Hello everyone.
Well exam has officially ended and holiday has just started,
So i guess it's good news to all of us cos we've finally gained freedom ;D
But sadly,
I'm not happy =(
There are conflicts and also things happening that made my mind so messed up.
Haiz...
The other day,
I had lunch with my parents after school.
So then my mom started saying that form 6 is good and she wants me to study form 6.
And obviously my dad agreed.
They kept saying how good it is and having a good basic and all,
But i know they're just doing this because now the economy is not good so they want me to hide in form 6 for 2 more years then only move on to college when our income is very good again..
And then my mom was like saying,
Mom : Yah lah, you study form 6 lah, then after that your results good then you can even apply for the local university.
Dad : "Sai hei" (waste breath) lah, this fella cannot one lah.
Spell : *speechless*
Mom : He can one, you think he don't have what it takes meh ? He's just lazy.
And then they continued their conversation.
I admit i'm fucking dumb and lazy but what he said really hurt me alot.
And I DON'T want to study form 6 cos it's a waste of time if i cannot handle it and i know i can't.
If a person doesn't have passion towards this particular thing, he won't succeed cos he don't have the heart there.
I seriously don't wanna study form 6 cos i'm dumb and if i go there i'll just waste 2 years there without achieving anything..
And today,
We were having lunch and were waiting for the food to come.
And all of a sudden my father asked me..
Dad : You wanna go US study or not ?
Spell : Huh ?? Duwan lah.. So expensive...
And then he started talking about studying in US and say I can actually live in my aunt's house over there.
I denied it at first cos I'm afraid that we can't afford it as it's really really expensive over there..
But then again,
If we COULD,
I would say yes to my dad.
This clashes completely with my whole singing ambition.
And I'm having thoughts to give it up now.
Everything's changing =(
I don't know lah.
I don't wanna talk now..
Haiz...
I'll update again some other time...
Friday, May 29, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Love At First Sight =D
I only had 2 relationships in my whole life.
One during form 1 and another one during form 2.
During form 3,
I had something going on with this gurl but we didn't end up together at last.
Anyways today I'm here to talk about something else =D
Which is love at first sight which only happened once in my whole life =]
I remember..
Back then,
It was form 1.
It all started on the Orientation for form 1 students.
I was nervous cos it's a whole different world in secondary school.
And i have to start my life all over again there.
Anyways I wasn't expecting much on my first day there.
When I entered the school..
I saw her.
The prefect on duty there.
My first reaction was..
"Wow, she's SOOO pretty.."
And slowly,
I started to notice EVERYthing about her.
And I started to have a crush on her =D
But actually,
It's love at first sight.
I fell in love with her the moment i saw her =]
Back then,
I was just a quiet boy with no confidence at all.
Cos I think I'm ugly and it's true = ="
So I don't have the confidence and i like to remain low.
Back then,
I always hung out with JiaMeng during recess even though we're from different classes.
And I wasn't a prefect yet.
And almost everyday I will talk to him about her,
And the topic doesn't end.
LoL.
And then there was once when JiaMeng took my tie.
So he threw the tie to me from the stairs and it didn't reach my place so it flew down.
It was hanging on something where I couldn't reach then MohdNoor used his cane and hook it and it flew down again = ="
This time,
It fell on the lowest floor.
So I rushed down to pick up my tie.
When I reached the lowest floor.
I saw her and her friend.
She was holding my tie.
And she asked..
Her : Is this your tie ?
Spell : Yeahh..
Her : Why did you threw it down ? What's your name ?
Spell : Choy Yew Choon.
Her : Class ?
Spell : 1A.
Her : I'm gonna write your name now and *blah blah blah*.. OKAY I'M JUST JOKING. NAH, GIVE YOU BACK.
Spell : Thanks...
It was my first time talking to her in my whole life and I was SO SO happy.
I went up and told JiaMeng the WHOLE story.
And the topic went on and on again.
After what happened that day...
Everything changed. (Well at least for me, it changed)
She statred greeting me.
There was once when I was walking behind her up the stairs.
She said,
"Hi."
And I said "Hi." too =D
Even though it was just a mere Hi,
But it meant alot for me =]
There were more and more encounters after that and I kept count on EVERYtime we greet or talked.
