=[[.

Hmm.
I've just heard of some bad news today.
Well it's not about me.
It's about my eldest brother =[
As usual,
I TERlistened when i was playing the comp upstairs and my mom and cousin was talking about it.
I was...
Shocked.
Mom asked me if something happened to them a few days ago,
And i didn't noticed and answered her,
"No lah i don't think so, that day baru she came over to our house."
Even so,
I started to suspect that there's somethin going on..
And i have a kinda bad feeling about it =/

So yeah,
Finally i've heard the whole story.
I don't know the COMPLETE story lah,
I just know what happened to them.
The details and all,
I don't know =/
I kinda feel bad and sorry for them.
No wonder this few days brother not in the mood.
Now i knoww why..
Sighz...
Kesian him lah..
He's really a great bf..
Well he treats her really really great.
Haha..

Hmm,
I just saw brotherr's phone.
His wallpaper is still her.
=(
I know he still loves her alot though.
I dunno lah,
No matter what he decides in the future,
I just hope everything goes well for him..

Personally,
I didn't expect this to happen.
I thought they're love will last forever.
But it seems...
Nothing is forever.
Everything will end one day.
Just that if it's sooner or later.
Sighz..
I'm getting emo.
Even though it's not some tragedy that happened to mee.
Well,
I hope brotherrr would be happy.
I hope he make the right decision for him and he'll be happy with it.. =]

Good luck,
Keii Korr (Yew Kee),
Love you always.. =]

Tagged byyyy Triishaaaa Shabuuu! ;D

1.Shortest relationship?
- 1 and a half month ;(

2. Last gift you received?
- Err, 2 months ago for my birthday i guess ? There's alot.

3. Ever dropped a cell phone?
- Like DUHH, who doesn't ? = =

4. Last food you ate?
- Chicken rice =D

5. Last club you went?
- I don't go clubbing but i go clubs like OUG Club LOL!!!

6. Last smoke
- Last smoke ? You mean the last timo i smoke or whatt o.O I don't smoke sorry.

7. One favorite song?
- Wen Lan (Landy) - Sha Gua (Silly)

8. Where do you live?
- OUG but SOON Sri Petaling =D

9. Last wedding you attended?
- Erhm, february i guess.

10. Last time you saw your friend?
- 4 and a half hours ago. LoL.

11. Where is your favorite place to eat with friends?
- Steamboat & Buffet places =DD

12. Can you cook?
- Magieee Mee yeahhh xD

13. Last time you cried?
- It's been really long since i've last cried..

14. Why?
- Because there's nothing for me to cry about and i've learned to stay strong =/

15. Hate most about yourself?
- Almost everything. Weight, Looks, Hairr, everything =( I'm not perfect at all..

16. Can you sing?
- Yes i CAN and i don't care what people say, i'll prove to everyone that i can.

17. Do you smoke?
- Nooo, i fuckin hate ppl who smoke.

18. Pancakes or French toast?
- Depends on which kind of pancakes, i love the ones in Paddington ;DD

19. Do you like coffee?
- Yeahh, but i seldom drink it.

20. Last person who sent you a message?
- No one ;( Except for some who i messaged them and they replied.

21. What was the last text message you received?
- "Ok only lah -_-"" (LOL!)

22. Can you play pool?
- No i suck and i'm not interested in it.

23. Can you swim?
- Noooo =(

24. Favorite flavor of ice cream?
- Chocoooooolaateeeeeee !!!! =D

25. What time did you wake up this morning?
- 7 sumthin or earlier.

26. What are you doing this week?
- Getting prepared for the singing competition =]

27. Are you smiling?
- Yes but just for a lil while though.

28. Do you miss someone right now?
- Not really.

29. Do you have a crush?
- Nooooooope.

30. Do you have a sister?
- Nopee =/

31. Who is your closest cousin’s name?
- You winnn ;D

32. What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
- Checking sumthin.

33. if you were a color, what would you be?
- Blue or Red or White or Black =D

34. if you could go anywhere right now, where?
- Go to somewhere fun, like climbing Mount Kinabalu or go watch the Sunset =]

35. Food you're craving for right this minute?
- Hmmm, for now, no i guess. But i guess i feel like eating Donuts, LoL.

36. Name a person who's name starts with the letter "j"?
- Jia Meng.

37. where's the best place to eat ice cream?
- Haagen Daaz =D

38. Radio station you frequently listen to?
- My Fm.

39. Where do you usually hang out?
- Sunway & Times Square.

40. if you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?
- I haven't even start my career yet =.="

41. What are you going to do tomorrow?
- Get my ass back to school which i don't want to =(

42. Favorite day?
- Friday & Saturday !! =D

43. Are you easy to get along with?
- Yeah yeah yeahh i ammm ;DDD

44. What movie do you want to see right now?
- Superhero Movie LOLL.

45. Whose birthday is coming up?
- Phei Sze's =D

46. How many kids do you want?
- 4 !!! =X

47. Where do you usually watch movies?
- Most probably at home, i don't like to go to the cinema =\

48. Name one person which starts with the letter "m"?
- Mayy Yenn.

49. Favorite thing that you have now?
- Nothing in particular. I don't see anything that i have can get me obsessed all over it for now =_=

50. Quote something.
- After all the insults and negative comments i received, i understand that i have to do better and prove myself to everyone who looked down on me.

