind when our conversation continued...

Fung Soon : Today after the kawad, you know what Fadly told Norliza ?

Spell : ....... OmG, what ?!?!?!

Fung Soon : He say we all kurang ajar. Fucker him.

Spell : ............

Fung Soon : Then Trisha know liao say, "He is the fucker who kurang ajar."

Spell : ........... LOL... ><>

Fung Soon : Dunno, Justin heard one.

Spell : .... OWH MY FUCKING GOSH. WTF ?!?!! CHEEE BYEEE HIM, HE NO RIGHT TO CALL PEOPLE KURANG AJAR SEI SOHAI.

=.="
So yeah,
Now i hate him back =.="
And also,
Fung Soon told me that he DIDN'T look for them AT ALL during recess,
Which means he is LYING.
Ugh =.="
He better hope that neither me, Fung Soon & Leon get a pose,
If not he'll be dead.
Ughh =.="
Malay guyss,
Pfft.
Indian guys are better.
LOLL!!! =XX

Hmm,
Pui Yan's party should be going on now.
I can't attend,
So i hope everyone there will enjoy theirselves.

Anyways,
Hope the Photography Competition tomorrow will go smoothly and really fun =D
And hope i won't look fugly in that stupid outfit =(
Bye guys =D
Oh yeah,
Not to forget,
Wish me luck AGAIN for the Ajk Thing =X
Hopefully it'll be announced tomorrow... >"<

Nervous!!!

I'm nervous.
Like,
Realll nervous.
Well apparently,
Tomorrow will be the day that they announce the new AJK List.
I'm really scared =[
I hope i get it.
I mean,
This is the 2nd year i've been chosen edi,
And last year,
I fought out with Alicia and finally got the pose but at last,
1 word from the teacher and all the pose changed.
And there goes the form 6 asses.

Anyways,
I really hope i get it this time cos i've been working hard for it.
And also,
If i don't get it,
It'll be damn humiliating =.="
Cos everyone expected me to get it.
I was calon-ed for normal AJK,
And last week,
I was told that i was calon-ed for AJK Tertinggi =.="
Like wtf..
I don't want a high pose but if i MUST fight it out then i will.
Better than nothing =.="
Anyways,
Everyone knows i was calon-ed for AJK Tertinggi,
Blah blah.
So eventually everyone thought i 100% can become lah.
Even can't become AJK Tertinggi also got a pose.
BUT I'M STILL SCARED.
I MEAN,
WHAT IFF.
THE TEACHERS DON'T WANT ME BECAUSE THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW ME =.="
Well except for Puan Norliza,
Which has reallyyy bad impression towards me ToT

So yeah,
Now i don't hope for anything edi but i just hope i can have a normal pose so it can shut everyone up T.T
And also show it to those ppl who looked down on me and think he is the one who deserves a pose.
Pfft.
Anywayss,
Wish me luck pleeeasseee =(
I don't wanna cry in school tomorrow...

Bitches.

I have a few best friends.
They're my really really great friends.
They're always here for me and we always talk bout everything =]

I don't like people messing with them.
They always meet mean people.
And get hurt.

Some bitch just can't be considerate.
If you don't like him,
Just frickin reject him.
Don't tell him something like,
"Oh, i wanna study for noww."
And make him wait for more than a year when you're already dating some other guy.
And please don't think everyone is dumb,
Cos this reason SUCKS.
It's not even a proper reason.
If you don't like him,
Just fricking say,
"Sorry, i don't like you and now, i'm hooking up with some badminton guy so we can make out while playing badminton."
Just say the fricking truth and stop lying to everyone.
Cos we already know about every goddamn thing about you,
Just that we act like we don't know and we never ask you,
Becos we know you're not gonna admit it at all.
I know you enjoy so many guys coming for you and treating you good and all.
Because it feels like you're so popular and at the same time,
Being able to use all of them and have them treat you good,
Just like having lots of boy friends at once.
You're a bitch.
You try to be innocent and all.
And you act like you're tired and you slept with him in the camp.
You just like to seduce people.
I know.
Sluts are all like that.
So i hope there's gonna be karma,
And one day your secret will be revealed and everyone hates you.
=]

