=[[.

Hmm.
I've just heard of some bad news today.
Well it's not about me.
It's about my eldest brother =[
As usual,
I TERlistened when i was playing the comp upstairs and my mom and cousin was talking about it.
I was...
Shocked.
Mom asked me if something happened to them a few days ago,
And i didn't noticed and answered her,
"No lah i don't think so, that day baru she came over to our house."
Even so,
I started to suspect that there's somethin going on..
And i have a kinda bad feeling about it =/

So yeah,
Finally i've heard the whole story.
I don't know the COMPLETE story lah,
I just know what happened to them.
The details and all,
I don't know =/
I kinda feel bad and sorry for them.
No wonder this few days brother not in the mood.
Now i knoww why..
Sighz...
Kesian him lah..
He's really a great bf..
Well he treats her really really great.
Haha..

Hmm,
I just saw brotherr's phone.
His wallpaper is still her.
=(
I know he still loves her alot though.
I dunno lah,
No matter what he decides in the future,
I just hope everything goes well for him..

Personally,
I didn't expect this to happen.
I thought they're love will last forever.
But it seems...
Nothing is forever.
Everything will end one day.
Just that if it's sooner or later.
Sighz..
I'm getting emo.
Even though it's not some tragedy that happened to mee.
Well,
I hope brotherrr would be happy.
I hope he make the right decision for him and he'll be happy with it.. =]

Good luck,
Keii Korr (Yew Kee),
Love you always.. =]

Tagged byyyy Triishaaaa Shabuuu! ;D

1.Shortest relationship?
- 1 and a half month ;(

2. Last gift you received?
- Err, 2 months ago for my birthday i guess ? There's alot.

3. Ever dropped a cell phone?
- Like DUHH, who doesn't ? = =

4. Last food you ate?
- Chicken rice =D

5. Last club you went?
- I don't go clubbing but i go clubs like OUG Club LOL!!!

6. Last smoke
- Last smoke ? You mean the last timo i smoke or whatt o.O I don't smoke sorry.

7. One favorite song?
- Wen Lan (Landy) - Sha Gua (Silly)

8. Where do you live?
- OUG but SOON Sri Petaling =D

9. Last wedding you attended?
- Erhm, february i guess.

10. Last time you saw your friend?
- 4 and a half hours ago. LoL.

11. Where is your favorite place to eat with friends?
- Steamboat & Buffet places =DD

12. Can you cook?
- Magieee Mee yeahhh xD

13. Last time you cried?
- It's been really long since i've last cried..

14. Why?
- Because there's nothing for me to cry about and i've learned to stay strong =/

15. Hate most about yourself?
- Almost everything. Weight, Looks, Hairr, everything =( I'm not perfect at all..

16. Can you sing?
- Yes i CAN and i don't care what people say, i'll prove to everyone that i can.

17. Do you smoke?
- Nooo, i fuckin hate ppl who smoke.

18. Pancakes or French toast?
- Depends on which kind of pancakes, i love the ones in Paddington ;DD

19. Do you like coffee?
- Yeahh, but i seldom drink it.

20. Last person who sent you a message?
- No one ;( Except for some who i messaged them and they replied.

21. What was the last text message you received?
- "Ok only lah -_-"" (LOL!)

22. Can you play pool?
- No i suck and i'm not interested in it.

23. Can you swim?
- Noooo =(

24. Favorite flavor of ice cream?
- Chocoooooolaateeeeeee !!!! =D

25. What time did you wake up this morning?
- 7 sumthin or earlier.

26. What are you doing this week?
- Getting prepared for the singing competition =]

27. Are you smiling?
- Yes but just for a lil while though.

28. Do you miss someone right now?
- Not really.

29. Do you have a crush?
- Nooooooope.

30. Do you have a sister?
- Nopee =/

31. Who is your closest cousin’s name?
- You winnn ;D

32. What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
- Checking sumthin.

33. if you were a color, what would you be?
- Blue or Red or White or Black =D

34. if you could go anywhere right now, where?
- Go to somewhere fun, like climbing Mount Kinabalu or go watch the Sunset =]

35. Food you're craving for right this minute?
- Hmmm, for now, no i guess. But i guess i feel like eating Donuts, LoL.

36. Name a person who's name starts with the letter "j"?
- Jia Meng.

37. where's the best place to eat ice cream?
- Haagen Daaz =D

38. Radio station you frequently listen to?
- My Fm.

39. Where do you usually hang out?
- Sunway & Times Square.

40. if you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?
- I haven't even start my career yet =.="

41. What are you going to do tomorrow?
- Get my ass back to school which i don't want to =(

42. Favorite day?
- Friday & Saturday !! =D

43. Are you easy to get along with?
- Yeah yeah yeahh i ammm ;DDD

44. What movie do you want to see right now?
- Superhero Movie LOLL.

45. Whose birthday is coming up?
- Phei Sze's =D

46. How many kids do you want?
- 4 !!! =X

47. Where do you usually watch movies?
- Most probably at home, i don't like to go to the cinema =\

48. Name one person which starts with the letter "m"?
- Mayy Yenn.

49. Favorite thing that you have now?
- Nothing in particular. I don't see anything that i have can get me obsessed all over it for now =_=

50. Quote something.
- After all the insults and negative comments i received, i understand that i have to do better and prove myself to everyone who looked down on me.

