Birthday =D

Hello everyone.
LoL.
I'm not gonna update the full story about my birthday cos it's very long.
Anyway all I can say is I enjoyed it =]
Thanks for the celebration and surprise = ="
Even though I already expected it.
LOL.

And I had dinner at Yaki-Yaki =D
Jogoya plan was cancelled,
But it's ok.
LoL.
Food in Yaki-Yaki was...
So-so =X
Service is not really good.
Food varieties are not that much.
Compared to Jogoya which is like 3 or 4 times of their choices of food =.="
But it's still a great experience cos u get to bbq the food by yourself xD

Anyways,
I wanna say thank you to EVERYONE who celebrated with me and thanks for the surprise =D
I really appreciate everything =]
Thanks for everyone who wished me too =D
And also thanks for the presents xD
Even though there weren't more than last year =X
But still i love it =D
Especially the present from my darling classmates.
It's so sweet and thoughtful of them xD
LOL.
Just ask me if you wanna know what is that =X
Haha.

It doesn't matter if you prepared present or not,
A normal wishing is more than enough for me,
Thanks for wishing me everyone =D

Also,
Happy Birthday to SumYee & SzuWah which was borned on the same day xD
LoL.

Before I end this post,
I would like to promote the TalentCompetition =X

" TALENT COMPETITION "
13-June-2009

Have a talent for singing ? Dancing ? Or even music instruments ?
Join the Talent Competition now and show your talents =D
You can join individually or form groups.
The choice of songs can be in ANY language,
English, Chinese, Malay or even Japanese!!
Just register and get on the stage to show us your thing =]

Information:
1. Every contestants are required to pay RM4 per head.
2. Piano will be provided for contestants that are needing it. Other intruments must be prepared by yourselves.
3. Audience seats are separated to Normal (RM3) & VIP (RM5). The VIP seats will be in front and goodies bag will be given.
4. For more information, just look for Spellman Choy (5F) or Cheah Kha Mun (4H). You can get the registration forms and entry tickets from them too.

So what are you waiting for ? The door is opened for you, all you have to do is just go in. =D

=]

Hehe.
Helloo everyone.
This few days was really tiring and I actually memorized Sejarah & Moral =X
And during Sejarah paper,
I was doing the essay questions first.
I saw the Sistem Republik Rom and my mind was TOTALLY BLANK.
Like WTF,
I MEMORISED A DAY B4 AND I MEMORISED A FEW MORE TIMES JUST TO MAKE SURE I REMEMBERED IT CLEARLY.
But I TOTALLY forgot T.T
So I was panic-ing and making noises.
Then FungSoon turned back and looked at me.
And I told him,
"I TOTALLY forgot about the Sistem Republik T.T"

FungSoon only said one word,
"Konsul."

And all of a sudden,
THE WHOLE SISTEM REPUBLIK ESSAY POPPED OUT IN MY MIND AGAIN LOL AND I WROTE IT ALL OUT AGAIN WOOO XD!!!
But anyways I still don't think I can pass,
Even though I memorised quite alot =[
While FungSoon's BUSY doing the fricking paper and EVERY page is FULL with writings =.="

Anyways,
It's my birthday tomorrow and I'm kinda excited.
But at the same time I'm being bothered by few things that I'm not really happy about =[
I'm having Bio & Physics tomorrow and I hadn't really done any revision so if I keep this up, I'll fail for sure tomorrow.
The meeting is tomorrow and I'm really nervous about it =[ I gotta practice a few more times at home =X
I don't mind if I don't get to celebrate my birthday with any friends, since I rarely celebrate with my friends. But at least do it well if you said you want to, don't make everything hanging like that.. If not, might as well just cancel the whole damned thing..

Aiks.
For now,
Just pray hard for me and hope that I can pass Bio & Physics =X
I'm really nervous and scared about it T.T
I should go study now,
I don't wanna fail =X
LoL.
Bye guys x)
Happy Burfday Spell~

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Hey everyone..
This week has been kinda boring and frustrating.
Cos I have to skip so many class just for ChoralSpeaking. =(
Especially Chemistry classes,
Now everyone has tips except for me.
Same goes to Physics...