And also you,
I can't state all the specifics and why i hate you,
Cos it'll be damn obvious.
But i just want you to stop bugging my friend.
Even though i'm not really close with him,
But i'm pissed,
Cos you're influencing him,
I don't want him to become a bad and mean person like you.
You might think everyone LOVESSS you,
But no,
You're wrong =]
You thought you're really successful being a human being.
But actually,
No.
You're a failure =D
Cos everyone hates you when you're still living in your own world thinking everyone loves you.
You're not that popular,
Really =]
Cos everyone hates your attitude and YOU.
Maybe you should wake up and realise everything..
Yeahh =]
And also,
One thing that me and everyone hate about you.
When you're in a great mood,
You'll come and joke with us and all.
But when you're in a bad mood,
You don't even tiu us,
You just go and hook up with him and start to naik miang.
And please stop acting like only your life is so miserable and only you are going through things,
Cos everyone is going through things too.
Yeah,
Leon is right.
I REALLY don't dare to say this all out on you,
And when we fight i really MIGHT lose.
But if that time comes,
I don't think i will,
Cos i'm gonna list out all the facts and majority wins,
Everyone hates you.
I don't care how fucking great you are at talking,
You're goin down =]
Anyways,
Good luck on being a person.

Lovee,
Spellman,
Your best-friend =D

Bad Monday =.="

Helloo everyone.
As usual i'm gonna blog about the whole day xD
And also shoot a few ass holes which made my day really bad =.="

Anyways,
I went school and waited till perhimpunan start.
And then hear the stupid teachers crapping.
Whatever~

So after that is Modern Maths period.
Have to see the fucking Zuraini bitch again early in the morning.
So yeah,
As expected,
She bitched again.
I sat with Pooi How,
And seriously,
WE WEREN'T TALKING AT ALL.
EVERYONE ELSE IS.
We weren't talking at all until suddenly Kah Herng & Justin turned to us and asked me about the time table.
So i kinda discussed with them and explained to them.
And suddenly Zuraini came and scolded us,
Like wtf ?
Then she started saying i "asyik bersembang".
So i got kinda pissed and said,
"saya langsung tak sembang, kamu tanya mereka."

And she said,
"Kamu ingat saya buta kah ?"

So after that i kept saying i wasn't talking AT ALL.
And she started asking ppl around me and after that she ignored me.

So owhkayy,
After that,
Sakai & Ying jie & Soo Yee kept talking and made the class damn noisy =.="
She she told the whole class to stand,
And she told few of the quiet ones to sit down,
BUT ME AND POOI HOW STANDING WHILE WE DIDN'T EVEN SAY A WORD.
UGHHH =.="

Anyways,
After recess,
It was English time,
Which means Miss Renuka's period !! =D
I love her class,
Cos she's funny but when she's in a bad mood,
Her attitude sucks =X
So yeah,
Today,
Wei Hsiang was sitting in front of me.
Then when he's leaving,
I was fooling around and took the comp to poke him.
MANA TAHU HE GO USE HIS INJURED HAND TO BLOCK.
So i guess it's damn pain ?
Anyways,
Right after that,
Serena & Hui Ling scolded me immediately.
They haven't even understand the whole situation and they scold me =.="
It's not like i did it on purpose,
Excuse me,
I'm not that dumb and mean lahh.
Ughh.

After that was Bio,
And Jia Meng talked about someone and at last that someone came over and we had a little chat =X
So finally i knew the whole story.
I know that gurl was no good,
I know she's a bitch few months ago.
She's really pro at pretending and faking ppl's feelings.
I hope god will do something back to her,
For all the fucking things she've done.
Ughh.
Since she's so fake.
I'm gonna fake back to her and pretend to be a kind person.
See who's more pro lah,
BITCH!!

Anyways,
After Bio was Chemistry.
And Miss Sim asked if i got any prize for da comp,
LOL.
And she praised me and said that my singing was damn good xD
Soo sweeet xD
Anyways,
Nothin much happened today.
It starts badly thanks to fucking Zuraini =.="
Zzzzz,
Oh well i guess i'll stop here.
See ya guys =]

This post is dedicated to Li Kuen.

Hey everyone.
Yesterday was the chinese singing competition.
And Li Kuen seem to be really down after that.
Cos she think that she suck at singing and no1 cheered and support her.
Well i'm sure everyone disagrees right ?