It's not funny. No it's not.

I know.
Everyone is looking down on me.
Everyone says i'm not gonna make it.
I don't care.

Best friends are doing something weird with they're someone which i'm not happy.
Best friends who come and try to change what i think and believe.
Best friends who made me emo.
Best friends who think it's funny and continue to deepen my wound when i'm emo.

All these aren't helping.
Seriously it isn't.
I don't know if you're really concern about me or what.
But it really pissed me off when you continue to insult me and laugh about it.
Seriously,
I don't feel like talking to you now.
Well maybe it's just the angerness that's making me like that now.
Maybe after some time,
I'll talk to you back.
Well,
At least after the singing competition.
So i can fucking prove to you.
I don't need your supports.
I don't need anyone's.
I'll just do my best and MAKE ppl support me.
Ppl will support ppl that they think they're really good.
So i don't care what do you think now.
Cos sooner or later,
You will realise..

And my confidence won't drop just because of this.
I was thinking for the past 2 days.
I don't want to get sad and emo all over what you all said.
I will rise once again,
And i promise,
I'll make you impressed by my performance this Saturday.
Just wait till you all see.

I don't hate you.
I'm just pissed.
And i can see that you don't even care cos when i expressed that i was pissed,
You totally ignored it.
So yeah,
I don't care.
Why am i gonna care when you don't even care about it.
So yeahh,
I'll talk to you NEXT week.
I'll see if you realised you really hurt me.

Confidence >> Low. Mood >> Low.

I was emo today.
For almost the whole day.
Well it actually started yesterday night.
She was online..
I went to talk to her.
And i went to see her blog.
Seeing how well her life is going now,
I feel happy for her.
But at the same time..
I'm sad =(
Cos i'm not the one there beside her to share her happiness and be there for her when she needs help.
I don't have face to see her anymore.
I don't have the right to.
I've treated her badly.
I didn't give her what she wanted.
And i realised...
I still like her.
I nvr stopped.
Well i thought i did,
But...
No..
I didn't =(
Everything was really okayy and i thought i can finally get over her.
But just when i see how successful she is and catching up with what's going on with her.
Thoughts flow through my mind.
It goes just according to what she's been going through.
I really wish to be there for her when she's in trouble and share her happiness together.
But...
I can't..
I tak layak =(

I hate that i love you.
I really hate it ='(
It's my fault,
I know.
I really hate myself for loving you =(
I love you becos you are who you are,
I also hate you becos you are who you are =[
You have so many bad habbits that i can't even count..
Your new relationships are goin on and on,
I even lost count on how many you had..
Well maybe it's none of my business,
I really should forget about you =(

I'll try my best not to think about you.
I will move on..
Thank you for giving me everything and all the memories..
Thanks...
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I seriously wasn't in the mood today,
Especially during school.
And then sumthin happened between me and my friends.
After that my confidence just went low.
I dunno what to do now.
I guess i'm lost.
I'm trying to find the right way.
And i'll prove it to you all.
Thankss alottt for looking down on me.
Also,
My passion for ******* dropped alot too =[
I hope i can find the passion back.
I don't wanna lose it like how i lost my passion for dancing.
Sighz.

Anyways,
There's a few ppl in school today who's pissing me off.
Boy 1 who i hated since i was form 1 =.="
And Boy 2,
Who i found annoying recently,
Sakai dislike him too.
LOL.
And that group of friends =[

Zzzz Okayy i'll stop about the emoness.
Let's talk about sumthin happy =D
Soooo,
I got chosed to be Calon AJK again this year =]
But i'm not putting much hope on it due to what happened last year which is like,
Got threw down to hell from heaven.
So i really prepared to fail so even if i DID i won't be that sad and disappointed like last year =D
Well this year no one's here to stop me anymore so i guess it'll go more smoothly ?
But i think i'm gonna fail also cos at last it's gonna be the teachers who choose =.="
And i don't think Puan Norliza likes me so yeah most probably i'm gonna fail = =
But anyways,
Wish me luck =DD

Anyways,
I was put into the same group as Fung Soon.
Group 1.
So we were the first ones who followed Mark.
So we were following Mark all around on the first day.
And after that,
EVERYYONEE,
Went like,
"Ooohhh Spellman, you become Ketua Pengawas ah ??"

I was like,
"Holy shit NOOOO PLEASE DUN SPREAD IT"

And as expected,
It continued spreading and spreading and now,
Even Wisely is saying that =.="
I don't know why everyone is saying me when FUNG SOON is also following Mark with me,
Are they blind or wad =.="
Plus i don't like them spreading it becos i scared ppl might say,
"Aiyer that Spellman so cocky, thought he 100% get the pose."