Anyways,
We had our ChineseSociety meeting today which is about the SingingCompetition.
Everything's not going well =[
I didn't do everything nicely..
I didn't ask the ppl 1 by 1 if they want to be the AJKs for the event..
That's why some of them didn't even know about it and didn't attend the meeting...
Everything's in a mess now and I'm so at fault =[
I hope I can fulfill the few things I want in the next meeting.
Cos I'm receiving complaints and I really have to do something about it..
Everything's such a mess and that's why everyone don't expect anything good from it...
But I promise,
I will turn everything into something better and I really have to voice out on the next meeting.
I lost my confidence and everything =.="
I must get back the confidence when I was briefing and controlling things in InteractClub !!!
I thought about lots of stuffs and decided alot after WeiInn and SiewLi says they'll support me and I promise you all,
I'm gonna do better =D
So just watch out everyone !!!

Anyways it's HariAnugerahCemerlang tomorrow.
I'm quite excited =D
Not becos of the performance,
But becos I'm gonna meet back some of the form 5s last year =D
Veryyy excited to see them x)

It's exam next week so I won't update for quite some time I guess..
And the worst thing is..
My birthday is on a stupid exam day T.T
I guess I'm not celebrating again this year.
Just like every other year = ="
LoL.

Anyways I guess I'll stop here.
Good luck for exam everyone,
Study hard !!! xD

=D

Hello everyone,
I'm back =D

So today I sticked the TalentCompetition flyers all over the school.
But sadly,
I have to tear it off tomorrow =(
Because our date is changing..
Cos 30th of May is a stupid day with 2 camps going on and lots of ppl won't be around so basicly no1 will attend =.="
So I have to frickin change it to the new date which is 13th of June..
It's quite near with the ChineseSociety SingingCompetition =(
Haiz >< watch ="X">ALL down as soon as I reached school =X
I'm gonna change the date and the person you refer to xD
LOL.

Anyways,
I was suppose to post the conversation between me and KeiYan on msn just now but the noob comp I'm using currently doesn't save history and I forgot about that so yeah I can't post it here =X
(KeiYan you can post for me if you free xD You better not change the contents =.=")

Anyways,
This is just a short update cos I don't have anything to update =X
So yeahh,
I'll stop here and I'll update some other time =]
Take care guys =D

*Your sweet smile really lightened up my day =]
How I wish you would smile to me everyday..
How can you do this to me. ?
This moment you make me feel as if I don't exist.
Next moment, you make me feel so special and showed me your cute actions and greet =D
I don't wanna fall deeper into this as I know it'll just end up as nothing..
A mere crush is more than enough for me...
Because seeing you smile is greater than anything =]

=(

I feel like a failure.
I see so many ppl who's so successful and achieved so many stuffs even at my age.
Then I asked myself,
What have I ever achieved so far in my life ?
The answer is,
Nothing.

I'm really confused now.
I don't even feel like being a singer anymore.
Something is wrong with me.
No, not something,
EVERYTHING.

Also,
I've wanted to blog bout this long ago.
But i didn't have the courage to..
And now..
I finally decided to..

Some of you might not know,
But I stopped Latin Dance Classes on December last year.
After 2 years of learning...
I finally decided to stop.
It's because I don't feel happy dancing anymore.
I HATE dancing now...
Usually,
I'm very excited for Sundays because I could finally attend dance classes.
It's the only place that I could escape from the reality and showed a side of me that other ppl don't know.
I really love dancing alot last time..
Really =]
But not long ago..
That passion for dancing has disappeared..
And dancing is not what I enjoy alot anymore.
The place where I learn dancing from,
I don't like it.
Last time it used to be a place for us to learn and have fun there.
But now,
Everyone there is seeking attention.
And I don't like it.
I wished that everyone would just dance peacefully with a pure heart.
But it became so dark,
EVERYONE was fighting for attention...
That's when I start to HATE dancing...
I really hate it..

Maybe someday that passion will come back..
A part of me hoped that the passion will return...
Well at least I'm happy now.
I'm happier after I stopped dancing..
So yeah,
Everything is fine as long as I'm happy... =]

Anyways,
Enough for the fricking emo stuffs.
I'm gonna tell something big that happened to me this few weeks that I kept forgetting to announce.