Li Kuen,
If you suck at singing, then i won't find you to be my partner. And, if you suck at singing, then what am i ? I'm not that good either.. And i just want you to know that please stop thinking stupid stuff like that. You are good. So many people told you that you're good and you still don't believe it ? If you yourself don't believe in yourself, who's gonna believe in you ? And also, I know you love singing, just like me. I hope you won't give up on it no matter what. Please think carefully, Don't simply think and deny yourself.. Hope you can work things out =]

Thank youuu everyonee =D

Hello everyone.
First of all,
I wanna thank every single person who supported me =D
I'm really happy and grateful that al of you supported me,
Thanks =]

Anyways,
As you all know,
Yesterday was the final for chinese singing competition.
Lots of my frens joined,
Including Shu Yee, Sum Yee, Li Kuen, Lam Si Yan, Carmen, Tee Yen, Kha Mun & more.
Everyone didn't do as well as they expected it but it was okayy also lah.
But i was damn confident with my performance yesterday =D
Cos i've already practiced for quite some time edi.
So anyways,
I think i did quite good =]
Cos everyone was praising.

I think our duet really sucks but everyone said it was nice,
Maybe it's because we didn't do as good as we expected so we're disappointed,
But it's okay lah,
At least the audience liked it =D

Anyways,
After the solo competition,
I already know who's the winner.
It's that form 1 gurl,
Cos Liow Pey Shan asked the judges and the judges didn't mention anyone but her.
They say that she's the only person who can sing those opera songs =.="
That's so wrong,
You don't give a person champion just becos she can sing those kind of songs that you like.
Then not everyone can sing rock/jazz also wad,
Why don't you give them champion also.
Ughh.
They're just giving marks accoring to their taste.

Anyways,
After that,
The guy from the music company that bring the 2 celebrities came gave a speech,
I was chatting with my fren so i didn't really heard what he said,
But i think he was saying sumthin like,
"Just now, there's a guy who sang quite good and have the looks also, i forgot what number is he edi."
Then everyone started shouting,
"SPELLMAN AHH!!"
I was like,
"Huh what?"
And the guy continued saying,
"Yah that guy, number 13. To be honest, if it's this kind of standards where his singing and looks are also very good, i would sign him to be one of my singers."

My reaction was like,
"*Oh my gawdd* Thank you ? LOL"

Then he continued,
"He's just like the old Danny Wen Li Ming, in fact, he won't lose to Danny at all."

Then everyone started woo-ing and OmG i'm so blushed but also happy at the same time =D
But i got worried at the same time.
Cos after hearing what that music company guy said,
Everyone started saying i'm champion for sure but i already know that i'm not the frickin champion =.="
So i kept on telling everyone,
"No lah, please stop saying i'm the champion cos i'm really nott T.T Later you all scream like hell and end up i didn't get then damn malu oneee T.T"

Then after some time,
Carol & Xiao Wei came to me and said,
"Spell !! I tell you ah, the judges suck like hell ah. They go choose the form 1 gurl to be champion oh, so stupid right. Just now when the music company guy praise you that time ah, the 3 judges also feel pai seh edi, hahahaha."

LOL!!!
Then they went back.
So right after that is the time they're gonna announce the results.
The host announced the 3rd placing first,
And it goes to Liow Pey Shan =.="
Then they asked the audience who is the 2nd placing.
Then EVERYONEE started to shout,
"SPELLMANN!!!!!!!"

And the host feel kinda pai seh cos the person is not me so she asked the same question again to see if anyone screamed the right name LOL =_=
So after some time everyone was still screaming my name so she decided to give up and announced the 2nd placing,
Which is some form 2 guy that i have no idea why the hell he won.

So right after that i know i lose edi lor,
Since i already knew that the gurl is winning,
But everyone didn't know and they continued screaming my name T.T
SERIOUSLY EVERYONE WAS SCREAMING MY NAME WHICH MADE ME DAMN MALU.
Even Miss Vun who's holding the first prize also looking at me SMILING as if i'm the winner.
So after some time i think the host also feel pai seh so she said,
"Sorry ah, the champion goes to the form 1 gurl."

Everyone got silent immediately.
I even heard someone saying,
"HAR?!?!"
LOLL.