It's not funny. No it's not.

I know.
Everyone is looking down on me.
Everyone says i'm not gonna make it.
I don't care.

Best friends are doing something weird with they're someone which i'm not happy.
Best friends who come and try to change what i think and believe.
Best friends who made me emo.
Best friends who think it's funny and continue to deepen my wound when i'm emo.

All these aren't helping.
Seriously it isn't.
I don't know if you're really concern about me or what.
But it really pissed me off when you continue to insult me and laugh about it.
Seriously,
I don't feel like talking to you now.
Well maybe it's just the angerness that's making me like that now.
Maybe after some time,
I'll talk to you back.
Well,
At least after the singing competition.
So i can fucking prove to you.
I don't need your supports.
I don't need anyone's.
I'll just do my best and MAKE ppl support me.
Ppl will support ppl that they think they're really good.
So i don't care what do you think now.
Cos sooner or later,
You will realise..

And my confidence won't drop just because of this.
I was thinking for the past 2 days.
I don't want to get sad and emo all over what you all said.
I will rise once again,
And i promise,
I'll make you impressed by my performance this Saturday.
Just wait till you all see.

I don't hate you.
I'm just pissed.
And i can see that you don't even care cos when i expressed that i was pissed,
You totally ignored it.
So yeah,
I don't care.
Why am i gonna care when you don't even care about it.
So yeahh,
I'll talk to you NEXT week.
I'll see if you realised you really hurt me.

Confidence >> Low. Mood >> Low.

I was emo today.
For almost the whole day.
Well it actually started yesterday night.
She was online..
I went to talk to her.
And i went to see her blog.
Seeing how well her life is going now,
I feel happy for her.
But at the same time..
I'm sad =(
Cos i'm not the one there beside her to share her happiness and be there for her when she needs help.
I don't have face to see her anymore.
I don't have the right to.
I've treated her badly.
I didn't give her what she wanted.
And i realised...
I still like her.
I nvr stopped.
Well i thought i did,
But...
No..
I didn't =(
Everything was really okayy and i thought i can finally get over her.
But just when i see how successful she is and catching up with what's going on with her.
Thoughts flow through my mind.
It goes just according to what she's been going through.
I really wish to be there for her when she's in trouble and share her happiness together.
But...
I can't..
I tak layak =(

I hate that i love you.
I really hate it ='(
It's my fault,
I know.
I really hate myself for loving you =(
I love you becos you are who you are,
I also hate you becos you are who you are =[
You have so many bad habbits that i can't even count..
Your new relationships are goin on and on,
I even lost count on how many you had..
Well maybe it's none of my business,
I really should forget about you =(

I'll try my best not to think about you.
I will move on..
Thank you for giving me everything and all the memories..
Thanks...
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I seriously wasn't in the mood today,
Especially during school.
And then sumthin happened between me and my friends.
After that my confidence just went low.
I dunno what to do now.
I guess i'm lost.
I'm trying to find the right way.
And i'll prove it to you all.
Thankss alottt for looking down on me.
Also,
My passion for ******* dropped alot too =[
I hope i can find the passion back.
I don't wanna lose it like how i lost my passion for dancing.
Sighz.

Anyways,
There's a few ppl in school today who's pissing me off.
Boy 1 who i hated since i was form 1 =.="
And Boy 2,
Who i found annoying recently,
Sakai dislike him too.
LOL.
And that group of friends =[

Zzzz Okayy i'll stop about the emoness.
Let's talk about sumthin happy =D
Soooo,
I got chosed to be Calon AJK again this year =]
But i'm not putting much hope on it due to what happened last year which is like,
Got threw down to hell from heaven.
So i really prepared to fail so even if i DID i won't be that sad and disappointed like last year =D
Well this year no one's here to stop me anymore so i guess it'll go more smoothly ?
But i think i'm gonna fail also cos at last it's gonna be the teachers who choose =.="
And i don't think Puan Norliza likes me so yeah most probably i'm gonna fail = =
But anyways,
Wish me luck =DD

Anyways,
I was put into the same group as Fung Soon.
Group 1.
So we were the first ones who followed Mark.
So we were following Mark all around on the first day.
And after that,
EVERYYONEE,
Went like,
"Ooohhh Spellman, you become Ketua Pengawas ah ??"