On last Friday (3/4/09),
My new maid who just worked for 2 weeks ranaway.
The reason ?
We don't know.
But one day b4 that,
Which is Thursday.
My mom was pissed and fed up with her cos she haven't been doing her job well,
So my mom called the Agency Guy and he came to talk to her.
And next day,
She's gone.
Don't you think it's the Agency's scheme ? =.="
Whatever, we don't have prove.

Anyways,
Nothing was lost,
Everything was fine.
Then my mom hired a substitute maid to come and clean our house on every Monday, Wednesday & Friday.
Then yesterday night,
My brother was looking for my PSP and he can't seem to find it.
And he continued searching for it this morning.
And we can't find it.
So our whole fanily gathered and discussed.
My mom placed the PSP in the box and put it somewhere.
No one else touched it after that.
And this morning,
It's gone.
And also,
My cousin's Nokia phone was ALSO LOST.
Damnit =.="

It's very obvious that she's the one who stole it cos no one else touched it after that.
Don't come and tell me to search properly cos we fucking searched the whole house.
Anyways,
She's coming again this coming Monday and we're still discussing on how to make it back to her.
What I want to do is,
Ask her to give the PSP back and if she doesn't admit,
We'll just report to the police.
For sure she will panic because she doesn't have permit coming here,
Means they'll be in trouble if the polices catch them.
I don't care what she do,
But she HAVE to vomit he PSP back.
I'm serious and I will make sure that fat bitch return my precious PSP.
>=(

Also,
I'm not gonna keep quiet anymore.
I'm gonna stand out and voice out during the next meeting.
If they hate me then let them hate,
Cos the REAL leader and person in charge is PeiLing,
NOT them.
Boooo

Anyways I think I'm out of things to update =X
So I guess I'll stop here..
I'll update again some other time...
Bye guys,
Take care =]

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Hello everyone.
This few days have been really hectic.
So many homeworks that I realised it's incomplete T.T
Almost ALL of my BM works aren't complete..
And also,
I was chose by MissLiew to join in the choral speaking group T_T
Actually I didn't really want it but i can't back out or anything becos it's irresponsible.
And we're not the only ones who doesn't want it.
The teachers too.
They were told to do it all of a sudden and they didn't have a choice to say no.
So we should just at least give them our supports and cooperations to help them out.
Plus,
This might be a great experience I think =]

Anyways,
I had the ChineseSociety meeting today.
I've had few things which I wanted to voice out but I didn't,
Because with only my voice,
I can't be able to change anything.
Anyways today,
WongYeeLing and her gang wasn't happy with the new concept of the singing competition.
I hope they will discuss it with them and work things out.
Cos to be honest,
I'm not that happy with the new concept either.
But what can I do ?
During the previous meetings,
It's 3 v 2.
My idea was all rejected and I didn't have the power to reject their idea =.="

此外， 由于我不是做决定的人，所以有许多事情我都没办法办到。也帮不了。如果我是做决定的人，
1）我会跟所有华文学会筹委商量歌唱比赛最新的概念，问他们 o 不 ok 。
2）我会换很多歌唱比赛现任的筹委，我觉得应该给 form 4 的人机会。
3）同意身为一个参赛者同时也可以兼任主持人。
4）不会搞那么多花样，简简单单就好了。
5）我会还 Leon 一个公道，我觉得每一个人都需要机会。每个人必须有同样的待遇。
6）除了给自己班的人，我会尽量给别班的人参与。要不然就变成家族生意了。

其实有许多事都轮不到我来决定，我想抗议都不能。。所以就唯有照做了。
我跟佩玲两个人根本就改变不到什么。。。
而且，今天开会让我最不爽的就是那些从开始就给我在那边摆臭脸全程又没说过话的人。
有什么不爽就来跟我说，我也不是很爽你而已。
摆那张臭脸就很厉害咩？你少跟本少爷来这一套，我可是比你在这方面厉害很多。
我就看你可以跟本少爷摆臭脸摆到几时，我奉陪到底！！！

Sorry guys.
Just something that made me unsatisfied,
Just ignore it =X

Anyways I missed the photography meeting today.
I was only dare for 10 minutes i think.
I wanted to stay a little longer cos i wanna know more about DSLR =X
But nvm,
There are still next time xD
LOL.