So anyways,
After that is the most potential contestant.
And as usual everyone started shouting my namee again T.T
But the host announced that it's Liow Pey Shan =.="

So yeah,
After that we went down and everyone started saying,
"Spellman dun cry dun cry."
When i'm not even crying = =

So right after that is the group category one.
The host announced the 3rd place which is Carmen Teh's group =.="
Pfftt.
And when they asked the 2nd place everyone started screaming my name again =.="
If you wanna know the situation just read the things that happened during the solo LOL,
Cos basically it's the same.
So then the 2nd place goes to some form 5 gurls which is so-so only =X

And then when the host asked which group is the champion,
Everyone started screaming my name again T.T
INCLUDING THE CONTESTANTSS ON STAGEE.
So once again i've met disappoinment and the champion goes to Liow Pey Shan's group =.="

And then when everyone thought there's no more hope,
A small hope came,
LoL.

Our group got the Best so-called "teamwork" =.="
Personally i think the judge just feel bad for me so they just simply give me an award.
Zzzz.
Anyways after that everyone came and cheer me up when i'm not even sad =_=
Just a lil' disappoinment =]
This happens lah,
Not everyting goes smoothly as we thought one.
So i'm actually okayy with it =D
And i really wanna thank everyone who shouted and cheered for me =]
Thanks alot for supporting me,
Without you people,
I won't have the confidence =]
Really very thankful for every single person who supported me,
I appreciate it =D
Thank you all,
And i will still join again next year,
I won't give up =]
Thanks everyone =D

Bad day =(

Today is a really bad day =(
Yes,
Again..
My parents argued again,
I don't like it =(
They've been arguing lately...
And...
I'm starting to worry =(

Anyways,
In school today,
Our class' boys have been told to stayback after perhimpunan.
Yeah it's becos of that fucking Zuraini =.="
Anyways,
She KEPT ON making things worst.
Siva told us to sing the lagu Wilayah loudly since we so energetic in our class,
And told us to use that energy in the Wilayah song instead,
LOL.
And Siva said,
"Kelas ni ada 5 pengawas pun sangat bising."

And fucking bitch Zuraini just can't keep her fucking mouth shut and said,
"Pengawas LAGII BISING."
THAT MADE THINGS WORSSTT.
UGHH.

Anyways,
It's not completely my fault cos she said that the Add Maths teacher, Sejarah teacher and also Mazlina complained about Leon LOL.
So yeah not exactly me =X
But i'm still the main cause lah,
If i didn't shout then all of this wouldn't happen =.="
Anyways,
Encik Siva asked who was Ketua Kelas and we said it's a gurl,
Then he asked again who's the Penolong and we repeated the same thing =.="
So after that i forgot who screamed,
"Bendahari!!"
Then Encik Siva asked,
"Bendahari siapa?"
Everyone said,
"Wei Hsiang"
LOL.
So he count 123 and we started singing.
We sang the Wilayah Song,
The others sing so damn softly,
Only me and Sakai was singing loudly,
LOL.
And until chorus there suddenly both of us sing damn loud LOL cos we wanna end things faster = =
And right after that,
Encik Siva pointed at me & Sakai and said,
"You dua jangan nyanyi, lain semua nyanyi lagi."
LOL!!!

After we finish singing,
Encik Siva said,
"Wei Hsiang, bendahari ah."
And Wei Hsiang said,
"Errr yah ?"
LOL!!
Everyone laughed = =

Anyways,
Sakai was kinda emo again today.
Well cos...
I don't know if i can say it here.
Something happened between him and his who again lor.
Hope everything goes well for him... =]

Oh and right after rehat,
Chee Kuan came to my class and called me and said,
"Sze Hui crying.."
I was like,
"HAR ?!?! WTF ?!?!?!"
So i rushed there and went to her and asked her what's wrong and tried to cheer her up.
So she pulled me out of class and told me everything.
But still i don't get why is she crying.
LOL =X
But anyways,
I hope everything goes well for you too and please stay strong okiee ?
Don't forget there's always a bunch of friends like us cheering for you always =]
Anyways,
As expected,
Her Ji Mui's (Kei Yan & Vivian) rushed out to find me and ask what happened.
LOL.
It's just like what happened when Kei Yan cried that day and Ah Fong & Vivian came to ask me what's wrong.
LoL.
Proves that they're really great friends =DD
I wonder when's Vivian's turn =X

Anyways,
I feel better edi lah,
I was really emo when i started to update this post but now i'm better edi.. =]
Well i hope everything goes well for me alsoo..
I wish everyone can go through all the hard stages they face and also be happie no matter what.. =]
Thanks everyone..