Nooo T.T
I don't want thisss.
Anyways,
Chinese Singing Competition is coming soon,
IU Day is coming soon,
DANCING COMPETITION is coming soon.
Nooo =(
Sighz.
Hope everything went well lah..
Wish me luck everyone... =]

Tagged by Ah Fongggg =D

Name any of your 5 friends(or more) and follow what is written below.-
Name of friend- Picture (optional)-
Nicknames (if available)-
3 things you think he/ she likes-
2 things that you think he/she dislikes-
1 thing which is special about him/her-
1 thing that you think is interesting about him/her-
1 thing that you can comment about him/her
After that, tag 8 of your friends which can be either in the list or not.

~Kei Yan~

Nickname: Frog xD!!

3 things I think she likes: Wear skirts and pants that are damn damn damn short. Love getting scold by me xDD!!! Flirt with guys LOL NO LAH joking only =_= Pat about other ppl's business xD!!
2 things I think she dislikes: I nvr heard her say anything she dislike b4 leh =X

1 thing special bout her: Nice to everyone and not afraid to make friends ? =D

1 thing interesting bout her: You won't find another gurl who's willing to fuck ppl with you LOL xDD!!
1 thing I comment bout her: I love you, bestie!!! And wish you find someone you love soon =D






~Sze Hui~


Nickname: Ah Fong, Fish.


3 things I think she likes: Cute and pink stuffs ? (not sure =X) Chatting =D Write stuffs like those emo posts in her blog =_=
2 things I think she dislikes: Ppl treating her bad. Puan Tan LOL!!
1 thing special bout her: Damn frickin OhMyGawd SMART FREAK =.="
1 thing interesting bout her: Damn funny and always smile =D See her also my mood will good xD
1 thing I comment bout her: Give me 1/10 of your SMARTNESS i also enough edi =_=


~Jia Meng~


Nickname: Ah Meng xDD (New name from Sakai xD)


3 things I think he likes: Scolding vulgar. Flirting with girls. His drum =D
2 things I think he dislikes: Lan si ppl. Almost everything else LOL =X
1 thing special bout him: Non-stop vulgar and 100% got VULGAR in his every sentence xD
1 thing interesting bout him: Funny =D
1 thing I comment bout him: Say less vulgar please cos it's damn low xDDD!! =X




~May Yen~


Nickname: Dead Hamster LOL!!!!
3 thing I think she likes: Her rabbits =D Taking pictures =] Wear nice nice clothes =D
2 things I think she dislikes: Ppl treat her badly and only find her when they need her.
1 thing special bout her: Caring ? =]
1 thing interesting bout her: Funny =P
1 thing I comment bout her: Friends forevaaa !!! =D!



~Chee Kuan~


Nickname: Bubble Usagi, Your Best Friend LOL!!
3 thing I think she likes: Think stupid lame stuffs. Her online game =_= Gossipping xD
2 things I think she dislikes: Backstabbing friends. Annoying asses =X
1 thing special bout her: Always there when you need + Won't let you down =D
1 thing interesting bout her: Damn funny in a werid way xD
1 thing I comment bout her: We're buddiesss forever xDD





Tagging list: *you all tagged everyone i no need tag lor ?*
Thanks to some 2 fellas now i no1 to tag edi =.="
SO PLEASE JUST FRICKIN DO TO ALL THE PPL WHO SEE THIS.

Hmmm.

This few days.
I've been talking to everyone alot.
I mean,
Including talking to ppl that i'm not so close with.
And they said funny things to me.
LOL.
Like Soo Yok Man.
I saw him seeing a guy this few days after school until really late.
I passed by the school after tuition and it's already 5 by that time.
And i ALWAYS saw him meeting some guy wearing uniform.
So i asked about that guy and also if they were dating LOL.
So he started telling me bout this guy.
And i asked him if that guy was hot (I KNOW IT SOUNDS WEIRD =_+)
And he said yeah kinda,
So i asked if he was hotter than me LOLL.
And he said it's different cos,
That guy is HANDSOME and i am PRETTY.
Like wth =.="
Then he explained and meant pretty as in,
A really nice face,
Not gay-ish look or anythin = =
So yeahh it sound weird but i was owhkayy with it =__=
*don't shoot me saying that i look gay after this especially Mr Lum Jia Meng*

And then Shu Yee.
Well we went to Sing K during the holidays.
And usually when i Sing K,
I don't really sing guy songs cos singing gurl songs is more fun and it's not a competition,
We're just having fun so it's okayy if it sounds horrible.
LOL.
And i sang lots of Zhang Hui Mei's songs that day,
And she said i sang Ru Guo Ni Ye Ting Shuo really nice =.="
I didn't believe it and she kept pursuading me to sing it during the competition,
But i won't xD
So everytime she sees me now,
She'll say "SPELLMAN, YOU SING RU GUO NI YE TING SHUO AH ??"
Like REALLY LOUDLY so everyone can hear and made me feel damn malu =.="
But anyways,
I'm a Zhang Hui Mei expert and she plans to sing a Zhang Hui Mei song so she came to me the other day xD
She told me to teach her,
LOL.
I might not sound good in Zhang Hui Mei songs but i know the way to sing her songs greatly so maybe i can help her =D

And then there was Chee Kuan.
After recess,
I saw her gossipping with Koen about someone xD
So i joined to know more about the story xD!!
And then i pretend to be damn 8 and then told Kah Yan & WaiTing's gang but i didn't lah.
Then she thought i really told them everything =.="
But i don't even know the story so basicly i can't tell anythin.
And she frickin ACCUSED me!
So i was angry and sad =[!!
And i told her to tell me the whole story at last so yayy xDD!!

