Okay, I'm sorry.

I've deleted all the posts about you.
I don't wanna explain anymore now,
Cos it's just gonna make it worse and make it seems like you're a bad person.
So all i'm gonna say is..

Sorry,
I will learn from my wrongs and i hope we can go back like how we are last time.
I hope our friendship is still there.
I really don't wanna lose you.. =(

Excited and Upset ><

Hey everyone.
Ths Photography Competition is tomorrow,
I'm sure everyone's really excited like me =D
But also,
I'm kinda upset because of 2 issues.
Well the first one is becos,
I LOOK DAMN FAT IN THE BLOODY PHOTOGRAPHY T-SHIRT.
The cutting SUCKS.
I look damn fat in this kind of cutting wan,
Their cutting should be like the Chinese Society T-Shirt's one.
And also,
The quality of the T-Shirt SUCKSSS TO THE MAXXXX.
It's a see through white =.="
So basicly,
If you wear a colour bra,
People can see it.
So to gurls,
Don't wear red/pink/purple/blue/black/orange/yellow/green bra tomorrow LOL.
=X

Anyways,
LOL.
The 2nd issue is,
The New Ajk List STILLL Haven't Been Announced Yet.

All i can say is...
THE TEACHER SUCKS.
THIS SCHOOL SUCKS.
AND THE HEAD PREFECT SUCKS.
Since morning Mr. Mark have been telling us,
"I'll look for Encik Siva later and it will be announced today." (gay colour xD)

So when it's recess time,
I went to look for him again,
And he REPEATED THE SAME LINE.
So i was like,
"Even if you ask for the list later, you also no chance to announce it to us edi lah?"
Then he said,
"Nono i will tell you all later."

Yeah later,
LATER MY COCKK.
I KNEWWW HE WOULDN'T BE SO HARDWORKING AND GO FIND ENCIK SIVA ONE.
IRRESPONSIBLE JERKSS.
INCLUDING THE BLOODY SIVA.
YOU NEVER COME FOR 2 DAYS EDI NVM LAH,
TODAY YOU CAME AND YOU SAID THE FUCKING LIST IS NOT WITH YOU ?
FUCKK YOUU.
THEN WHERE THE FUCK IS THE LIST ?
YOU ATE IT IS IT ?
IRRESPONSIBLE FUCK.

Ugh =.="
Anyways i told mommy about how fucking irresponsible are they and my mommy said...
"This school really sucks, especially the irresponsible teachers"
LOL,
Finally i heard something right xD

Oh yeah,
Not to mention that that Fadly/Fadli guy was being an ass today.
Well Leon & Fung Soon memang dislike him edi wan,
Cos he wipe shoe = =
And today,
He came to Leon and Fung Soon but i forgot what he was saying.
Cos i didn't give a shit about what cock he wanna say.
But i think he was ORDERING Leon and Fung Soon how to stand and arrange the line or blah blah.
Leon wasn't happy with him ordering around so he kinda ignored him and refused to listen to him.
So he changed target to Fung Soon and he started holding his hand and all,
Fung Soon refused to also and he pushed Fung Soon >=(
I was shocked and got pissed but i forgot if i scolded him or not.
Then Haifa (some malay gurl) shouted at him and dunno what happened lah,
But i think the main reason is becos she feel like puking so when people around her started to get annoying she'll feel even worst ?
LOL.
Anyways,
Trisha scolded him during recess and blah blah.
Everyone was saying,
"Don't go there, Trisha scolding some fat fucker"
LOL.
Lots of people hate him i guess ?
LOL,
How unlucky =O

And after school,
That Fadly/Fadli came to apologize to me =.="
So i said,
"You should apologize to Fung Soon & Leon instead, cos you were rude to them."
And he started saying that dunno what what what tension and dunno what what got family prob that's why mood not good at school.
And say that he wants to see Fung Soon & Leon during rehat today but they refused to see him =.="
So anyways he told me his story and i feel kinda sorry for him. (being soft AGAIN)

Until just now,
When i chat with Fung Soon.
I told him what that Fadly/Fadli guy told me,
And he's still not happy with him,
LOL.
So i kinda feel bad for that Fadly/Fadli guy AGAIN.
But i changed my mind when our conversation continued...

Fung Soon : Today after the kawad, you know what Fadly told Norliza ?

Spell : ....... OmG, what ?!?!?!

Fung Soon : He say we all kurang ajar. Fucker him.

Spell : ............

Fung Soon : Then Trisha know liao say, "He is the fucker who kurang ajar."

Spell : ........... LOL... ><>

Fung Soon : Dunno, Justin heard one.