I was like,
"Holy shit NOOOO PLEASE DUN SPREAD IT"

And as expected,
It continued spreading and spreading and now,
Even Wisely is saying that =.="
I don't know why everyone is saying me when FUNG SOON is also following Mark with me,
Are they blind or wad =.="
Plus i don't like them spreading it becos i scared ppl might say,
"Aiyer that Spellman so cocky, thought he 100% get the pose."

Nooo T.T
I don't want thisss.
Anyways,
Chinese Singing Competition is coming soon,
IU Day is coming soon,
DANCING COMPETITION is coming soon.
Nooo =(
Sighz.
Hope everything went well lah..
Wish me luck everyone... =]

Tagged by Ah Fongggg =D

Name any of your 5 friends(or more) and follow what is written below.-
Name of friend- Picture (optional)-
Nicknames (if available)-
3 things you think he/ she likes-
2 things that you think he/she dislikes-
1 thing which is special about him/her-
1 thing that you think is interesting about him/her-
1 thing that you can comment about him/her
After that, tag 8 of your friends which can be either in the list or not.

~Kei Yan~

Nickname: Frog xD!!

3 things I think she likes: Wear skirts and pants that are damn damn damn short. Love getting scold by me xDD!!! Flirt with guys LOL NO LAH joking only =_= Pat about other ppl's business xD!!
2 things I think she dislikes: I nvr heard her say anything she dislike b4 leh =X

1 thing special bout her: Nice to everyone and not afraid to make friends ? =D

1 thing interesting bout her: You won't find another gurl who's willing to fuck ppl with you LOL xDD!!
1 thing I comment bout her: I love you, bestie!!! And wish you find someone you love soon =D






~Sze Hui~


Nickname: Ah Fong, Fish.


3 things I think she likes: Cute and pink stuffs ? (not sure =X) Chatting =D Write stuffs like those emo posts in her blog =_=
2 things I think she dislikes: Ppl treating her bad. Puan Tan LOL!!
1 thing special bout her: Damn frickin OhMyGawd SMART FREAK =.="
1 thing interesting bout her: Damn funny and always smile =D See her also my mood will good xD
1 thing I comment bout her: Give me 1/10 of your SMARTNESS i also enough edi =_=


~Jia Meng~


Nickname: Ah Meng xDD (New name from Sakai xD)


3 things I think he likes: Scolding vulgar. Flirting with girls. His drum =D
2 things I think he dislikes: Lan si ppl. Almost everything else LOL =X
1 thing special bout him: Non-stop vulgar and 100% got VULGAR in his every sentence xD
1 thing interesting bout him: Funny =D
1 thing I comment bout him: Say less vulgar please cos it's damn low xDDD!! =X




~May Yen~


Nickname: Dead Hamster LOL!!!!
3 thing I think she likes: Her rabbits =D Taking pictures =] Wear nice nice clothes =D
2 things I think she dislikes: Ppl treat her badly and only find her when they need her.
1 thing special bout her: Caring ? =]
1 thing interesting bout her: Funny =P
1 thing I comment bout her: Friends forevaaa !!! =D!



~Chee Kuan~


Nickname: Bubble Usagi, Your Best Friend LOL!!
3 thing I think she likes: Think stupid lame stuffs. Her online game =_= Gossipping xD
2 things I think she dislikes: Backstabbing friends. Annoying asses =X
1 thing special bout her: Always there when you need + Won't let you down =D
1 thing interesting bout her: Damn funny in a werid way xD
1 thing I comment bout her: We're buddiesss forever xDD





Tagging list: *you all tagged everyone i no need tag lor ?*
Thanks to some 2 fellas now i no1 to tag edi =.="
SO PLEASE JUST FRICKIN DO TO ALL THE PPL WHO SEE THIS.

Hmmm.

This few days.
I've been talking to everyone alot.
I mean,
Including talking to ppl that i'm not so close with.
And they said funny things to me.
LOL.
Like Soo Yok Man.
I saw him seeing a guy this few days after school until really late.
I passed by the school after tuition and it's already 5 by that time.
And i ALWAYS saw him meeting some guy wearing uniform.
So i asked about that guy and also if they were dating LOL.
So he started telling me bout this guy.
And i asked him if that guy was hot (I KNOW IT SOUNDS WEIRD =_+)
And he said yeah kinda,
So i asked if he was hotter than me LOLL.
And he said it's different cos,
That guy is HANDSOME and i am PRETTY.
Like wth =.="
Then he explained and meant pretty as in,
A really nice face,
Not gay-ish look or anythin = =
So yeahh it sound weird but i was owhkayy with it =__=
*don't shoot me saying that i look gay after this especially Mr Lum Jia Meng*