Btw, the singing competition is this saturday, same goes to the dancing competition. I'm really excited instead of nervous !!! =D Support me for the singing competition kayy ? =]

Bowling With Giraffe + Shopping =D

Hey everyone.

As you all know Friday was the last day for the 3 trainee teachers,

And yesterday,

Which is Saturday,

The teachers planned an outing =D
Well,

More like a farewell outing,

LoL.

Anyways,

We went to play bowling with the teachers,

And then had lunch after that.

At first i thought we have to pay ourselves.

Mana tahu the teacher belanja =.="

I feel kinda pai seh cos we got so many ppl there then she sure bankrupt looo.

Anyways,

Me and Jia Meng one lane.

The first round,

I don't know why i kept on striking and had spares xD

And at the end i got 132 while Jia Meng only 97 =X
Then we wanna play again so yeah we go pay again,

This time i pay it myself =D
And then this time,

Ching Yee & Chiou Hwa wanted to play so yeah,

Jia Meng teamed with Ching Yee and I teamed with Chiou Hwa.

And since Ching Yee was better than Chiou Hwa like ALOT,

And Jia Meng is better than me (i won the last round by luck).

We lost badly =.="

I forgot the marks,

I only remembered we lose until very teruk = =

Anyways,
There were pictures and all,

But it's all in Jia Meng's camera.

Yeahh, ask himm.

So right after that,

We went to Mc Donalds for lunch =D
And since the teachers were so kind,

We decided to belanja her =D
Well at first Lee Chin wanted to use the class fund,

But i volunteered to pay for Giraffe =]

Cos i don't want to use up all of the class fund,

I want a nice meal on the end of the year too =X

And then after that Phei Sze wanted to pay also,

So we shared in the end =)

We snapped lots and lots of pictures with Giraffe,

But dunno it's in whose cameraa.

Well anyways,

I had to go back early cos i have to go Sunway to buy my outfit for the singing competition.
Apparently,

The teachers said,

1. No short pants which is shroter than your knee.

2. No sleeveless shirts.

3. No JEANS.

Like WTFF?!?!?!

I was so damn shocked and frustrated when i heard that WE CAN'T WEAR JEANS.

I mean,

If we can't wear short pants and sleeveless shirts i understand lah,

But JEANS ??
I DON'T GET IT AT ALL.

IT'S NOT LIKE THE FUCKING JEANS IS MADE OF PIG SKIN OR PIG MEAT OR WHATEVER PIG RIIITEEE ?

It's just so weird and wrong lah =.="

Pfft.

Anyways,
Because we weren't allow to wear jeans,

I have to go buy a whole new outfit again.

I can't wear the outfit that i bought a few months ago just for this competition =(

Well anyways,

I went to Sunway to buy some nice shirts and pants alsoo.

I went to the highest floor's Asian Avenue cos it's like Sungai Wang's 6th floor,

Got lala shirts =X

But i wasn't looking for lala shirts lah i'm just looking for some cheap and nice shirts =.="

So anyways,

I bought a white one and a black one there,

So i kinda confirmed to wear it on the finals this saturday.

After that,
We left and had lunch again =X

And after that,

We were walkinggg and suddenly,

We passed by IP ZONE which have LOADSS of nice shirts.

At first i was just hunting for a pants,

Then that promoter lady intro me the new arrival of the shirts so i just give her face and see lor.

Then suddenly i saw i was like,

OMG it's so nice LOL,

But i didn't think of buying it cos it's a great shirt and nice cutting but i don't think it'll suit my fat body =.="

But anyways,
Trying it doesn't harm xD
So i went to try,

And...

OmG,

It fits !!

LOL.

I dunno if it's really nice or not lahh but i think i look owhkayy in it =D
Make me look slimmer xD
Anyways,
Here are the picturess~~

Oh, did i mention that if you wear it another side (terbalik),

It becomes a different design ?
A 2 way wear LOL.

