Shattered...

Once again,
I was hurt by your words..
The words you said..
It's like words that are sharp and piercive that pierce through me and break my weak heart.
我不是你想像的那么勇敢...

"Not that i wanna say you or what lah, but you where got your 2 brothers so smart."

This mere sentence spoiled everything.
I finally decided to talk to you about my education and this is your first reaction.

So what now ?
I'm not smart so I no need to study lah is it ?

From what you've said,
This seems to be what you really meant.

My results may not be as good as theirs,
And sorry to say this,
But i think their results are not that good either.

I am disappointed that this is what you say.
Can't you just give me an appropriate answer ?
Or at least basic support that i deserve ?
If you think that it's still not the time to think about this yet.
Fine,
It's your choice.
I'm just doing you a favor and discuss it a little earlier cos last minute plans are NEVER good.
But if this is what you want,
Insulting me and don't even bother to give me morale support,
Thank you,
I will prove to you that you are wrong.
I am going to college no matter what.
Even if you're not willing to care.
I'll find my own sponsors.

Maybe you don't see my potential,
Whatever,
I don't care.
Thank you for dissing and looking down on me all the time.
It's going to be the force that keeps me going.
So that you will feel sorry for looking down on me and DIDN'T care.

I don't know if you mean it or not,
But what you said is really irresponsible.
You said as if you didn't want to give me the education that i want.
Or at least the education that I deserve.
Comparing me to my brothers and saying that my potential is limited and not as good as them.
Well to me that just means that you don't wanna provide me any education.
Fuck it.
I don't fucking care anymore.
I know Mommy is always there to support me.
What i get from her is already more than enough for me.

Thank you for everything.
Thank you for breaking my glass heart and make it shattered into a million pieces.
Now it's all broken,
Are you happy now ?
I guess you are.

I promise you... =]

Footprints in the sand...

Hello everyone.
How's everything going on ?

Well holidays have ended and we're back to our usual school life again.
It's good that we can see friends again,
But I'd rather stay at home and rot =[
Somehow i just prefer that more =X
Then when free,
Hang out with friends..
If life is just like that,
It would be so fun and peaceful =X

Anyways,
I guess I'll be kinda busy from now onwards.
Cos there are SO many things to deal with.
ChineseSociety things,
HariKoko things..
So many things going on..

Anyways,
On HariKoko,
I'll be helping out with LeeChin's HauntedHouse by KelabPelancongan =D
Remember to come support us okay ? =D
Librarians are doing their own HauntedHouse too,
So don't forget to try out both =]

So yeah,
Yesterday,
I went to MidValley with FungSoon & LeeChin.
They both have different tasks to do while i was just tagging along =X
LeeChin's looking for the HauntedHouse things and repairing her watch and buying her mom stuffs, While FungSoon's looking for something for his *ahem* =X
LOL.
But ended up,
We bought more stuff than him LOL.
I bought a chicken that I'm gonna use for the HauntedHouse OMG I'm so excited XD!!!
We stopped in this shop in The Gardens.
I think the shop's name is ActionCity.
I saw the chicken so i played with it and use it to scare FungSoon.
And the sound that the chicken produced was SO FUNNY OMG LOL,
EVERYONE in the shop was looking at us OmG = ="
So i wanted to buy it very badly =X
But the largest one cost RM55+ so i decided not to =__+"

After awhile,
We went back to the same shop cos i wanna buy the chicken =X
So we bought the medium size one which is RM29.80 LOL.
The sound wasn't as powerful and funny as the big one but it's still ok lah.
LOL.
Come to our HauntedHouse and check it out ba XD!!
LoL.

And we also went back to MidValley to hunt for *ahem*'s pressent.
Then we passed by Kenko FishSpa so we stopped and look at the fishies XD
And we realised that a fish jumped out from the water and landed on the rocks.
It's struggling and it's flying here and there and i was like,
"OMFG WTF, WE MUST SAVE IT!!!"