I know i'm damn busybody,
LoL.

Not very happy with Kei Yan this week =[
Cos she don't choi me..
Even Ah Fong also choi me but she didn't T.T
Haiz...
Lost another friend...
=XXX xD

Deaddd.

Mind the title,
I'm just saying that it's been a dead blog for almost a week >"<
Anyways,
This week was owhkayy,
Not much to update.
Oh yeah,
The registration for the Chinese Singing Competition has started and also ended as well = =
So this week is like,
SINGING TREND.
Everyone's holding the form here and there and you can hear ppl singing everywhere.
LIKE SAKAI.
He joined as well =D
Well we have to give all the participants a bow for having the courage to join.
Being able to stand on the stage already deserve a big clap,
So we shouldn't disencourage others,
Instead we should give them supports =D
I dare not to say i can go into the finals easily this year.
But i have confident =]
To those ppl who looked down on me,
Thank you for dissing me all the time,
And i'm gonna work harder just to show all of you.
If i go into the finals,
I really wanna see what's the reaction of you all =]
I don't wanna state the list of the names but i guess i will after some time.
To THANK you all for looking down on me.
Without you people,
I won't improve and work hard. =]
*obviously saying it with anger*

Anyways,
People were emo yesterday.
Sakai, (cos he was sick) Wai Kwong, Hoong Chee & Kok Keong.
They stayed in class and didn't went for Bio class yesterday.
Only Sakai did.
Anyways,
I stayed back after school for the meeting for the Sivik Project.
I was chose to be the Naib Pengerusi so yeah.
And Jia Meng didn't fucking turn up cos he was BUSY FLIRTING at the bus stop with SOMEONE.
Ughh.
So anyways,
We decided to go FRIM,
Some place at Kepong.
The activities will be Jungle Trekking & Canopy Walk. (Dunno what the hell is that)
And each person have to pay 10 bucks i guess.
And the school will sponsor the bus I GUESS.
And i'm NOT the one who're suppose to do the paper work so YAYY XD!!
Naib Pengerusi is THE BEST.
I was Naib Pengerusi for Bendahara during form 2 and i don't recall doing anything =X
Well i don't know lah,
Cos no one ordered me to do anythin.
But i remember i volunteered to write the report so yeaahhh xD

Anyways,
July is gonna be a busyyyy weeekk.
Every Saturday have to go to school.
1st Saturday of July,
Singing Competition Preliminary Round.
2nd Saturday Of July,
I.U Day,
3rd Saturday of July,
Singing Competition Finals & Latin Dance Competition =(,
4th Saturday Of July,
Photography Competition =.="
And 1ST SATURDAY OF JULY,
SIVIK PROJECT TRIP =.="
Seriously need a break -.-

Oh my god,
I nearly forgot!
Next friday is report card day.
I'm scared =[
I'm not calling my mom to come cos i failed 3 subjects =[
But i'm afraid my class teacher would call my mom and ask !!
So i really have no idea what to do now T.T
And i don't know what excuse should i give to Mommy if i told her Friday i'm not goin to school.
Well maybe i can say it's one of the teacher's retirement ceremony ?
LOL,
Whatever.
But the best is someone's mom can help me take the report card T.T !!

Arghh,
I'm lost noww.
Will update soon if something happened,
Sighz =[

Grrrrr.

Arghh.
I want a Wii.
T.T
I have EVERY DAMN THING in my house except for a WII.
I have a Laptop, PS2, PS3, PSP, MP3, COOL HANDPHONE BUT A WII T.T
Okayy,
Next target of my life.
WIIIIIIIIIIIIII !!!!!!!!!

I've been thinking of getting it but i kinda changed my mind but after seeing BENN bought it.
I want it badly T.T

Weekend =D

Finally the first week of school after mid-term holidays are over.
Thank godd.
I'm seriously lacking of sleep.
And the week of schooling after hols is suffering =_=
Don't feel like studying at all..

Anyways,
It's Fathers Day tomorrow !!
And we'll be having dinner at Jogoya =D
I don't wanna brag too much about it later you all say i show off = =
Anyways,
I haven't been blogging for the past few days because there's nothing much to blog.
LoL.

My left eye got red again,
I'm scared noww =(
I hope i won't go blind and it's gonna be okayy..
I hate having long eyelashes =(
Cos my eyes get sensitive easily.
So yeah.. =[

Anyways,
Most prolly i'll be taking some pictures for tomorrow night =D
But can't update right after that cos it'll be already late at night and i have school the next day,
So maybe i'll update on the next day or maybe i won't update due to lazyness = =
Anyways,
I'm just glad that i finally get 2 days break from school after 5 days of torturing =.="
Hope time will flow slowly for now....

Btw,
I MIGHT be goin for the Famine 30 Camp..
MIGHT... xP!!!