And this is the other side of the shirt~

So in the end,

I bought it xD

And i'm gonna wear it on the finals =D
I was sooo happy cos i acomplished sumthinn in a day wahahahah xD
Anyways,

Nothing much happened after that.

Went back home and watch tv and ate dinner and watch tv and slept =X

Todayyy~

Not such a great day =(
I argued with someone.

Haiz..

I was really emo the whole day.
Thinking what's gonna happen tomorrow...

And so i wanted to apologize and told my classmates not to worry,

I will admit everything.

But it turned out badly =.="

It turned out as if i'm talking really sarcastic and really unthankful.

But all i wanted to do is just tell them not to worry cos i will admit everything.

But then i got misunderstood and scolded..
Sighz...

Today is just not my day.

And i know tomorrow isn't either.

=[...

Sighz..

I need someone to talk to.

Like yeahh..

Noww.

=[[

What a day.

It's a reallyyyyy long day todayy.
This morning,
Suddenly we were told that we're having the dunno wad meeting for Interact.
The meeting where they choose the new BOD.
LOL.
Anyways,
Stupidlyy,
I was nominated for the Treasurer,
And got the job o.O
Yes,
Treasurer AGAIINNN LOL.
I'm kinda sick of being treasurer since being treasurer for Photography is really hong pou,
Scared let ppl scold again =X

Anyways,
Today was our Bio teacher's last day.
Yeah one of the trainee teachers =D
Cik Zafirah.
Leon & Jia Meng made the name Cik Zirafah for her LOL.
And kept writing Giraffe and point at her = =
So yeah for the last 2 periods,
We were spending time taking pictures.
With the whole class =D
I was really happy becos i love it when our whole class unites together.
Make me feel very happy and not lonely =]
So yeah we took lots of pictures =D
And she invited us to an outing tomorrow.
Something like a farewell,
LoL.
Both 3 of the trainee teachers,
They made an outing,
Dunno wad class is involved.
But i know my class is involved =D
And most of my classmates also goin,
So yeahh =D
Wonder if anyone else is goin.. =]

Anyways,
After school went to yumcha with JM & Xiao Wei.
Actually it should be called lunch instead =_=
After that,
Went back to school to find Li Kuen to practice and choose our song for the final.
And FINALLY we picked a song =.="
And i remember,
Before the Sesi Petang came up to class.
We were at class practicing our song.
Husna was outside dunno doing what.
And Li Kuen was singing.
Then suddenly Husna screamed and said,
"EHHH, saya ingat itu radio !!!!"

LOLL,
I knoww,
So exagerating = =
Anyways,
After that we've finally picked our song,
So when the Sesi Petang almost rehat we go back = =

Anyways,
I came home and i was online.
I was chatting to Chee Kuan as usual.
And then i read Sze Hui's post.
I took 20 minutes to understand it clearly =.="
And I really pitty her and feel bad for her =(
Being top student really is hard.
There's gonna be lots of ppl who're jealous of her.
She's doing a really great job and seriously she's not bossy or anything.
If she's LC then she also won't talk to me lah,
Since i'm so damn dumb.
Sighz...
Hope my darling Ah Fong can stay strong and don't let rumours or insults beat you so easily =]
You're always my Super No 1 !!! =D

Things have never gotten this bad.

My life sucks.
Yes it is =(
It's not that i don't know how to appreciate it.
It's just that bad things really happened to me... =(

I already know what's happening..
Even though no one told me a thing about it...
=[

So many things has been going on this week..
It's the worst week ever ='(
And today is also one of the worst day of the year.
Haiz....

Family issues.
Puan Norliza issues.

And alot more =[

I don't even have the mood for anything nemore..
Sighz...

I guess..
I need someone to talk to =(
This time,
I don't think i'll be that strong anymore.

*And who knows,
Maybe few months later you all won't be able to see me ever again =[
I'll really miss you guys...