Spell : .... OWH MY FUCKING GOSH. WTF ?!?!! CHEEE BYEEE HIM, HE NO RIGHT TO CALL PEOPLE KURANG AJAR SEI SOHAI.

=.="
So yeah,
Now i hate him back =.="
And also,
Fung Soon told me that he DIDN'T look for them AT ALL during recess,
Which means he is LYING.
Ugh =.="
He better hope that neither me, Fung Soon & Leon get a pose,
If not he'll be dead.
Ughh =.="
Malay guyss,
Pfft.
Indian guys are better.
LOLL!!! =XX

Hmm,
Pui Yan's party should be going on now.
I can't attend,
So i hope everyone there will enjoy theirselves.

Anyways,
Hope the Photography Competition tomorrow will go smoothly and really fun =D
And hope i won't look fugly in that stupid outfit =(
Bye guys =D
Oh yeah,
Not to forget,
Wish me luck AGAIN for the Ajk Thing =X
Hopefully it'll be announced tomorrow... >"<

Nervous!!!

I'm nervous.
Like,
Realll nervous.
Well apparently,
Tomorrow will be the day that they announce the new AJK List.
I'm really scared =[
I hope i get it.
I mean,
This is the 2nd year i've been chosen edi,
And last year,
I fought out with Alicia and finally got the pose but at last,
1 word from the teacher and all the pose changed.
And there goes the form 6 asses.

Anyways,
I really hope i get it this time cos i've been working hard for it.
And also,
If i don't get it,
It'll be damn humiliating =.="
Cos everyone expected me to get it.
I was calon-ed for normal AJK,
And last week,
I was told that i was calon-ed for AJK Tertinggi =.="
Like wtf..
I don't want a high pose but if i MUST fight it out then i will.
Better than nothing =.="
Anyways,
Everyone knows i was calon-ed for AJK Tertinggi,
Blah blah.
So eventually everyone thought i 100% can become lah.
Even can't become AJK Tertinggi also got a pose.
BUT I'M STILL SCARED.
I MEAN,
WHAT IFF.
THE TEACHERS DON'T WANT ME BECAUSE THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW ME =.="
Well except for Puan Norliza,
Which has reallyyy bad impression towards me ToT

So yeah,
Now i don't hope for anything edi but i just hope i can have a normal pose so it can shut everyone up T.T
And also show it to those ppl who looked down on me and think he is the one who deserves a pose.
Pfft.
Anywayss,
Wish me luck pleeeasseee =(
I don't wanna cry in school tomorrow...

Bitches.

I have a few best friends.
They're my really really great friends.
They're always here for me and we always talk bout everything =]

I don't like people messing with them.
They always meet mean people.
And get hurt.

Some bitch just can't be considerate.
If you don't like him,
Just frickin reject him.
Don't tell him something like,
"Oh, i wanna study for noww."
And make him wait for more than a year when you're already dating some other guy.
And please don't think everyone is dumb,
Cos this reason SUCKS.
It's not even a proper reason.
If you don't like him,
Just fricking say,
"Sorry, i don't like you and now, i'm hooking up with some badminton guy so we can make out while playing badminton."
Just say the fricking truth and stop lying to everyone.
Cos we already know about every goddamn thing about you,
Just that we act like we don't know and we never ask you,
Becos we know you're not gonna admit it at all.
I know you enjoy so many guys coming for you and treating you good and all.
Because it feels like you're so popular and at the same time,
Being able to use all of them and have them treat you good,
Just like having lots of boy friends at once.
You're a bitch.
You try to be innocent and all.
And you act like you're tired and you slept with him in the camp.
You just like to seduce people.
I know.
Sluts are all like that.
So i hope there's gonna be karma,
And one day your secret will be revealed and everyone hates you.
=]

And also you,
I can't state all the specifics and why i hate you,
Cos it'll be damn obvious.
But i just want you to stop bugging my friend.
Even though i'm not really close with him,
But i'm pissed,
Cos you're influencing him,
I don't want him to become a bad and mean person like you.
You might think everyone LOVESSS you,
But no,
You're wrong =]
You thought you're really successful being a human being.
But actually,
No.
You're a failure =D
Cos everyone hates you when you're still living in your own world thinking everyone loves you.
You're not that popular,
Really =]
Cos everyone hates your attitude and YOU.
Maybe you should wake up and realise everything..
Yeahh =]
And also,
One thing that me and everyone hate about you.
When you're in a great mood,
You'll come and joke with us and all.
But when you're in a bad mood,
You don't even tiu us,
You just go and hook up with him and start to naik miang.
And please stop acting like only your life is so miserable and only you are going through things,
Cos everyone is going through things too.
Yeah,
Leon is right.
I REALLY don't dare to say this all out on you,
And when we fight i really MIGHT lose.
But if that time comes,
I don't think i will,
Cos i'm gonna list out all the facts and majority wins,
Everyone hates you.
I don't care how fucking great you are at talking,
You're goin down =]
Anyways,
Good luck on being a person.