*blank*

Hey everyone.
School was okayy for the past few days.
Hmm,
I'll talk bout todayy =]

Woke up realising my eye is goddamn red and BENGKAK.
Every1 thought i cried and i kinda PRETEND in front of Amelia and she believed it.
LOL.
My eye was red cos i rubbed my eye like godknowshow the night before.
Seriously it was FRICKIN red and the jelly thing is every obvious =.="
I feel that i'm gonna be blind soon so suddenly i said,
"gosh, i HAVEEE to sleep now."
So yeah,
But at least it was better on the next morning = =

Anyways,
This past 2 days,
Sakai's reallyyy emo.
Dunno why.
Everyone asked him but he didn't answer.
Even when it's Miss Sim's class also he remained silent.
Hmm i think it has sumthin to do with *thepersonhelikes*.
I don't like her.
Personally,
I think she's frickin cheap.
It seems like she just accept any guys that's hitting on her.
And i heard,
She's dating that form 5 guy.
And if she IS,
She should have just rejected Sakai,
Not toy with his feelings,
Ughhh.

Anyways,
We got almost all of our exam papers.
And i failed 3 FUCKING SUBJECTS.
Surprisingly,
I failed MORAL.
UGHHHH.
So much for cheatinggg =.="

Oh and Puan Zuraini the fucking bitchh.
Actually i got 44 marks for my modern maths.
And she minused 15 MARKS just becos i was NOISY in the class.
Bloody bitch.
If she really DID minused my marks,
I'm gonna call my mom to school and i'm gonna do sumthin to herr.
Pfft.
Dunno which blind desperate guy who wanted to fuck someone so badly go marry her.

Anyways,
I was reallyyyyyy excited for the Photography Competition for tomorrow.
But sadly,
Things happen =(
Well todayy,
When we were having chinese class halfway,
Vivian & Sze Hui came in our class and Vivian told me that the trip tomorrow is cancelled.
I was shocked,
And then she said the meeting is still on,
So yeah,
I was wondering what reallyyy happened.
So right after the bell rang,
We went to the meeting.
And when we reached the computer lab,
I saw Kei Yan at the door sobbing.
So i already know what happened.
And as expected,
The Jabatan doesn't allow us to have club activities on school days.
So we terpaksa to postponed.
And Kei Yan was so sad and pissed i think.
She asked who still want to go if it's postponed.
And surprisingly,
NO ONE RAISE THEIR HAND.
I wanted to raise my hand but i was kind of blur so i didn't.
Then she kinda burst in tears and asked,
"Who wanna go wan ?!?!?!"

So i quickly said,
"Bring here lah (the paper and the pen)."
So then only the ppl started writing back their names =.="
Anyways,
I kinda pitty Kei Yan.
She really planned very hard for this event.
I understand why she cried.
Dear Kei Yan,
Don't be sad okieee ?
It's not cancelled also,
Postponed only mahh,
Means it's still on and your hardwork is not wasted =]

Anyways,
I went for Vocal Class todayy.
The teacher gave me amazing comments.
And i kinda got confused.
Well not to say confused but lost.
I'm lost.
She told me to join competitions like One In A Million = =
But still i don't have that confidence lah.
Well maybe i'm just not used to it.
Cos usually i'm always looked down by others.
And she is the first person who saw my talent...
So i'm really happy and i really hope i can find my way.
Cos i'm really lost noww.
But i'll find my way.. =]

Anyways,
I'm goin Carrefour to Sing K with Li Kuen tomorrow,
Cos the chinese singing competition is coming,
And i have high hopes for it.
I'm gonna fight !!
Main Priority,
BEAT LIOW PEY SHAN and RECEIVE MORE INVITES TO PERFORM DURING SCHOOL EVENTS.
Until this year,
I was still invited to perform for Puan Chen's Retirement.
But surprisingly,
After that,
NO MOREE.
They rather pick Liow Pey Shan & Erica (not so good =X)
So i'm gonna prove myself this time >=(
To ALL of youu who frickin look down on me.
I want you all to kneel and beg me and say that you're fucking wrong =.="

Anyways,
Yesterday's tuition was hilariiouss =D
Damn funny xD
Me, Carolyn & Weng Lord went to May Yen's house to tuition.
At first only me Carol & May Yen were talking.
Weng Lord kept remaining silent.
And then he started talking and the topic suddenly cosists of cum and lots more of his favourite words =.="
And Carolyn wanted to tell teacher about what happened the day b4.
It was damn funny.

Carolyn : Teacher!! You know ah, yesterday rite ? I took my dog for a walk mah, then halfway walking, i saw 3 stray dogs there then i scared they come and bite him mah, so i quickly bring my dog back home. And then ah..

May Yen : AIYA, CAN YOU JUST SKIP TO THE POINT AND SAY THAT THEY HAVE SEX IN FRONT OF YOUR HOUSE ?

Spellman : LOLL!!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!! OMG!!!

Teacher : *looking at Carolyn weirdly cos Carolyn was acting like those pasar aunty*

Carolyn : Yah lah !! They have sex in front of my gate you know !! That 2 dogs having sex!!