So i went to the entrance and told the gurl that a fish flew out.
And she went to save it then LOL.
She placed the fish back into the water and it swam again XD
So i looked at her and clapped my hands and she showed the thumbs up action LOL.

So we walked back to Gardens to walk around and we went back to save some fishes again =X
This time,
We saw ANOTHER fish that was lying on the rocks,
But too bad..
It's already dead T.T

I told the girl to save it but she said,
"Oh, it's dead. Too bad."
=.="

We were late T.T

....................
The gurl was pretty though =X

Anyways after getting *ahem*'s pressent,
We headed home ~_~
Overall,
Going out with LeeChin is fun cos she doesn't waste time looking at so many stuffs and end up didn't buy anything. (Yes i'm talking bout you KumKeiYan =X)
When she looks at something,
She buys it =D
LoL.

Anyways,
Todayy.
I went for Bio Intensive Class.
Before this,
They already told me that Alvin will be teaching the class today for idunnowhatreasons.
So ok lor,
Was kinda excited cos I've nvr seen him before and I've received lots of comments bout him before.
Like KeiYan who says he's good looking = ="
And Leon who says he talks like me and somehow reminds him of me -.-"
So yeah LOL.

I reached at 11 i think.
I thought I was late but I wasn't!
So yay xD

Everyone arrived at 11.05.
And everyone was like,
"OmG, where's Alvin ? Don't tell me he really overslept!!"

So I'm like,
"Err okayy =_="

So by 11.15,
He finally came = ="
The place i was sitting can see the entrance up there clearly.
So i can see whoever who come in.
So suddenly,
I saw someone tall and kinda skinny and looks like a model from far LOL.
White collar shirt and jeans.
Simple clothing but look very extraordinary.
Just like me xD!!
LOL =XXX

So i was like,
"Wow~"
And then he came into the class.
And surprisingly...
He IS good looking =X
Really fair,
Tall,
Slim,
And good looking =X

I thought he was some guy who looks kinda old with specs on but with a smart look.
I think it's the name that makes me think like that =X
So when i saw him,
I was shocked indeed XD!!

And the minute he came in,
Leon started getting hyped =.="
It all started with what FungSoon said when he came in..

FungSoon : Leon, you not say he look like Spellman one meh ?

Spell : Huh ? o.o

And then he started writing on the whiteboard while talking.
And FungSoon asked him,

FungSoon : Teacher, you eat edi or not ?

Alvin : Of course NO!!!

Leon : HAHAHAHAHA *continue laughing like a crazy fellow*

Leon : SPELLMAN THAT SOUNDS JUST LIKE YOU WAHAHAHAHA.

Spell : Wtf ???? Omg you're nuts.

And he's all hyped throughout the whole class = ="
Maybe he took too much sugar in the morning =X
LOL.

Anyways,
His teaching is REALLYY GOOOD.
Compared to Miss Kirby =X (sorry Ms Kirby)
And he's really funny too xD
Ok fyne i admit lah sometimes the way he talk is similiar to me =.="
But I think the way I talk is more dramatic.
LOL =XX
Hahahaha.

Anyways overall the class is fun and i certainly learned alot.
And after meeting him,
I must force myself to lose weight edi =X
I must lose at least 5kg OMG!!
I wanna be slim T_T

Anyways,
School is starting again tomorrow~ T_T
I miss sleeping until 9 in the morning.
Haiz...

Also,
We're going to watch Transformer 2 at MidValley this Saturday.
Weee XD
Although I'm not that excited cos I didn't even bother to watch part 1 = ="
Hmm maybe I'll watch it in this week,
If not I won't know what's happening and all =_="
LoL.

Ok lah,
I'll stop here.
Will udpate again some other time when there are stuffs to update.
Thanks for reading everyone!!
Byee =D

Friendship..

Friendship..

It's something weird.

It COULD be a good thing.

It COULD be a bad thing too...

It's also one of the weakest link..
It breaks easily.

That's why,

We have to put effort and do something to strengthen it up so that it doesn't break.