I was so silly back then =]
And then I became a PrefectTrainee.
Part of it was because of her.
But I wanted it for myself also lah =]
I still remember,
I became a PrefectTrainee on Monday.
And it was 1st of August.
Her birthday falls on the coming Wednesday which is the 3rd of August.
And I remember that time,
JianHong was quite close with her and he was walking with her.
Then JianHong said,
"Wei Spellman, people this Wednesday birthday ahh."
So I decided to make her something =D
I didn't buy her anything.
I just made a SUPER ugly card that i feel so embarrassed of now.
Obviously I didn't dare to hand it to her.
So I asked KeiYan to help me = ="
And she handed it to her.
So after school.
I went online and KeiYan was online too.
So I asked how did everything went.
And KeiYan told me what happened.
*Kei Yan gave the card to her. Wants to leave but was stopped by her*
Her : Who is it from ?
Kei Yan : I promised him I cannot tell.
*stopped her and didn't allow her to go*
so KeiYan was forced to tell..
Kei Yan : Pengawas Pelatih.
Her : Is it Spellman ?
Kei Yan : I dunno. *RAN AWAY QUICKLY TO CATCH HER BUS*
When she told me that,
I wanted to cry cos I felt so embarrassed T.T
And I was so shy on the next day of school.
I tried very hard to pretend as if nothing happened = ="
Anyways after some time,
We kind of started talking and soon,
We became best friends =D
And the crush ended too.
I guess I stopped liking her cos I know it was impossible to be with her...
But I'm glad that we're friends until now =]
Those were the great times when it seems like there were nothing to be headache of in this whole world.
That's form 1 =]
But it can't happen anymore now cos we have so many to face,
Exams and all.
Everyone's occupied with their own tasks.
And her.
Hope she's having a great life and it'll be smooth and great from now on.
Hope you'll achieve something big in your life and I'm sure you can.
Good luck dear friend =]
Thanks for the memories...
One during form 1 and another one during form 2.
During form 3,
I had something going on with this gurl but we didn't end up together at last.
Anyways today I'm here to talk about something else =D
Which is love at first sight which only happened once in my whole life =]
I remember..
Back then,
It was form 1.
It all started on the Orientation for form 1 students.
I was nervous cos it's a whole different world in secondary school.
And i have to start my life all over again there.
Anyways I wasn't expecting much on my first day there.
When I entered the school..
I saw her.
The prefect on duty there.
My first reaction was..
"Wow, she's SOOO pretty.."
And slowly,
I started to notice EVERYthing about her.
And I started to have a crush on her =D
But actually,
It's love at first sight.
I fell in love with her the moment i saw her =]
Back then,
I was just a quiet boy with no confidence at all.
Cos I think I'm ugly and it's true = ="
So I don't have the confidence and i like to remain low.
Back then,
I always hung out with JiaMeng during recess even though we're from different classes.
And I wasn't a prefect yet.
And almost everyday I will talk to him about her,
And the topic doesn't end.
LoL.
And then there was once when JiaMeng took my tie.
So he threw the tie to me from the stairs and it didn't reach my place so it flew down.
It was hanging on something where I couldn't reach then MohdNoor used his cane and hook it and it flew down again = ="
This time,
It fell on the lowest floor.
So I rushed down to pick up my tie.
When I reached the lowest floor.
I saw her and her friend.
She was holding my tie.
And she asked..
Her : Is this your tie ?
Spell : Yeahh..
Her : Why did you threw it down ? What's your name ?
Spell : Choy Yew Choon.
Her : Class ?
Spell : 1A.
Her : I'm gonna write your name now and *blah blah blah*.. OKAY I'M JUST JOKING. NAH, GIVE YOU BACK.
Spell : Thanks...
It was my first time talking to her in my whole life and I was SO SO happy.
I went up and told JiaMeng the WHOLE story.
And the topic went on and on again.
After what happened that day...
Everything changed. (Well at least for me, it changed)
She statred greeting me.
There was once when I was walking behind her up the stairs.
She said,
"Hi."
And I said "Hi." too =D
Even though it was just a mere Hi,
But it meant alot for me =]
There were more and more encounters after that and I kept count on EVERYtime we greet or talked.