Spellman : I thought got 3 dogs ? OmG GANGBANG AH ? LOL!!!

Carolyn : Nono, 2 dogs having sex...

May Yen : And then the other one watching.

Spellman : LOLL!!!

LOL,
And then suddenly Carolyn got serious and started doing her work (finally)
And then me and May Yen & Weng Lord was imitating her,
LOL.

May Yen : *trys to act like Carolyn* 2 + 3 equal to how much ah ?

Spellman : .....

May Yen : 5 !! (asking and answering herself like a crazy fella yepp that's Carolynn xDD)

Spellman & Weng Lord : LOLL.

And then after remaining silent for some time she finally said sumthin and we LAUGHEDD.
But it was not funny at all. =_=

Anyways,
I guess i'll stop here.
Wish me luck on the I.U performance and also the competition kayy... =D

Tagged By Ah Fong =D

First Name: Choy
Nickname: Spell ? Spellman ? Wang Zi xDD JK LOL
Name you wish you had: Hmm, Spellman =D
What do people normally mistake your name as: SpellMAN (pronounced the MAN to sumthin like MEANT without the T)
Birthday: 23rd April 1992
Birthplace: Malaysia xD
Time of Birth: LoL, seriously i nvr ask b4, well meybe i did but i'm sure i 4got =.="
Single or taken: Single =]
Zodiac sign : Taurus

-Your Appearance-

How tall are you : 178cm I THINK.
Wish you were taller: No =( I mean, yeah lah but only if i were slimmer..
Eye color: Dark Brownn
Eye color you want: Hmm never really thought of it, anythin goes.
Natural Hair color: Black - Dark Brown (lots of ppl accused me for dying my hair brown last year but seriously i didn't cos my hair is dark brown when i didn't put gel. So yeah when i put gel it'll go wet so eventually it became black =.=" So when i didn't do anythin to it it'll be a little brown-ish)
Current Hair color: Same lah aiyoh =.="
Short or long hair : Short duhh
Ever dyed your hair a bizarre color : Nooooo and don't think i will.
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair: NOOOOO. Ehh wait, do treatment consider ? LOL, that's the most so-called dramatic one for me =_=
Glasses or contacts: Err i just started to wear contacts.
Do you wear make-up: Noooooo i don't see a reason for me to put on make up =.="
Ever had hair extensions: NO
Paint your nails: NO DUHH

-In the opposite gender-

What color eyes: Anythin goess.
What color hair: As long as it's not LALA then it's okayyy = =
Shy or Outgoing: Of course outgoing but at times she have to be shy cos to me, shy is really charming =X
Looks or personality: Personality have to be good but she MUSTT have looks =]
Sexy or Cute: I want my other half to be sexy of course, i don't like ppl acting cute unless she's natural cute.
Serious or Fun: Funn duhh =D
Older or Younger than you: Hmmm... Same age better xD
A turn on: Obviously everything that's good ?
A turn off : Everything that's bad =.="

-This or that-

Flowers or Chocolates : OmG Chocolate DUHH!!!
Rap or Rock: I don't like those frickin heavy metal rock but soft rock i likee =D
Relationship or One night stand: I want long-lasting relationships okayy..
School or Work: How am i suppose to choose =.="
Love or Money: Money comes first, no money then love is hard to work out.
Movies or Music: Musicc =]
Country or City: City
Sunny or Rainy days : Raiinyyy dayss... Suits my emo mood =]
Friends or Family : Family comes wayyy wayyy first.

-Have you ever-

Lied : I'm sure every1 does ?
Stole something: Err, i guess so but i forgot what did i stole =.="
Smoked: NO i FRICKING HATE ppl who smoke..
Hurt someone close to you: Yayaya..
Broke someone's heart: Yup...
Had your heart broken: Of course =.="
Wondered what was wrong with you: Yeahh =(
Wish you were a prince/princess: I'm sure everyone knows da answer to this xD
Liked someone who was taken: Hmm, i don't think so, i forgot lah.
Shaved your head: No WAYYY LOL.
Been in love: Yepp... =]
Used chopsticks: Like duhhhh.
Sang in the mirror to yourself: OFTENN XD

-Favorites-

Flower: Rose =]
Candy: Chocolate consider ?
Song: Emo songs =[
Scent: Hmmm i dunno..
Color: Black...
Movie: Comedy, Romance & Drama =D
Singer: Zhang Hui Mei !! =D
Word: Oh My God!!
Junk food: All Kindss xD
Website: Friendster, Blogg =D
Location: Any fun place where i can spend time with the ppl around me =]
Animal: Hamsters, dogs, bunnies and kittiess !! =D

-Shotgun-

Ever cried over someone: Hmm dunno...
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: Be smarter =[
Do you think you're attractive - Yes but only average..
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose - I don't see any fairytale that suits me =_=
Do you play any sports - Dance LOL XD!!