And then Shu Yee.
Well we went to Sing K during the holidays.
And usually when i Sing K,
I don't really sing guy songs cos singing gurl songs is more fun and it's not a competition,
We're just having fun so it's okayy if it sounds horrible.
LOL.
And i sang lots of Zhang Hui Mei's songs that day,
And she said i sang Ru Guo Ni Ye Ting Shuo really nice =.="
I didn't believe it and she kept pursuading me to sing it during the competition,
But i won't xD
So everytime she sees me now,
She'll say "SPELLMAN, YOU SING RU GUO NI YE TING SHUO AH ??"
Like REALLY LOUDLY so everyone can hear and made me feel damn malu =.="
But anyways,
I'm a Zhang Hui Mei expert and she plans to sing a Zhang Hui Mei song so she came to me the other day xD
She told me to teach her,
LOL.
I might not sound good in Zhang Hui Mei songs but i know the way to sing her songs greatly so maybe i can help her =D

And then there was Chee Kuan.
After recess,
I saw her gossipping with Koen about someone xD
So i joined to know more about the story xD!!
And then i pretend to be damn 8 and then told Kah Yan & WaiTing's gang but i didn't lah.
Then she thought i really told them everything =.="
But i don't even know the story so basicly i can't tell anythin.
And she frickin ACCUSED me!
So i was angry and sad =[!!
And i told her to tell me the whole story at last so yayy xDD!!

I know i'm damn busybody,
LoL.

Not very happy with Kei Yan this week =[
Cos she don't choi me..
Even Ah Fong also choi me but she didn't T.T
Haiz...
Lost another friend...
=XXX xD

Deaddd.

Mind the title,
I'm just saying that it's been a dead blog for almost a week >"<
Anyways,
This week was owhkayy,
Not much to update.
Oh yeah,
The registration for the Chinese Singing Competition has started and also ended as well = =
So this week is like,
SINGING TREND.
Everyone's holding the form here and there and you can hear ppl singing everywhere.
LIKE SAKAI.
He joined as well =D
Well we have to give all the participants a bow for having the courage to join.
Being able to stand on the stage already deserve a big clap,
So we shouldn't disencourage others,
Instead we should give them supports =D
I dare not to say i can go into the finals easily this year.
But i have confident =]
To those ppl who looked down on me,
Thank you for dissing me all the time,
And i'm gonna work harder just to show all of you.
If i go into the finals,
I really wanna see what's the reaction of you all =]
I don't wanna state the list of the names but i guess i will after some time.
To THANK you all for looking down on me.
Without you people,
I won't improve and work hard. =]
*obviously saying it with anger*

Anyways,
People were emo yesterday.
Sakai, (cos he was sick) Wai Kwong, Hoong Chee & Kok Keong.
They stayed in class and didn't went for Bio class yesterday.
Only Sakai did.
Anyways,
I stayed back after school for the meeting for the Sivik Project.
I was chose to be the Naib Pengerusi so yeah.
And Jia Meng didn't fucking turn up cos he was BUSY FLIRTING at the bus stop with SOMEONE.
Ughh.
So anyways,
We decided to go FRIM,
Some place at Kepong.
The activities will be Jungle Trekking & Canopy Walk. (Dunno what the hell is that)
And each person have to pay 10 bucks i guess.
And the school will sponsor the bus I GUESS.
And i'm NOT the one who're suppose to do the paper work so YAYY XD!!
Naib Pengerusi is THE BEST.
I was Naib Pengerusi for Bendahara during form 2 and i don't recall doing anything =X
Well i don't know lah,
Cos no one ordered me to do anythin.
But i remember i volunteered to write the report so yeaahhh xD

Anyways,
July is gonna be a busyyyy weeekk.
Every Saturday have to go to school.
1st Saturday of July,
Singing Competition Preliminary Round.
2nd Saturday Of July,
I.U Day,
3rd Saturday of July,
Singing Competition Finals & Latin Dance Competition =(,
4th Saturday Of July,
Photography Competition =.="
And 1ST SATURDAY OF JULY,
SIVIK PROJECT TRIP =.="
Seriously need a break -.-

Oh my god,
I nearly forgot!
Next friday is report card day.
I'm scared =[
I'm not calling my mom to come cos i failed 3 subjects =[
But i'm afraid my class teacher would call my mom and ask !!
So i really have no idea what to do now T.T
And i don't know what excuse should i give to Mommy if i told her Friday i'm not goin to school.
Well maybe i can say it's one of the teacher's retirement ceremony ?
LOL,
Whatever.
But the best is someone's mom can help me take the report card T.T !!

Arghh,
I'm lost noww.
Will update soon if something happened,
Sighz =[