Anyways tomorrow is school day + exam day =(
I really hate it alot T.T
Hope I can score well tomorrow...
Which i most probably can't... ><

Anyways I'll stop here since there's nothing for me to udpate.. ><
Bye guyss...
Take care =]

Sometimes I wish you could just take a look at me. I'm just right in front of you but I always seem invisible to you.. It hurts

亲爱的朋友们~

我知道这件事情不关我的事，
也轮不到我这个三八佬来插嘴。
可是我只想告诉你们，
有时你们也要站在别人的立场想下，
不要从表面看到的而判断。
她们离队是因为真的有重要的事情要办。
全校所有班级照和 club 的照片都只有她们几个来处理。
由她们去收钱，去问校里每个老师要不要买照片。
收到的钱不够或者遗漏了什么东西又要再去找过那些人。
而且一切原本应该在上个星期五就完成的，
可是几乎全部都在拖延她们搞到迟迟都未能搞定一切。
她们也因为上星期五无法把所有东西搞定而给人家骂，
这都是你们看不到的。。
我不是要骂你们或什么。。
只是你们也该体谅一下人家，
不要一下子就把人家踩成这个地步。

我没有恶意的，纯粹跟你们解释而已，不是找架来吵~
希望你们会明白啦，我知道我很三八~
可是我真的一定要帮她们伸冤要不然我会觉得我很无能。。
在此再次跟你们道歉，原谅我这个三八佬~ ><

Rant =D

Hello everyone,
I'm back =D

I'm not going to talk about stuffs that happened this week cos there's nothing special that happened.
So I'm just gonna say what's on my mind =]

Recently,
I've been very pissed with this particular person.
It all started when I went jogging with Carolyn. (more like gossipping and bitching session xD)
And I found out that this particular person is such an ass hole.
Grrr.
He/She is fucking fake,
And I hate that.
He/She owes me a thank you,
And I didn't get any.
But it's okay,
I don't care anymore cos I'm SO ditching you when we graduate =]
*You can ask me who is it, I MIGHT tell you =X

Also,
I'm gonna make a really big statement here.
I don't care if lots of ppl sees this and start to hate me.

I've been very disappointed in it.
I've been it since I was form 1,
And it's already been 4 years.
I used to be involved in any activities they held or whatever.
But since this year.
I wasn't even involved in ANYTHING.
And I'm so fucking disappointed.
Whether they think I'm not capable of doing any shits,
I don't care.
Just wait till you see,
I have 2 singing competitions coming ahead of me waiting for me to organise it,
Wait till you see how successful it is and you guys are gonna look so dumb for not using me.
So I'm not even putting hopes on it anymore.
Everything is in a mess.
Back then during YewJin & KaWah's batch it was so much better,
At least the people on top knows what to do.
And they don't do things stupidly.
But what's happening now is,
For EVERY activities they're having,
They just choose the same ppl EVERYtime.
I'm not pissed off because I wasn't involved,
But I just think other people deserves a chance.

These are all bad managements and not enough experience.
They only know how to go straight,
But what if the road is blocked ?
That's why you gotta learn to go the other way round.
Pfft.
The way they handle things just makes me sick.
I'm SO fucking speechless.
It just gets worse every year.
Pfft.

Now,
Enough with the angry parts.
Let's talk about something else =]

Sometimes,
It just hurts me when I see my friends in pain.
Cos I can't help them in any way =(
So sometimes I try to cheer them up.
It works,
But sometimes it doesn't ><

Especially when dear AhFoong always seems so depressed and pissed.
I don't know what's going on but I feel so depressed and bad too when I see that.
Cos all I can do is just look at your depressed look from a great distance,
And not able to help anything =(
Anyways I know you will surely find your way of solving it,
And return to the Happy Fish once again =D
So I guess it's better to leave you alone to cool down and think properly instead of going to you and annoy you.
But please don't forget,
Whenever you feel that the whole world is giving up on you,
Please remember that your whole bunch of friends are always here for you to borrow you a shoulder to lie on =]
And sometimes,
Crying it all out makes you feel better too =D
Or you can scold or hit someone to release your anger and stress =X (like wad Mr. Milo did last Thursday = =")

So to everyone who's upset and depressed,
Cheer up and don't give up =]

*I'm starting to fall for your cuteness
One mere "hi" from you is more than enough to melt me
But I will only keep this in my heart as i know that it can never be possible
Staring at you from far is already more than enough for me =]