I was so silly back then =]
And then I became a PrefectTrainee.
Part of it was because of her.
But I wanted it for myself also lah =]
I still remember,
I became a PrefectTrainee on Monday.
And it was 1st of August.
Her birthday falls on the coming Wednesday which is the 3rd of August.
And I remember that time,
JianHong was quite close with her and he was walking with her.
Then JianHong said,
"Wei Spellman, people this Wednesday birthday ahh."
So I decided to make her something =D
I didn't buy her anything.
I just made a SUPER ugly card that i feel so embarrassed of now.
Obviously I didn't dare to hand it to her.
So I asked KeiYan to help me = ="
And she handed it to her.
So after school.
I went online and KeiYan was online too.
So I asked how did everything went.
And KeiYan told me what happened.
*Kei Yan gave the card to her. Wants to leave but was stopped by her*
Her : Who is it from ?
Kei Yan : I promised him I cannot tell.
*stopped her and didn't allow her to go*
so KeiYan was forced to tell..
Kei Yan : Pengawas Pelatih.
Her : Is it Spellman ?
Kei Yan : I dunno. *RAN AWAY QUICKLY TO CATCH HER BUS*
When she told me that,
I wanted to cry cos I felt so embarrassed T.T
And I was so shy on the next day of school.
I tried very hard to pretend as if nothing happened = ="
Anyways after some time,
We kind of started talking and soon,
We became best friends =D
And the crush ended too.
I guess I stopped liking her cos I know it was impossible to be with her...
But I'm glad that we're friends until now =]
Those were the great times when it seems like there were nothing to be headache of in this whole world.
That's form 1 =]
But it can't happen anymore now cos we have so many to face,
Exams and all.
Everyone's occupied with their own tasks.
And her.
Hope she's having a great life and it'll be smooth and great from now on.
Hope you'll achieve something big in your life and I'm sure you can.
Good luck dear friend =]
Thanks for the memories...
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Threatening ? No thank you =]
Just here to say.
Please don't threaten ppl.
If KuiSeong is fucking hurt/whacked,
I will bring this matter up and I will print everything out as evidence and everyone who's reading my blog will be the witness.
So everyone here can be witness edi,
If 1 day KuiSeong or who is hurt,
Then u know who's the one who did it lah.
Just go to his blog and read the cbox and you'll know who did it.
Think properly before you do something.
If he is hurt or anything,
This matter will be brought up and I will make sure the person who hit him will be revealed and actions will be taken.
No hard feelings but I don't wanna see threatenings no more.
Please don't threaten ppl.
If KuiSeong is fucking hurt/whacked,
I will bring this matter up and I will print everything out as evidence and everyone who's reading my blog will be the witness.
So everyone here can be witness edi,
If 1 day KuiSeong or who is hurt,
Then u know who's the one who did it lah.
Just go to his blog and read the cbox and you'll know who did it.
Think properly before you do something.
If he is hurt or anything,
This matter will be brought up and I will make sure the person who hit him will be revealed and actions will be taken.
No hard feelings but I don't wanna see threatenings no more.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Don't mess around.
Recently there are lots of complaints about someone.
And I'm sure you all know who also lah.
I'm not here to judge anything.
I've seen what everyone wrote and I've also read what SzuWah said.
First of all,
To SzuWah.
Actually,
People are complaining not because KFC spreaded bad news about her with her doing stupid things in librarian board.
Just that ppl are complaining bout her in everyday life,
That's why ppl are scolding her but not only based on this case,
But usually normal day cases as well.
And I understand bout the part that you said don't expose evreything in blog.
But you have to remember one thing,
SHE is the one who complained so damn many stuffs first.
As you said mah,
If not happy then should just tell it face to face.
Why she have to always just shoot ppl in her blog ?
Don't want tell face to face ?
I don't wanna give my opinion about what she wrote in her blog cos it's not very right.
But you should also notice that not only few ppl is complaining bout her.
ALOT of ppl complained about her.
Takkan KFC spread to EVERYONE ?
I'm sure lots of ppl is just saying what they experienced on their usual school day.
So we shouldn't just blame it all on KFC..
Think of the things from all sides.
And judge nicely..