-Random Facts-

1. I sleep really early... Like REALL EARLY.
2. I love singing and i'm singing all the time when you see me =D
3. I caree what ppl think about me..
4. I really love to chat.
5. Making friends is fun =D
6. Don't ignore me when you're not in the mood and find me when you're in the mood, I'm not a frickin toy for god's sake.
7. Just because i smile and be nice in front of you, DOESN'T MEAN I LIKE YOUU.
8. I love seeing couples together =D But only those who're matching, I'll keep quiet when i saw those who're not match =/
9. Usually, my friendship with my friends will be weaker when they have a bf/gf.
10. I get jealous easily and want attention badly >"<..

I tag,
Jia Meng,
Carolyn,
Yen Yi !!

An Expected Confront.

He confronted me the other day.
I expected it.
He told me his problems,
And i can't do anything.
All i can do is to give him the supports he need.

And then there was her.
She wasn't in a good mood.
I never mention this whole thing in front of her cos i felt that,
I'm not in the right position to tell her.
Apparently,
It's their issue.
I seriously don't have the right to butt into it.

And well,
I knew it was gonna happen.
That was what i was trying to say from the beginning to him.
But well,
I guess he should experience it himself to understand.

And now,
He sensed it.
She sensed it too.
They both know that it's not going to be the same anymore.
Both of them are in pain.
And something's gonna happen i guess..

But well,
No matter what.
I'm still here whenever the both of you need me =]
And i really hope things really DO work out.
Cos i don't wanna lose 2 best friends... =[

That's what happens when 2 of your best friends date.
It certainly feels weird and awkward.
Like usually,
I'm the one they turn to or whatever.
But suddenly,
There's a person there who knows more than i do and the distance between us is really far apart..
Oh well,
I just hope everything's gonna be okayy...
=]

School Reopens ? =]...

Hey everyone.
We're back to school again.
Haha,
I spend the last 2 weeks lamely.
And obviously i don't wanna go back to school =(

ANYWAYSS,
School was as usual today.
I actually wanted to give up.
So i talked to Trisha.
And she said she have to discuss with Suet Ling and i said if i really have to then it's okayy i'll still sing.
So yeah Trisha came back and told me Suet Ling say it's a MUST.
And that the I.U will also be postponed because it's too rush and lack of preparations.
So yeahh,
More time to deal with the song =]
But also,
Most probably the I.U is gonna be 1 week after the chinese singing competition which is not good.
And then 1 week right after that is the finals of the singing competition AND ALSO,
The frickin Latin Dance Competition which clashes on the same day.
I've thought of giving up the Latin Dance competition as well but that way,
I'm really irresponsible cos i promised Rachel to partner her and i can't just throw her away like that.
Soo yeahh,
Pitty mee =(
But well,
It's also good lah.
Cos i'm trying to search for the lost of my passion towards dancing.
Maybe it's because i lost my confidence.
So i don't like it anymore.. =(
But for now my passion for singing is really hugeee.
Cos it's my thing.
This is kinda the only thing that i can surpassed everyone.
And with all the compliments and support,
I might just find my confidence in singing,
Who knows ? =]
Anyways,
Hope the time doesn't clashes with all my other activities lah.
And hope everything goes well.
=]

Ooohh Myyy Goshhh !!

Hello everyone.

Everything was normal yesterday until i saw sumthin at Mid Valley..

So as usual,

I went to Speedy (not sure if the name of the shop is correct) to look for YoGa, Lin You Jia's disc,

Anyways,

I went there and i looked for it.

Suddenly i saw this extrememly nice cover with a cute guy sitting on a chair...

OMG!! YOGAA !!!!

So of course,

I bought it immediately.

But i don't have money becos i went karaoke a day b4 dat =.="

So i asked from Daddy =X

I told him he didn't give me money that day so he have to give now =X

And yay,

He gave 50 bucks and i bought itt xDD!!

Anywaysss,

I was sooo fascinated and excited of course xP

But i didn't have a chance to listen to it until today.

I'm listening to it now =PP!!!

=D

Anyways,

I went to Vocal Class right after Mid Valley.

I was damn happy cos i got praised by the teacher =/

Cos this is my 3rd time attending her class which means it's the 3rd class.

But she said i'm progressing like it's the 10th class,

LOL.

And she said she wanna raise my fees cos i'm progressing very fast,

LOL.

Andd,

I dunno is she trying to make me happy or what.

But she said,

That day the other teacher heard me sing and she was shocked by my performance o.O

I was like,

"Got so kua cheong or not?"

She said i have very good energy,

LOL.

And she said i pick up very fast until she have to give harder exercise = =

Sorry but i'm not bragging bout myself,

I'm just saying what she told me.

And i know some of you sure come and say,

"Aiya, you pay her wad, of course she praise you lahh."

If you wanna think like this then keep it to yourself,

You don't have to tell me or say it out in public.

You don't like then you can just fucking leave and ignore my blog.

Pffttt.

Thank youu so much for looking down on me when i went for the audition last time.

Ugghhh.

One day I'll show you all.

I'm gonna make ALL of you regret what you all said.

So yeah,

Just watch me >=]

[Oh fuck, i haven't even memorise ONE LINE of the song for I.U Day!!! Someone help me plss?]