Lovee,
Spellman,
Your best-friend =D

Bad Monday =.="

Helloo everyone.
As usual i'm gonna blog about the whole day xD
And also shoot a few ass holes which made my day really bad =.="

Anyways,
I went school and waited till perhimpunan start.
And then hear the stupid teachers crapping.
Whatever~

So after that is Modern Maths period.
Have to see the fucking Zuraini bitch again early in the morning.
So yeah,
As expected,
She bitched again.
I sat with Pooi How,
And seriously,
WE WEREN'T TALKING AT ALL.
EVERYONE ELSE IS.
We weren't talking at all until suddenly Kah Herng & Justin turned to us and asked me about the time table.
So i kinda discussed with them and explained to them.
And suddenly Zuraini came and scolded us,
Like wtf ?
Then she started saying i "asyik bersembang".
So i got kinda pissed and said,
"saya langsung tak sembang, kamu tanya mereka."

And she said,
"Kamu ingat saya buta kah ?"

So after that i kept saying i wasn't talking AT ALL.
And she started asking ppl around me and after that she ignored me.

So owhkayy,
After that,
Sakai & Ying jie & Soo Yee kept talking and made the class damn noisy =.="
She she told the whole class to stand,
And she told few of the quiet ones to sit down,
BUT ME AND POOI HOW STANDING WHILE WE DIDN'T EVEN SAY A WORD.
UGHHH =.="

Anyways,
After recess,
It was English time,
Which means Miss Renuka's period !! =D
I love her class,
Cos she's funny but when she's in a bad mood,
Her attitude sucks =X
So yeah,
Today,
Wei Hsiang was sitting in front of me.
Then when he's leaving,
I was fooling around and took the comp to poke him.
MANA TAHU HE GO USE HIS INJURED HAND TO BLOCK.
So i guess it's damn pain ?
Anyways,
Right after that,
Serena & Hui Ling scolded me immediately.
They haven't even understand the whole situation and they scold me =.="
It's not like i did it on purpose,
Excuse me,
I'm not that dumb and mean lahh.
Ughh.

After that was Bio,
And Jia Meng talked about someone and at last that someone came over and we had a little chat =X
So finally i knew the whole story.
I know that gurl was no good,
I know she's a bitch few months ago.
She's really pro at pretending and faking ppl's feelings.
I hope god will do something back to her,
For all the fucking things she've done.
Ughh.
Since she's so fake.
I'm gonna fake back to her and pretend to be a kind person.
See who's more pro lah,
BITCH!!

Anyways,
After Bio was Chemistry.
And Miss Sim asked if i got any prize for da comp,
LOL.
And she praised me and said that my singing was damn good xD
Soo sweeet xD
Anyways,
Nothin much happened today.
It starts badly thanks to fucking Zuraini =.="
Zzzzz,
Oh well i guess i'll stop here.
See ya guys =]

This post is dedicated to Li Kuen.

Hey everyone.
Yesterday was the chinese singing competition.
And Li Kuen seem to be really down after that.
Cos she think that she suck at singing and no1 cheered and support her.
Well i'm sure everyone disagrees right ?

Li Kuen,
If you suck at singing, then i won't find you to be my partner. And, if you suck at singing, then what am i ? I'm not that good either.. And i just want you to know that please stop thinking stupid stuff like that. You are good. So many people told you that you're good and you still don't believe it ? If you yourself don't believe in yourself, who's gonna believe in you ? And also, I know you love singing, just like me. I hope you won't give up on it no matter what. Please think carefully, Don't simply think and deny yourself.. Hope you can work things out =]

Thank youuu everyonee =D

Hello everyone.
First of all,
I wanna thank every single person who supported me =D
I'm really happy and grateful that al of you supported me,
Thanks =]

Anyways,
As you all know,
Yesterday was the final for chinese singing competition.
Lots of my frens joined,
Including Shu Yee, Sum Yee, Li Kuen, Lam Si Yan, Carmen, Tee Yen, Kha Mun & more.
Everyone didn't do as well as they expected it but it was okayy also lah.
But i was damn confident with my performance yesterday =D
Cos i've already practiced for quite some time edi.
So anyways,
I think i did quite good =]
Cos everyone was praising.