But sometimes,

I just feel disappointed and i don't know what to do to mend the friendship.

I don't like being ignored..

Especially when you started something.

I don't like secret between friends too..

It just makes me feel like everything is so unreal.

But then again..

Everyone has their own privacy.

And all i wanna say is...

I'm always here whenever you need help or someone to talk to.

Just turn to me when you're unhappy and share with me..

So that the gap between us won't get further apart.

Just call my name, and I'll be there.. =]

And it's draining all of me..

Though they find it hard to believe..

I'll be wearing these scars for everytone to see...

Update =]

Hello everyone.
It was TalentCompetition today.
LoL.

Things wasn't as smooth as how we want it to be.
So many things happened and i was running around the school like a mad bull.

Anyways,
Everything's great lah i guess.
I only got into Top 5,
That's all.
Well that's what I expected lah.
Anyways I'm happy for KhaMun cos i introduced the song to her 2 days ago =D
And she sang it quite well.
She deserves to win =]

Besides,
SoonYuen's sooo leng chai today XD
Finally for once in his life he looks so good LOL.
And his performance was really great too!!
I really regret for not recording ><
Well to me,
It's better than the other 2 piano performances =X
People who are there would know how "lam" is it and even though the piano is quite soft,
EVERYONE shut up and listened,
That's amazing =D
Don't be sad SoonYuen,
You are already champion in my heart x)

Kien Bing's dance was quite good too.
Shocked everyone and got 3rd XD

As for me,
I didn't do well.
That's all I can say.
The only person I can blame is myself for it.
You don't have to say something like,
"Oh it's okay lah, you've tried your best."
Because I DIDN'T do my best and if you think this is my best,
You are wrong and you are underestimating me.

OK fine,
I admit that i'm upset.
But it's normal ?
And also since I've already lost for 4 years,
I guess this doesn't matter that much anymore.
What I've shown today is just a very common and normal vocal,
One of my WORST performances ever.
But I cannot blame anyone,
Cos it's my own fault that everything's like this.
Don't say try again next time,
It's my last year of secondary,
I only have the Chinese Singing Competition left.

I don't wanna talk anymore cos it's just gonna make me sound like a sore loser.
I did bad and I'm blaming myself.
That's all.
Congrats to everyone who did well today.
And congrats to Mr. Spellman who was once ohsoholygodgood to ohsofuckingnoob now.

Whoopz =X

Erhm sumthin's wrong with the previous post so i dunno what to do =X
Anyways I'll continue here LOL.
I'm gonna go shopping on next Monday with CheeKuan to choose our competition outfit AND WATCH ZAC EFRON!!! XD

WEE!!
THAT'S ALL LOL BYE =XX

Holiday =D

Hello everyone.
I'm backk!!! =D
Sorry for leaving my blog dead for so long,
I'm back now x)


Anyways,
Holiday is still not bad so far.
But sadly,
1 week is coming to an end and we only have another week to enjoy =(

Anyways,
Let's enjoy all we can while we still have time =D
LoL.

This week,
I went out everyday.
That's why i'm tired everyday = ="


On Monday,
I went to KDU with CheeKuan for the classroom experience.
KuanHaur & Justin went too but different classes.
CheeKuan and I went for the InternationalCooking class XD
We just went to try only =X
Anyways the lecturer told us about their experience and showed us around.
Kinda boring actually,
But kinda interesting too =X
Then we have a chance to try to do the wedding cake decorations.
Which is kinda fun BUT boring too cos I can't seem to do it well =X
LOL.

Anyways after that we had lunch with KuanHaur & Justin at the cafeteria.
There are few stalls there with their own student selling the food.
So we went to try out the western dishes there and it was SOO NICE!!
I ordered a ChickenChop and CheeKuan ordered a Carbonara which is SO MUCH nicer than other places.
I'm so in love with their food =X

Anyways,
Right after that class,
We went back to CheeKuan's house cos we have to practice our competition song ><
WHICH didn't turn out very good and it's scary cos so many ppl is in her house =X
LOL.