What a day =/

Hello everyone.
I just came back from Times Square with friends.
It was fun lah..
But..
When i came back home,
I got emo again.
Family problemss.
It kept happening.
I wonder when will it just stop.
Cos it certainly doesn't feel good..
I really need someone to talk to =(
But my phone no credit.
Plus i don't have time to go online.
After this post i have to go off immediately cos i have dinner.
Sighz....
Erhm,
I just hope i have someone to talk to.
Cos my mood is unstable now.
I tried to relax myself by playing PSP just now.
But it doesn't help.
=(

I just read Tee Yen's post.
She mentioned sumthin..
"When a person is in his hardest & sad-est time, tears won't drop out from your eyes."
I guess it IS true.
I want to cry.
I think it'll make me feel better.
But i can't...
I guess..
I just don't know what to do.
I'm tired of this..
I'm tired of facing the same problem over and over again.
I want it to be over..
Please.. =(

*Time is like a marry-go-round,
And the cup of milk on my desk is already cold.
The things that happened in the past,
Those are just memories.
The sweetest promises are just temporary.
That is because we're still young.
And that..
Is already a start of a mistake...*

New Maid =]

Hey everyone.
So yeah,
My new maid came today.
Her name is Surini but she call us to call her Rin.
But mom insist to call her Su =.="
So anyways,
When i was told that our maid is gonna arrive today.
I wasn't that happy.
Cos...
I don't really like people to serve as a slave.
It's kind of mean.
Anyways,
She reached just now,
And she had a really kind face.
Haha.
Anyways,
The Agency Guy told us to check her bag.
Me & Mommy don't think there's a need for it.
But the frickin Agency Guy insisted.
It just feels so wrong =(
Anyways,
She's a really nice gurl =D
She's 27 this year.
I can see that she's a really polite gurl =]
So anyways,
She's downstairs now,
I think already starting to do her job.
So let's hope everything goes smoothly ? =)...

Anyways,
I'm goin Sing K tomorrow and i'm reallyyy excited !!! =D
Cos it's been like years since i've Sing K with Shu Yee,
Sooo i'm prettyy excited...
Oh,
And i tried to wear my contact lense again,
IT WAS SO MUCH BETTERRR !!!
But still same problem lah,
Left eye doesn't feel comfortable..
But i took only 3 minutes or less to wear it so it's a big improvement i guess =D
So i'll try to wear it to Times Square tomorrow.. xD
I'm bringing the eye drops, the solution and also the case along in case i can't stand it anymore =__=
LOL.
Okieee so wish me luck in goin to Sing K tomorrow =D
I'm gonna try the performance song and sing it to WaiTing they all to see if it's okayy..
Oh and also choose the song for my Chinese Singing Competition =D
Byeeee all =]

Noooo =( But Weeeee =D

Hello everyone,
I'm gonna update bout the few days that passed =]
Anyways,
2 days ago was the first day i wore my Contact Lense.
And when i wore it,
I took it off after 3 MINUTES.
I dunno why i can't take it and it felt so uncomfortable.
And also my eyesight got abit blurr =(!!
So i got scared and i took it off.
I know it's dumb,
LOL.
So anyways,
I went Sunway on that afternoon.
Blah blah.
Nothing special.
So me & my parents wanted to go back.
Ok so half way goin back to the car park.
I saw someone that i haven't seen in ages.
I saw her and thoughts ran through my head LOL,

1st reaction = Why this gurl so familiar wan ah ??

2nd reaction = Isn't that Joleen ?!?!?!

3rd reaction = *smile and waved at her*

And guess what was HER REACTION ?

1st reaction = Made a weird face

2nd reaction = Got scared and said "Spellman!!" *AS IF SHE SAW A GHOST, SERIOUSLY*

So of course i went away,
Dunno why see me like saw ghost lidat =.="
Pffft.

Anyways,
First day with contact lense was BAAAD T.T

Okayy,
So the 2nd day.
I plan to wear it to Dance Class.
So i went to bath at 10.15.
I finished bathing at 10.30.
AND I FINISHED WEARING THE CONTACT LENSE AT 11.10.
SO ANYWAYS,
I went for Dance Class after that.
Oh and i was kinda sick on that day,
Plus the contact lense is annoying my eye.
SO i don't have the mood for dancing.
And,
When i danced halfway,
I wanted to go out of the class to take it off,
But can't.
So i ran out AFTER i finished the dance.
And i went to took it off.
I know i'm such a loser =_=
Continuosly FAILED TWICE.
So today,
I nvr wear at all =_=

So anyways,
I fell sick =(
Yesterday and today...
I was suppose to go Sing K with Vivian & Kei Yan today,
But i'm sick so can't lor...
Anywayss,
I'm suppose to go for Dance Practice tomorrow.
But i'm not sure if i can cos i'm still sick =(
What if i faint halfway... = =
Anyways,
I'm goin Sing K with WaiTing & Shu Yee this wednesday !!
Like FINALLY.
It's been years since i went to Sing K with Shu Yee.
So I'm really excited =D
Okayy,
So if i have the chance,
I'll record againn and share it xDD!!
SOO WISH ME LUCKK LOLL.
Buh Byezz =D