All The Hardworks Paid Off =]

Yeahh,
As most of you probably know.
I GOT INTO THE FINALS !!! (like, finally)

So yesterday,
I woke up at 5.40 and did all the warm up exercises and then went to school at 6.30 to join Li Kuen for last minute practice.
Sooo yeahh we were still worried if our duet sounds weird but soon,
We didn't care and we just went into the hall and wait.
I was number 20,
So it's kinda late.
Can get to watch all the other contestants sing first =D
Shu Yee's singing was GREATT at the beginning,
But after some time her tempo was out,
But it's still good though =D

And then there was Lam Si Yan's.
The second she sang,
EVERYONE inside the hall was shocked.
Oh my god,
I loveee herrr singing my favourite song !!!
Too bad never record... =/
Anyways,
After that was Carmen and then Erica,
So-so only.
LOL.
And after Erica was me.
I was blur cos Erica is 18 and i'm 20.
So i was wondering if number 19 showed up and if i was next o.O
So after that blah blah,
It was my turn so i went up to stage and sang.
I didn't sang as well as i usually did though =(
I can't hear the frickin music so i'm having hard times following the beat.
But still it was greatt =D
My friend said i sang for 2 minutes++ while most of the other contestants only sang for 1 minute++.
LoL.
Moments after me was Li Kuen.
Her song is a veryy veryyyy sloww song and emo song,
So yeah you have to listen quietly to enjoy the song one.
But sadly,
Those mother fuckers at the back are damn frickin noisy.
So i have to "SHHHHHH!!!" them again.
Saturday also have to do the prefect's job =_=

Anyways,
She sang for awhile only then teacher "ding" her edi.
So scary =.="
And other contestants more cham,
They just sing for i think 30 seconds or less then the teacher "ding" her edi.
So meann lahh =(

Anyways,
Right after solo we have a break.
And then we did out last practice and we went back to the hall.
We were number 2 for group so we had to get ready earlier.
So after the first group,
It was our turn =.="
And there was some funny things that happened during the duet,
LOL.
I wasn't nrevous at all cos Li Kuen was there with me.
While Li Kuen was,
DAMN STONED.
LOL.
And after we finish singing the first part,
I told Li Kuen,
"Li Kuen, don't forget that you sing first."

And Li Kuen replied me with,
"I'm very nervous" *with a really STONED expression"
LOL.

Anyways,
Cut the crap = =
Some time after that was Sakai's team.
IT WAS DAMN FUNNYYY LOLL.
Sure,
They're singing wasn't good but they were HILARIOUSS on the stage.
Even the judges was lauging their ass off.
And they get to sing the whole song,
LOL.

And then there was Tee Yen & Kha Mun's team which is DAMN KENG.
Everyone was already talking about they're team early in the morning.
Saying they're one of the strongest team,
So yeahh,
They DID turn out great =D
Only Kha Mun had some pitch problem but her voice saved her =)

After that was Shu Yee's team,
Seems like this year she just wanna have fun,
LoL.
She sang with Sum Yee and they're performance was really funny.
But still,
Not as funny as Sakai's oneee xD

Okayy so after all that then it's time for the results edi.
There were 33 contestants (I think),
And they seperated into 3 times.
Each time only 11 contestants go up to the stage,
I was in the 2nd group so i waited.

The 4 hosts,
They seperated to 2 Angels & 2 Devils.
If the Angels came and shake your hand,
Means you're qualified for the next round =D
But if the Devils came and take you to the stairs means goodbye T.T

So yeah,
The first group,
The host was asking the audience who is qualified so i shouted really hard for Shu Yee,
Cos Lam Si Yan already 100% qualified so i root for Shu Yee instead.
And thank god both of them entered the finals =.="
Okayy so the next team was me.
I was really nervous.
Some of my friends say that i look like i'm gonna cry LOL.
Everyone was screaming,
"NUMBER 20 !!! NUMBER 20 !!!"
And the Angel said,
"Number 20 ah ? Aiya i duwan lah, i want number 12".

So i was thinking,
"Owhhh means big probability i'm eliminated lor."
So my face became as black as Serena LOLL JK.
And then one the Angel said number 19 got in.
So i was thinking,
"Is number 19 me ? Cos number 19 was absent and the teachers also mistaken me for number 19 just noww."

But they grabbed Erica's hand and told her she's in.
So i was thinking if they made a mistake or not.
And i REALLY was gonna cry.
But right after that,
Everyone continued screaming "NUMBER 20 !!!!"
So the Angel said,
"Number 20 ah ? Ok lor number 20 lor~"
And i was like OH MY GAWDDD !!!
At that moment,
I wanted to scream,
"HELL YEAHH !!!! I FUCKING MADE IT!!!!!"
LOL.