Anyways,
I went get my L on Tuesday.
Listen the 6 hours talk.
I went with SumYee & WeiInn they all.
They went to take the undang test first,
Then proceed to the 6 hour talk.
I was so nervous for them especially when talk walked out 1 by 1 OMG =O
But ALL 6 of US pass =X
LOL.
Then we proceeded to the place where we listen to the 6 hour talk.
It starts at 12,
And ends at 3 LOL.
Cos everyone is lazy and i bet the lecturer is lazy also so everyone went home after 3 hours of talking XD
The talk was kinda boring.
I fell asleep for 45 minutes = ="
And all of a sudden i heard WeiInn laughing and i was awake.
LOL.
Then i decided to hear since i'm not so sleepy anymore.
The lecturer was kinda funny,
Which is a good thing.
But he was too boring during the beginning until i cannot tahan and fell asleep = ="

Anyways,
After the 3 hours talk,
Everyone was so glad to go back home =_="
And i 4got wad happened after i went back home =X
LOL.
Anyways hope i get my P very very soon XD!!

On Wednesday,
I went to school during morning to decorate the school hall and arrange the chairs.
Preparation for the TalentCompetition =D
And we rehearsed the drama too.
It's our first practice so everything is still abit messy but i'm sure it'll be better =]
After 3 hours of work which is 12 sumthin,
We cleaned up everything and locked the hall cos we're going to MidValley for movie xD
It includes Me, JiaMeng, FungSoon, Leon, KuiSeong, JianHong, SoonYuen & YongHan.
We've waited for the fricking RapidKL Bus for 1 AND A HALF HOUR.
WE WERE SO FRICKING HUNGRY and seriously i might faint any second -.-"
So finally the bus came and we went up.

And the first thing we do when we reached MidValley is buy the movie tickets =.="
The queue was so fricking long i nearly cried T.T
The end of the queueis at the McDonald ice cream place =.="
So me and YongHan line up and when it was almost our turn,
I told them to get the table in KimGary first while me and YongHan will get the tickets.
So they went down and we bought the tickets~
Everyone wants me to make the decision so i decided to watch Monsters vs Aliens XD!!
At first i wanted to watch the 3D one since it's only RM12.
But when we reached the counter,
That fella said it's RM17.
Then i kept asking him,
"Tapi knape sana tulis RM12 ??"

I forgot what he say cos my malay sucks =X
So i took the normal tickets instead which is only RM7.
= ="
Went down to KimGary to join them for lunch, blah blah.
Then we force SoonYuen to go shopping after lunch XD
We went to a few shops which didn't have shirts that suits him but suits me =X
SO i stopped down and look for awhile =X
LOL at last we stopped at Romp and we chose outfit for him.
I chose the pants which i'm so proud of OMG XD
LOOK OUT FOR THE CHANGE EVERYONE!!
THE BRAND NEW SOON YUEN ON NEXT SATURDAY XD!!!
Everyone was urging SoonYuen to buy the whole set of outfit LOL.
He said he didn't have enough money so we decided to borrow him money.
Then JianHong borrowed him 100 bucks to buy it =D
So sweet of JianHong XD

Anyways after SoonYuen's shopping spree,
We went up to the cinema for movies~
Weee XD!!
The movie was really good.
We ALL LOVE the character named BOB LOL.
HE'S DAMN FUNNY AND COOL XD!!!

Anyways after movies i think we went home cos it was already kinda late.
Taxis from MidValley are SUPER expensive.
They charge you 20 bucks for a ride back to SeriPetaling =.="
Zzzz.
So next time, we use own transport XD!!
LOL.

Anyways the outing was fun =D
So everyone please look forward for SoonYuen's transformation XD!!
LOL.

On Thursday i went to school during morning to help CheeKuan.
Carolyn, WaiKen, ZheBin & YenLing came too.
But the decorations are still not completed yet ><
Aiks..

Hope everything will be done by next Friday which is the rehearsal day =[