Also, i hope this won't ruin our friendship cos we're so good friends since form 1 XD
But I'm siding with them..
Even though that doesn't make any difference and i don't have the right to say anything.
I know everyone has different opinions.
And sometimes instead of being angry of what ppl said,
We should listen and think bout it,
Is it right or wrong.
Don't get angry so easily...
To KFC : You all are my besties and I know you all are the nicest person on earth =]
To SzuWah : We are best friends XD
To *personinvolved : Sometimes not happy then should just say out don't hide lidat.. Cos no1 know what you're thinking...
And I'm sure you all know who also lah.
I'm not here to judge anything.
I've seen what everyone wrote and I've also read what SzuWah said.
First of all,
To SzuWah.
Actually,
People are complaining not because KFC spreaded bad news about her with her doing stupid things in librarian board.
Just that ppl are complaining bout her in everyday life,
That's why ppl are scolding her but not only based on this case,
But usually normal day cases as well.
And I understand bout the part that you said don't expose evreything in blog.
But you have to remember one thing,
SHE is the one who complained so damn many stuffs first.
As you said mah,
If not happy then should just tell it face to face.
Why she have to always just shoot ppl in her blog ?
Don't want tell face to face ?
I don't wanna give my opinion about what she wrote in her blog cos it's not very right.
But you should also notice that not only few ppl is complaining bout her.
ALOT of ppl complained about her.
Takkan KFC spread to EVERYONE ?
I'm sure lots of ppl is just saying what they experienced on their usual school day.
So we shouldn't just blame it all on KFC..
Think of the things from all sides.
And judge nicely..
Also, i hope this won't ruin our friendship cos we're so good friends since form 1 XD
But I'm siding with them..
Even though that doesn't make any difference and i don't have the right to say anything.
I know everyone has different opinions.
And sometimes instead of being angry of what ppl said,
We should listen and think bout it,
Is it right or wrong.
Don't get angry so easily...
To KFC : You all are my besties and I know you all are the nicest person on earth =]
To SzuWah : We are best friends XD
To *personinvolved : Sometimes not happy then should just say out don't hide lidat.. Cos no1 know what you're thinking...
Monday, May 4, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
BAA-AAD.
My results sucks.
Yet I didn't complain.
All i can do is just tell myself,
"Work hard for the next one.. There're still time.."
You're not the only one in pain,
I am too.
But i didn't want to trouble you,
I didn't want to trouble anyone.
Cos I know I always bring trouble to people around me,
And I'm seriously sorry about that.
Cos there're lots of things that I'm not capable of doing.
Ok fine,
I'm sorry,
Sorry for being in such a bad mood that day and treated you like that.
But to be honest,
I wasn't in a good mood.
I won't say it here cos I'm just gonna embarrass myself.
Well I'm sorry for not being able to console you,
Cos I was needing ppl to console me also.
Everything might be going so wrong for you.
But if it's me,
It'll be a different story.
My standard and aim is very low.
If I had your results,
I will be damn happy edi and my parents will be super happy too. (Plus nowadays you're improving alot)
Haiz..
I dunno what to say edi.
I'm a bad fren mah...
That's all I know.
Anyways I hope you could get over it and do better next time.
End of story.
Yet I didn't complain.
All i can do is just tell myself,
"Work hard for the next one.. There're still time.."
You're not the only one in pain,
I am too.
But i didn't want to trouble you,
I didn't want to trouble anyone.
Cos I know I always bring trouble to people around me,
And I'm seriously sorry about that.
Cos there're lots of things that I'm not capable of doing.
Ok fine,
I'm sorry,
Sorry for being in such a bad mood that day and treated you like that.
But to be honest,
I wasn't in a good mood.
I won't say it here cos I'm just gonna embarrass myself.
Well I'm sorry for not being able to console you,
Cos I was needing ppl to console me also.
Everything might be going so wrong for you.
But if it's me,
It'll be a different story.
My standard and aim is very low.
If I had your results,
I will be damn happy edi and my parents will be super happy too. (Plus nowadays you're improving alot)
Haiz..
I dunno what to say edi.
I'm a bad fren mah...
That's all I know.
Anyways I hope you could get over it and do better next time.
End of story.
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