I think our duet really sucks but everyone said it was nice,
Maybe it's because we didn't do as good as we expected so we're disappointed,
But it's okay lah,
At least the audience liked it =D

Anyways,
After the solo competition,
I already know who's the winner.
It's that form 1 gurl,
Cos Liow Pey Shan asked the judges and the judges didn't mention anyone but her.
They say that she's the only person who can sing those opera songs =.="
That's so wrong,
You don't give a person champion just becos she can sing those kind of songs that you like.
Then not everyone can sing rock/jazz also wad,
Why don't you give them champion also.
Ughh.
They're just giving marks accoring to their taste.

Anyways,
After that,
The guy from the music company that bring the 2 celebrities came gave a speech,
I was chatting with my fren so i didn't really heard what he said,
But i think he was saying sumthin like,
"Just now, there's a guy who sang quite good and have the looks also, i forgot what number is he edi."
Then everyone started shouting,
"SPELLMAN AHH!!"
I was like,
"Huh what?"
And the guy continued saying,
"Yah that guy, number 13. To be honest, if it's this kind of standards where his singing and looks are also very good, i would sign him to be one of my singers."

My reaction was like,
"*Oh my gawdd* Thank you ? LOL"

Then he continued,
"He's just like the old Danny Wen Li Ming, in fact, he won't lose to Danny at all."

Then everyone started woo-ing and OmG i'm so blushed but also happy at the same time =D
But i got worried at the same time.
Cos after hearing what that music company guy said,
Everyone started saying i'm champion for sure but i already know that i'm not the frickin champion =.="
So i kept on telling everyone,
"No lah, please stop saying i'm the champion cos i'm really nott T.T Later you all scream like hell and end up i didn't get then damn malu oneee T.T"

Then after some time,
Carol & Xiao Wei came to me and said,
"Spell !! I tell you ah, the judges suck like hell ah. They go choose the form 1 gurl to be champion oh, so stupid right. Just now when the music company guy praise you that time ah, the 3 judges also feel pai seh edi, hahahaha."

LOL!!!
Then they went back.
So right after that is the time they're gonna announce the results.
The host announced the 3rd placing first,
And it goes to Liow Pey Shan =.="
Then they asked the audience who is the 2nd placing.
Then EVERYONEE started to shout,
"SPELLMANN!!!!!!!"

And the host feel kinda pai seh cos the person is not me so she asked the same question again to see if anyone screamed the right name LOL =_=
So after some time everyone was still screaming my name so she decided to give up and announced the 2nd placing,
Which is some form 2 guy that i have no idea why the hell he won.

So right after that i know i lose edi lor,
Since i already knew that the gurl is winning,
But everyone didn't know and they continued screaming my name T.T
SERIOUSLY EVERYONE WAS SCREAMING MY NAME WHICH MADE ME DAMN MALU.
Even Miss Vun who's holding the first prize also looking at me SMILING as if i'm the winner.
So after some time i think the host also feel pai seh so she said,
"Sorry ah, the champion goes to the form 1 gurl."

Everyone got silent immediately.
I even heard someone saying,
"HAR?!?!"
LOLL.

So anyways,
After that is the most potential contestant.
And as usual everyone started shouting my namee again T.T
But the host announced that it's Liow Pey Shan =.="

So yeah,
After that we went down and everyone started saying,
"Spellman dun cry dun cry."
When i'm not even crying = =

So right after that is the group category one.
The host announced the 3rd place which is Carmen Teh's group =.="
Pfftt.
And when they asked the 2nd place everyone started screaming my name again =.="
If you wanna know the situation just read the things that happened during the solo LOL,
Cos basically it's the same.
So then the 2nd place goes to some form 5 gurls which is so-so only =X

And then when the host asked which group is the champion,
Everyone started screaming my name again T.T
INCLUDING THE CONTESTANTSS ON STAGEE.
So once again i've met disappoinment and the champion goes to Liow Pey Shan's group =.="

And then when everyone thought there's no more hope,
A small hope came,
LoL.

Our group got the Best so-called "teamwork" =.="
Personally i think the judge just feel bad for me so they just simply give me an award.
Zzzz.
Anyways after that everyone came and cheer me up when i'm not even sad =_=
Just a lil' disappoinment =]
This happens lah,
Not everyting goes smoothly as we thought one.
So i'm actually okayy with it =D
And i really wanna thank everyone who shouted and cheered for me =]
Thanks alot for supporting me,
Without you people,
I won't have the confidence =]
Really very thankful for every single person who supported me,
I appreciate it =D
Thank you all,
And i will still join again next year,
I won't give up =]
Thanks everyone =D