Soo yeah after that we went down and it was Li Kuen's turn.
Li Kuen got in also,
I was soo gladdd !!!
And i think almost everyone in that group went in.
Soo yeahh.

After the solo results was da group's results.
I was nervous also cos i think other groups did alot better than us.. =(
Thanks to the crowd who continued screaming "NUMBER 2 !!!!"
So yeahh we got into the finals !! =D
Sakai's team got in too..
LOL.
Including Kha Mun & Tee Yen's group,
Shu Yee & Sum Yee's group.

So after the results was announced,
The big event of the year finally ended =D

I went back home right after that.
So i didn't get to see the paper which the teacher wrote the marks in.
Kha Mun told me that my group got the highest marks,
LOL.
Yayy =)
And she said for my solo,
The judges gave my voice 9/10 markss !! =D
I was really happyyyy yesterdayy =]

Anyways,
I have to say sorry to Chee Kuan & May Yen for not informing you the results right after it was announced,
I know you both are disappointed with me,
I knoww i knoww,
I'm really sorry =(
And thanks for supporting me always especially May Yen,
It's okayy you can't come,
Just come on finals alright ?? =]

Anyways,
I have to list out all the people i want to thank.
Ah Fong
Kei Yan
Vivian
Wei Hsiang (i know you act like u don't care but i know u doo xDD)
Jia Meng
Wai Ting
Kah Yan
May Yen
Chee Kuan
Trisha
Shu Yee
Sum Yee
Ching Yee
Chiou Hwa
Soo Yee
Ying Jie
Phei Sze
Wen Yen
Lee Chin
Jun Yeong
Lam Si Yan
Hui Ling
Yee Pooi
Justin Lee
Kah Herng
Sakai
Wai Kwong
Kar Hoe
Kha Mun
Tee Yen
Carol
Xiao Wei
Wei Lee
And last but not least,
My beloved partner,
Li Kuen =]

If it wasn't for Li Kuen,
I think no one's gonna sing duet with me.
Plus,
She didn't gave up on me for 2 years.
Yeah i remember last year,
I throwed the mic on the floor,
The teachers were angry and so we didn't got in.
Li Kuen would've got in if it wasn't for me.
But she told me the other day,
Not even once that she blamed me.
If only were better,
Then there's no other reasons to eliminate us.
So we can't blame other people.
It's OUR fault.
So this year,
We must challenge the extent of out limits and surpassed ourselves !!!
Thank Li Kuen for being with me all the time =]

To me,
Being able to enter to the finals is already a huge success =D
I don't hope to get any placing for the finals,
Cos in my heart,
I've already won,
I won myself.
I improved and i never gave up singing.
I accept all the insults given and try to improve.. =]
So basicly,
I'm already satisfied with everything noww.
This year really is my year =D

And i have to thank all the audience too,
If it wasn't for you peepos,
I would've lost all my confident.

And also to all my darling friends who supported me,
THANK YOUUU =D
No you No Spellman.
=]

The big day.

The big day..
Yeah,
It's tomorrow.

The big day that's gonna raise me up to the top of the pillar.
But there's also chances that're gonna make me remain on the dirt.
Well no matter what,
I only want to prove myself.
Yeahh.

My name is Spellman.
I'm 16 this year.
And i love singing.
I joined the singing competition since i was form 2.
But sadly,
I can't manage to get into the finals.
Some say i suck.
Some say the judges are unfair.
But to me,
I don't care what's ahead of me.
Cos if i do my thing well on stage,
No one can deny me.
I failed trying to accomplish this mission for the past 2 years.
So this year,
I AM going to complete this mission once and for all.
Many people look down on me.
But i don't care,
I will do my best and prove to them =]
Even my very own best friends look down on me.
So i'm really trying hard to impress them.
So tomorrow is my chance,
It's my only chance.
I might have this opprtunity to impress them which doesn't come often.
So,
Here,
I want to thank all the people who looked down on me.
Especially all my best friends.
Yeahh.
ALL my close close friends now.
Classmates and friends from the class beside us.
I will prove to you all,
That i'm not the old Spellman anymore =]
Saying it here is useless,
I'll just let you witness the change tomorrow =)
Good bye,
Once again,
Thank you all for looking down on me =D